[MENTION=29978]apathylex[/MENTION] okay here goes
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
Too many people suggesting completely different types, some are saying INFP and Psyclepath says ISFJ
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
Despite how unrealistic it sounds, I want to find my life calling/passion. Having something to inspire me would make me feel better than floating around. I want to become more confident because I've been told I have potential, and I don't think I can reach that until I overcome the mental limits I'm setting for myself.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
I would say a couple of years ago, after I moved out my family's house. I became... so calm. I wasn't stressed anymore by my family, I could do what I wanted and I felt optimistic about life. I was able to grow mentally in a short space of time, seeing as my biased hatred wasn't clouding my perspective of others. I could self-reflect on how passive aggressive and tense and unhappy I'd been. I was doing well at school and writing stories with more ease; in my new house I could focus without noise. I think I forgave myself some, was able to relax when I couldn't do school assignments and looked at them in a new way. I had really wanted a change of environment for a long time so i think that helped.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
Being told what to do, my family was very strict and it was so annoying! I feel horrible when I'm criticised, whether or not it's constructive, because I am already more than aware of all the things I do wrong. I don't like not knowing what to do because I end up asking for help, and i
hate asking for help because I feel stupid and like everyone else is raring ahead of me with whatever task we're supposed to do.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.
I think about what I want, I think what I like and dislike in terms of consequences and what makes sense to me. If others are involved I try to see where they're coming from (and allow exceptions, for example if they have a disability) and from the POV from people who will be affected; I kinda guess what they could be thinking if they're not there to give their insight.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
In terms of outcome, I want it to be done before the deadline, whether or not everyone decides to contribute. (Can't risk a bad grade, and I will finish it myself if I have to) If it's a group project, I give all my ideas and encourage everyone to contribute, then usually we assign ourselves to certain parts to do the project, do some work on our own, then come back and combine our ideas.
7) Describe a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
Gosh this is so hard to answer, I barely remember my life before starting university... Hm, a few years ago, me and my friends went to the fireworks show and went back to a friend's house to hang out. It was so good to be around so many happy people you know? I was free of my negative family for the night, two of my friends began a relationship that night and he was so ecstatic that I forgot about wanting a partner for myself. Everyone was buzzing, I felt like I could talk freely (despite normally being quite quiet) and crack jokes, prank my friends. I don't remember it all too clearly but I know that some people in our friend-group weren't getting along but they set aside their differences and even though their smiles were insincere I appreciated that they were trying because it meant I wasn't going to have to to mediate with another fight -.-
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you? (Are you more prone to be hands on, to theorise, to memorise, etc)
I like to have a mix of things, when I began to learn a language I would write out and say the words out loud. I was really eager to just speak the language rather than learn it properly, so I would pick up phrases and repeat them. I would forget written and spoken words frequently, so I would go straight into speaking a phrase, and taking note of feedback so i could include it next time. If I want to learn about a person, I usually guess as to what kind of person they are, find out what their life was like and see if it could have had any impact on the person and if it shows in their behaviour.
9) How organised do you to think of yourself as?
Hmm, I don't often see myself as organised, but apparently compared to others I'm pretty organised. I'm the kinda person who plans ahead and keeps things in a designated place in my room. So yeah even if it's messy I usually have an idea where things could be. I'm not so good at time-managing though, I usually under-estimate how long it'll take me to do something and have to rush to finish it.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?
Probably the second one, I don't really understand what's meant by understanding the principals behind it (difficult wording)
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
I like both; I'm not afraid to ditch a group if I know I'm not going to get along with them though at the same time I do like to feel as though I belong, I'm not sure that I'm the kind of person to make sure everyone is fine (only the ones who look upset).
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
I think before speaking usually, and from a young age I'm aware that I prefer one-on-one communication. Group discussions are overwhelming and I often get ignored because I'm quiet. Though as I've gotten older I found I can appreciate group discussions because they bring new things to conversation that would otherwise turn stale with just 2 people.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speak more than words?
Look before you leap... I tend to prefer actions since I'm not always comfortable with conversation, but actions can be interpreted in a lot of ways so it's best to have them come hand in hand.
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
Now don't take this the wrong way, I know I'm introverted and i dislike that fact, so I try to combat it by going out with people when they invite me.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
I become tense, irritable and panic easily. If I can't do something myself I beg for help and try to push the responsibility onto the person helping me so I don't have to do it.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
I don't like people who are loud or abrasive. I don't really enjoy being around people who aren't at least on an equal intelligence level because it feels like I'm looking after than rather than actually having a conversation with them. I don't like pretentious or unemotional people; the first because it's like "dude get off your high horse, i know you have a maid and gucchi shades, but your dad is cheating on your mum and you smell like wet feet so shush" and the latter because it makes me so uneasy... i can't tell what they're thinking at all and i feel like i'm constantly doing the wrong thing if i can't make them laugh.
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
my favourite tv shows! my experiences vs theirs, i don't know why but i'm always fascinated by stories of failed relationships, i love talking about my friends and making up stories about other people like "what if the most hated teacher in our school is actually a murderer" or something weird like that. and it hasn't happened yet but i would have a field day if someone talked to me about mbti and discussed the behaviours of those around us to try and type them.
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life?
(well i dunno bc i'm not paying attention to it, lol) i feel like i pay attention to everything, so i don't feel i can answer this very well, uh... I tend to not focus on what I could/should be doing right now
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? What would your friends never say about your personality?
There's kind of been a trend in the characters that people say remind them of me... Like they tend to be mean/bad-mannered/rude on top but nice on the inside? (Like Prince Zuko) Often goofy and outspoken, maybe honest, geeky, daring, easy-going... Along those lines I think. I wouldn't really say they're wrong but like... it's often surprising how... light-hearted and happy they see me? maybe i've been stuck in my head too long, or they think of me as the person i try to be. They'd never say... well I'm never called sweet or passive, the kind of person who would have a one-night stand- which i guess means emotionally detached, or that i'm scary...
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
SLEEP. go online and talk to people on chatrooms, fuck about on websites like this and tumblr, maybe read or draw... yeah i don't normally do much but i don't often have the energy to do much else
sorry this is long, hope it helps ^_^