thepink-cloakedninja
Marshmallow Heart
- Joined
- Nov 21, 2016
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- MBTI Type
- ISFJ
- Enneagram
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- Instinctual Variant
- sp/sx
Hey, so I’m unsure about my type, mostly because different people keep telling me I’m different types and it’s very confusing! I think I’ve narrowed it down to ISFJ or INFJ but I’d love help figuring out which one I am, if you can spare the time!
Describe a moment when you felt truly alive
I think the moment I’ve ever felt the most alive was last summer at a writing workshop. It was the final night of the workshop and at the end of the session they played the song “Home†on the speakers. I’m not even a huge fan of that song, but as we were all standing in the dark, I suddenly felt so very connected to everyone around me, like all our souls had joined in a group hug. It was the most peaceful, joyful feeling I’ve ever experienced, like I truly was home.
What do you want most out of life?
What I want most is to do something meaningful that will help others and leave the world better off. What I want for myself is a peaceful, quiet existence full of creative pursuits, some unstressful adventures, lots of nature, and meaningful relationships.
What do you fear most?
I’m afraid of hurting people. I’ve always been terrified that I make the people around me worse off than they would be otherwise, and so I strive to ensure my fear doesn’t become a reality. Some of my darkest times have been because I thought I was a hindrance to others, and my most memorable nightmares are always something like me accidentally hitting a sister with a car. I think the worst situation imaginable for me would be to do something to help humanity but have it backfire and cause a huge catastrophe.
How do you view yourself? Is it different than how others see you?
I think of myself as an early morning sunrise: full of hope and potential for the future, and the pinks and yellows across the edges of the horizon represent my sweetness and friendliness. But the less noticeable aspect of the sunrise is the gray and black which takes up most of the sky. This is the heaviness and cynicism I feel much of the time, but that others rarely notice, probably because I’m poor at expressing it and have a naturally upbeat way of speaking and moving.
What makes you sad?
Many things. Some of them are silly, such as seeing all the cars whizzing around in the early morning and feeling down because I know most of the drivers are off to work and I wish they could be having breakfast with their family, instead. Seeing anyone in emotional or physical pain makes me depressed also, especially if it’s a child. What makes me saddest is children’s suffering in 3rd-world countries.
What makes you happy?
Spending time with my family (as long as no one is fighting!), doing creative activities like writing or painting, hiking, and reading.
How often do you like to get together with friends or attend social events?
I attend social activities about once a week, but hang out with the friends I’m related to (aka my sisters and parents) more, if possible. I would probably be more socially active if I wasn’t so busy with school.
How tidy are your living spaces, usually?
They’re typically untidy. I try my best to keep things clean, but somehow my organization just degrades and I can’t keep up with the mess. I blame the second law of thermodynamics.
Describe a moment when you felt truly alive
I think the moment I’ve ever felt the most alive was last summer at a writing workshop. It was the final night of the workshop and at the end of the session they played the song “Home†on the speakers. I’m not even a huge fan of that song, but as we were all standing in the dark, I suddenly felt so very connected to everyone around me, like all our souls had joined in a group hug. It was the most peaceful, joyful feeling I’ve ever experienced, like I truly was home.
What do you want most out of life?
What I want most is to do something meaningful that will help others and leave the world better off. What I want for myself is a peaceful, quiet existence full of creative pursuits, some unstressful adventures, lots of nature, and meaningful relationships.
What do you fear most?
I’m afraid of hurting people. I’ve always been terrified that I make the people around me worse off than they would be otherwise, and so I strive to ensure my fear doesn’t become a reality. Some of my darkest times have been because I thought I was a hindrance to others, and my most memorable nightmares are always something like me accidentally hitting a sister with a car. I think the worst situation imaginable for me would be to do something to help humanity but have it backfire and cause a huge catastrophe.
How do you view yourself? Is it different than how others see you?
I think of myself as an early morning sunrise: full of hope and potential for the future, and the pinks and yellows across the edges of the horizon represent my sweetness and friendliness. But the less noticeable aspect of the sunrise is the gray and black which takes up most of the sky. This is the heaviness and cynicism I feel much of the time, but that others rarely notice, probably because I’m poor at expressing it and have a naturally upbeat way of speaking and moving.
What makes you sad?
Many things. Some of them are silly, such as seeing all the cars whizzing around in the early morning and feeling down because I know most of the drivers are off to work and I wish they could be having breakfast with their family, instead. Seeing anyone in emotional or physical pain makes me depressed also, especially if it’s a child. What makes me saddest is children’s suffering in 3rd-world countries.
What makes you happy?
Spending time with my family (as long as no one is fighting!), doing creative activities like writing or painting, hiking, and reading.
How often do you like to get together with friends or attend social events?
I attend social activities about once a week, but hang out with the friends I’m related to (aka my sisters and parents) more, if possible. I would probably be more socially active if I wasn’t so busy with school.
How tidy are your living spaces, usually?
They’re typically untidy. I try my best to keep things clean, but somehow my organization just degrades and I can’t keep up with the mess. I blame the second law of thermodynamics.
Though I could see my version of Ni as a Si/Ti combo as I find patterns from past experiences and books I've read, and behaviors I've witnessed, and apply it together to form a long river of interpretations and insights. That makes sense though. 
