A few months (6 months I think) ago, I found out about the MBTI, I took the test(s) and got mostly INTJ. The descriptions were very accurate, it was even kinda scary. Logical, organized, reserved, committed - and most importantly visionary - were the adjectives that were being used to describe me. I also got interested in the MBTI theory as a whole later on. I started reading more about it (mostly about INTJ's), analyze every aspect of it and unfortunately become annoyingly obsessed with it that my brain automatically started to type (still does) people. Being, supposedly, an INTJ also increased my self confidence quite a lot, since I used to be very self conscious and had extremely low confidence. But, something didn't feel right; many people on forums were labeling INTJ's as being assholes, offensive, unemotional, etc. I have always been honest (sometimes too honest for my good), but I am also very polite, respectful, I try not to hurt others and most importantly I have emotions, very strong ones indeed but I never show them openly except to the people that are closest to me, and I also get hurt when people insult things that I deem important (especially intelligence hehe). I disregarded all of this as me having low confidence and still being relatively immature and young (I'm 17). It still didn't feel right, I felt so fake trying to fit into one of the 16 stereotypes. To fix this, I started researching even more about the MBTI and found out about the cognitive functions. That was the point where I got utterly confused. Since then, I have literally typed myself as half of the possible types. The fact that I can relate to (almost) all the functions doesn't help at all.
Currently I'm am in a serious identity crisis, I feel like discovering the MBTI ruined my normal functioning, I can't remember how I acted before all of this. Instead of preparing my college application I spent nearly all of my summer reading about this BS. I could even say that I was reading about it involuntarily, whenever I started doing something else to distract me, I would always get back to it. I used to have a very active mind thinking about ideas and stuff, but now the only thing I think when I zone out is typology. I even lost my interest in things I used to love. I deeply hate this obsession.
All of this probably sound like I'm depressed, but I sincerely don't think I am...
Could anyone please enlighten me, give me some insight, either on how to finally type myself correctly and never think about it again or even better how to get over this suffocating obsession that makes me feel like a claustrophobic trapped in a dark closed space.
Professional help is not available in the place I live and my parents won't understand me.
I'm aware that the post is long(ish) and my English a bit broken I apologize for that but I needed to get it out somehow so any advice is greatly appreciated!
Thanks in regards!
Currently I'm am in a serious identity crisis, I feel like discovering the MBTI ruined my normal functioning, I can't remember how I acted before all of this. Instead of preparing my college application I spent nearly all of my summer reading about this BS. I could even say that I was reading about it involuntarily, whenever I started doing something else to distract me, I would always get back to it. I used to have a very active mind thinking about ideas and stuff, but now the only thing I think when I zone out is typology. I even lost my interest in things I used to love. I deeply hate this obsession.
All of this probably sound like I'm depressed, but I sincerely don't think I am...
Could anyone please enlighten me, give me some insight, either on how to finally type myself correctly and never think about it again or even better how to get over this suffocating obsession that makes me feel like a claustrophobic trapped in a dark closed space.
Professional help is not available in the place I live and my parents won't understand me.
I'm aware that the post is long(ish) and my English a bit broken I apologize for that but I needed to get it out somehow so any advice is greatly appreciated!
Thanks in regards!