nemiki
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Hello! 
Sorry for my english in advance. I’m not a native speaker.
I have PTSD. (plus anxiety and a very mild and strange non constant form of ocd)
Iknow I am a 100% Si and Fi. Thats all I know. I read that you show and develop the dominant function and the aux function even as a kid. The tert and inferior only develops when your older (20-30). So I have to use only 2 functions right? I am 17 years old.
◠Even as a child I couldn’t deal with change. I got sick every vacation because I wanted to be in my safe known home. I always wanted the same night routine the same meals the same day rhythm. I couldn’t even read a book without looking at the last page to know how its going to end. I hate surprises. I let my sister try everything before I tried it. I let her taste new food, I let her go in new situations first and wanted a detailed review before I was going to try it. I let my sister do the things I didn’t want.
â— I was a bossy child. I always wanted to organize everything so it goes my way. In school I liked to take the lead and tell the kids what to do. I was a very loud child.
◠I’m still very routine oriented. My now anxiety disorder is all about avoiding change. I compare everything to the past from my memory web. I am very detail oriented and notice every shift. I still can’t try new things and have to let others try it first.
◠When I am giving advise now, I always look at my past experiences to compare and attune them to theirs. Then I always add a little bit logic to the problem. This sometimes makes me look a bit harsh. But I try to sound nice and friendly so the person still thinks I am pleasant human being because my sister for example is extremely logical, blunt and shows absolutely no empathy. I would be like that too but I know if I would act like this the friendship wouldn’t stay that strong. (My friends don’t like my sister that much because of her „coldness“ so I am trying to adapt. I am not being friendly in favor of not hurting the other person.
So if I used si as a child. I must be dom or aux right?
◠I love planning with my sister for the future. We were one of those kids who would ask in forums about dog breeds, jobs, salary, because we needed to know now what the future would be like, which job we would have, which exact dog breed… etc. even though we were only 10.
I always know how my actions affect the future. I always know what to say to get things in the future. But I don’t stick to the plans I make. I make plans for fun and vage control. I don’t have goals I stick to.
I always assume things to be true even though they often aren’t. I judge to quickly. I can’t just wait and see what happens. I have to know WHAT happens. I couldn’t accept a “you’re so young who knows what the future bring. I needed to know what comes towards my. I had to be prepared. (my sister is a ni dom so maybe she infected me with that “future modeâ€.)
Thats ni? right? but Si and Ni don't exist.
â— As a child maybe 10, I created a whole movie. I wrote the whole script. I organized costumes etc. Then a friend, my sister and I filmed a movie. We never finished it though. I loved writing stories in school and reading them out loud. I never stick to a new project of mine. I loose interest very quickly.
◠Something which happens very often is: when someone says: "what are you talking about thats bullshit I mean I understand you but….." I stop listening by „bullshit“ and forge an opinion.I judge before listening to the end.
â— My anxiety disorder is full with possible events. When I am stressed it is never because of one thing. It is because of the million possible things that could happen. I try to calm myself down in stressfaul situations with ridiculous possibilities.
◠Something that happens very very often is that get moments where I switch to next topic within seconds. For example (anxiety disorder) when I am terrified and ask „what happens when there is a nuclear power plant explosion?“ people try to calm me down with logical reasoning. And after 10 minutes of listening and googling I go to nuclear-radioactive-cancer-radioactive fish from japan-i have cancer. And then I try to switch the topic to my cancer fear. People wonder because my (real) fear of nuclear power plants is completely gone. That isn't just happening in anxiety situations. I always jump from topic to topic.
◠I don’t like deadlines. I never gave my best in school. I only studied for like two days and was happy with bad grades. I always got away with it. I never did homework because I thought it was unnecessary.
◠In stressful situations I quickly loose control. When this happens I am dependent on the other person with me. Then the other person then has to organize, analyze everything and give me facts and logical reasoning. When something is unorganized I get stressed. But I can’t organize it by myself.
When I am confronted with something new I can’t live without a vage plan although I dont have to follow it. Just a plan. Maybe I use it or not. The main point is that it is there.
â— Furthermore I know that I was/am very resourceful to get what I want.
◠I have strong principles and morals I hold on to. I hate criticism. I have always been very emotional and sensitive. I always show my emotions and want to talk about them. Because I think when I discuss them it’s easier to analyze. I always know why I feel a certain way. I always know the logical reason behind it and know why I am acting irrational. I just can’t admit it so get angry. Because of that people think I don’t get their logical reasoning why I am wrong or irrational. But I get it every time. I just can’t control my feelings and let my logical inside rise.
◠I know what I want and what not. When I don’t want to take medication for example because i once read about long term effects which seems logical to me not even the doctor could convince me to take them. You would need to give me completely logical reasoning and scientific research to convince me.
◠In Elementary school I was the one asking a million questions. I always wanted to know „why“. Everyone hated me for this but I wanted to understand everything 100%. I couldn’t accept basic statements. My brain couldn’t understand them. You had to explain it to me extremely detailed to understand it.
I have a subjective logic. I like talking about god and the world, theories, philosophy but I find it very difficult to read a theory book. I prefer to discuss things than serious reading. When I want to know about parallel universes I would only read the first two three sentences and then get bored. I can’t deal with technical terms. Although I want to. Even when I like rhetoric and logic. I could never read a specialist book about logic or rhetoric.
I am the opposite of privat and reserved.
People told me I am a Fi dom. That sounds like me but what choices do I have? ISFP? INFP? I definitely don’t have Se and never a high Se. And INFP?
I am desperate. Please help me.
Sorry for my english in advance. I’m not a native speaker.
I have PTSD. (plus anxiety and a very mild and strange non constant form of ocd)
Iknow I am a 100% Si and Fi. Thats all I know. I read that you show and develop the dominant function and the aux function even as a kid. The tert and inferior only develops when your older (20-30). So I have to use only 2 functions right? I am 17 years old.
◠Even as a child I couldn’t deal with change. I got sick every vacation because I wanted to be in my safe known home. I always wanted the same night routine the same meals the same day rhythm. I couldn’t even read a book without looking at the last page to know how its going to end. I hate surprises. I let my sister try everything before I tried it. I let her taste new food, I let her go in new situations first and wanted a detailed review before I was going to try it. I let my sister do the things I didn’t want.
â— I was a bossy child. I always wanted to organize everything so it goes my way. In school I liked to take the lead and tell the kids what to do. I was a very loud child.
◠I’m still very routine oriented. My now anxiety disorder is all about avoiding change. I compare everything to the past from my memory web. I am very detail oriented and notice every shift. I still can’t try new things and have to let others try it first.
◠When I am giving advise now, I always look at my past experiences to compare and attune them to theirs. Then I always add a little bit logic to the problem. This sometimes makes me look a bit harsh. But I try to sound nice and friendly so the person still thinks I am pleasant human being because my sister for example is extremely logical, blunt and shows absolutely no empathy. I would be like that too but I know if I would act like this the friendship wouldn’t stay that strong. (My friends don’t like my sister that much because of her „coldness“ so I am trying to adapt. I am not being friendly in favor of not hurting the other person.
So if I used si as a child. I must be dom or aux right?
◠I love planning with my sister for the future. We were one of those kids who would ask in forums about dog breeds, jobs, salary, because we needed to know now what the future would be like, which job we would have, which exact dog breed… etc. even though we were only 10.
I always know how my actions affect the future. I always know what to say to get things in the future. But I don’t stick to the plans I make. I make plans for fun and vage control. I don’t have goals I stick to.
I always assume things to be true even though they often aren’t. I judge to quickly. I can’t just wait and see what happens. I have to know WHAT happens. I couldn’t accept a “you’re so young who knows what the future bring. I needed to know what comes towards my. I had to be prepared. (my sister is a ni dom so maybe she infected me with that “future modeâ€.)
Thats ni? right? but Si and Ni don't exist.
â— As a child maybe 10, I created a whole movie. I wrote the whole script. I organized costumes etc. Then a friend, my sister and I filmed a movie. We never finished it though. I loved writing stories in school and reading them out loud. I never stick to a new project of mine. I loose interest very quickly.
◠Something which happens very often is: when someone says: "what are you talking about thats bullshit I mean I understand you but….." I stop listening by „bullshit“ and forge an opinion.I judge before listening to the end.
â— My anxiety disorder is full with possible events. When I am stressed it is never because of one thing. It is because of the million possible things that could happen. I try to calm myself down in stressfaul situations with ridiculous possibilities.
◠Something that happens very very often is that get moments where I switch to next topic within seconds. For example (anxiety disorder) when I am terrified and ask „what happens when there is a nuclear power plant explosion?“ people try to calm me down with logical reasoning. And after 10 minutes of listening and googling I go to nuclear-radioactive-cancer-radioactive fish from japan-i have cancer. And then I try to switch the topic to my cancer fear. People wonder because my (real) fear of nuclear power plants is completely gone. That isn't just happening in anxiety situations. I always jump from topic to topic.
◠I don’t like deadlines. I never gave my best in school. I only studied for like two days and was happy with bad grades. I always got away with it. I never did homework because I thought it was unnecessary.
◠In stressful situations I quickly loose control. When this happens I am dependent on the other person with me. Then the other person then has to organize, analyze everything and give me facts and logical reasoning. When something is unorganized I get stressed. But I can’t organize it by myself.
When I am confronted with something new I can’t live without a vage plan although I dont have to follow it. Just a plan. Maybe I use it or not. The main point is that it is there.
â— Furthermore I know that I was/am very resourceful to get what I want.
◠I have strong principles and morals I hold on to. I hate criticism. I have always been very emotional and sensitive. I always show my emotions and want to talk about them. Because I think when I discuss them it’s easier to analyze. I always know why I feel a certain way. I always know the logical reason behind it and know why I am acting irrational. I just can’t admit it so get angry. Because of that people think I don’t get their logical reasoning why I am wrong or irrational. But I get it every time. I just can’t control my feelings and let my logical inside rise.
◠I know what I want and what not. When I don’t want to take medication for example because i once read about long term effects which seems logical to me not even the doctor could convince me to take them. You would need to give me completely logical reasoning and scientific research to convince me.
◠In Elementary school I was the one asking a million questions. I always wanted to know „why“. Everyone hated me for this but I wanted to understand everything 100%. I couldn’t accept basic statements. My brain couldn’t understand them. You had to explain it to me extremely detailed to understand it.
I have a subjective logic. I like talking about god and the world, theories, philosophy but I find it very difficult to read a theory book. I prefer to discuss things than serious reading. When I want to know about parallel universes I would only read the first two three sentences and then get bored. I can’t deal with technical terms. Although I want to. Even when I like rhetoric and logic. I could never read a specialist book about logic or rhetoric.
I am the opposite of privat and reserved.
People told me I am a Fi dom. That sounds like me but what choices do I have? ISFP? INFP? I definitely don’t have Se and never a high Se. And INFP?
I am desperate. Please help me.
