soneÄka
New member
- Joined
- Dec 8, 2016
- Messages
- 13
- MBTI Type
- INXX
- Enneagram
- 459
I don't know how to properly start. MBTI became one of my special interests few months ago. I don't think I have a great talent to understand myself, so I quitted introspection in favor of self-observation to understand my type, and I need to be observed from the outside too. I feel like I'm running in circle and missing the point, as can't get a global sense from myself. I'm going to write a few lines, and, if you want, tell me what is your impression. I don't have a experience of humanity and can't compare myself to others, but maybe you can blend me in a context that makes sense.
Sometimes I have the impression of going through the world and see all the synchronies that shows as a stable trend that unites mind and physical enviroment. Object keeps appearing and reappearing to my eyes, and I think my mind notice them to the extent that they become a form of repetition. I walk every path with this sense of duality between the nature of the mind and the nature of perception and I wonder what it means, which one of the two provide a sense of repetition. I don't understand if I'm a creature confined in her head or a object between objects. If I'm the most abstract or the most concrete. Sometimes I am frustrated and overwhelmed that I don't get any meaning from objects. I wish they could speak to me.
All my perceptions and insights are identity-mind related. I seek intense and meaningful experiences: I wish I could communicate them, or tell my identity through them. I want to be connected, I want to be understood, to fit, to be good, to understand. I see identity as a start and as a cage. I think I'm a enneagram 4, maybe with a 3 wing that creates me a desperate will of outward existence and recognition. Or maybe I'm a 9 with a 1 wing: unaware of my feelings, without a will, stuck in a parallel dimension outside the self, but with equanimity as a model for life. I tested as infp, infj, intp. Feel free to ask more questions. I would be grateful for that.
Sometimes I have the impression of going through the world and see all the synchronies that shows as a stable trend that unites mind and physical enviroment. Object keeps appearing and reappearing to my eyes, and I think my mind notice them to the extent that they become a form of repetition. I walk every path with this sense of duality between the nature of the mind and the nature of perception and I wonder what it means, which one of the two provide a sense of repetition. I don't understand if I'm a creature confined in her head or a object between objects. If I'm the most abstract or the most concrete. Sometimes I am frustrated and overwhelmed that I don't get any meaning from objects. I wish they could speak to me.
All my perceptions and insights are identity-mind related. I seek intense and meaningful experiences: I wish I could communicate them, or tell my identity through them. I want to be connected, I want to be understood, to fit, to be good, to understand. I see identity as a start and as a cage. I think I'm a enneagram 4, maybe with a 3 wing that creates me a desperate will of outward existence and recognition. Or maybe I'm a 9 with a 1 wing: unaware of my feelings, without a will, stuck in a parallel dimension outside the self, but with equanimity as a model for life. I tested as infp, infj, intp. Feel free to ask more questions. I would be grateful for that.