Norrsken
self murderer
- Joined
- Nov 27, 2015
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- MBTI Type
- ENFJ
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/so
Type my miserable butt, GO.
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type? I was exposed to the MBTI typology in high school when I was a fresh faced eighteen year old. I tested as INFP and did not think much about it until I was a few months shy of turning twenty, and it was then that I joined a popular MBTI website (PersonalityCafe) to discover more about myself. I have since tested as INFP for many years until I began to, for some reason, doubt myself around twenty-two to twenty-four years old when I started playing house with my then-fiance, who is now my husband.
I saw myself really getting into the whole homemaking thing. I may not be a huge fan of cleaning, but I love to cook, do chores and do daily errands in order to make my partner's life easier. I love knowing that I can, in some small way, make a difference in someone else's life. Now that I think about it, I was always the very helpful type of person; I love being there for my friends back in my school days, giving them anything they needed, whether it's a room to sleep in to get away from abusive parents, or a shoulder to cry on. I love giving advice, and sometimes tend to overdo it, and this has gotten me into trouble. I guess this is why my enneagram is a type two instead of a four like I used to think.
Anyhow, going back to homemaking, I realized that being organized with my time and everything else made my life, as well as my partner's, life very easier to manage. I started to really like organizing things around the house and making the best of my time as possible. So, I guess I'm a little confused here: Have I always been a secret Judging type because I was depressed and lazy at a younger age, or am I really still just a Perceiving type who seems a little too OCD for her own good?
I think there is also about sociability that I am confused about. I really think I am an introvert despite everything else, because one thing I should know is how absolutely exhausted I am after I socialize or otherwise stay out for long periods of time. I love staying home. I love being inside my head. But I also love people, in a way. I love helping them, talking with them, discovering their hidden beauty. I am very social online and maybe a little gregarious in real life, though I do have my moments of wanting to just be left alone with my thoughts. But I do wonder, since I am so into people deep down, that I might be a very reserved extrovert?
The N/S type doesn't bother me much, and I don't know if I am truly a Sensor. I am always inside my head, I love patterns and making connections between them, and I love to seek out the unknown, whatever that means. Details bore the heck out of me, hence why my early school days were a total drag for me. I did better in college, though, when professors were more into debates and discussions, and giving us more freedom to be ourselves. I loved that a lot.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why? Finding a place where I belong. I moved around a lot, and consequently never found a place that I totally felt comfortable in or even had a stable group of friends to count on. I feel like a loser in some way. Even the geekiest kids I used to be familiar with all had these great friends and I am just stuck siting on the sidelines, observing everybody, feeling out of touch and out of place. I just want to find a place where I can find warmth, and love, and relationships with all walks of life. I don't need a huge group of friends, but would like a few lifelong companions that I can count on.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way. I was probably 12 or younger. Life was simple and thus, amazing. I had everything I ever wanted; a home, parents who adored me, showered with gifts because of my dad's prosperous career, friendships with many school children, teachers who were proud of me. I remember being very social, and bubbly, playful, spontaneous, and just totally radiant. I think I was like a prototypical ENFP as a child, now that I think about it. But then, I don't know why or how, but after I turned 13 and on wards, life began to felt hard and people turned mean. I never understood and I developed depression over it.
4) What makes you feel inferior? That I can't do anything right or as effortless as other people can. I have trouble concentrating, with remembering things, and I seem to misplace every day things like keys like it's nothing. I always feel like an overgrown child and it hurts when I see someone else doing something that I just did and they do it better than I could. I just want to be a normal adult.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.) I think about myself and how I fit in the equation, though I do sometimes consider other people in it. For example, when I was working in one of my previous part time jobs, I was asked to cover other people's shifts. I happily obliged, sometimes to my own detriment, and then sometimes I just lie and say I cannot because I think about my own stress level and how I really need my time alone.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome? I love to write, so let me use that as an example for this question. Whenever I write, I just really enjoy and get into the process without really controlling the outcome of how a story might end. I might think about the ending, but it never controls me or how I dictate the flow of my stories. I just let it go and I trust that it'll go to the right place. People love my stories, I think, for that reason.
7) Describe a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it? I was in Puerto Rico, visiting family, and we had so much fun getting to explore the island and seeing the wildlife, the culture, the food, everything. I really enjoyed seeing my cousins there and just enjoyed life on a slower, yet more carefree, experience. I had a lot of fun. I don't think I ever truly had as much fun again as my memories of visiting that place.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you? I'm definitely a visual learner, and I love to read about things before trying my hand on it. I love to cook, for example. I could read about a recipe on a certain dish, but if I don't see a picture or a video on it, I'll never get it done. So, visual it is.
9) How organized do you think of yourself as? I am very organized at all my jobs, and I make sure everything is nice and tidy. I am somewhat the same at home, sometimes I even think I am autistic because I want certain things to be placed at a certain way or else I get anxious. I don't know if I am really that uber conservative about it, though, like those xSTJs and so on who make it their life goals to make everything so neat and spotless. I don't have that in me, I think. I do love checklists and calendars, though, since my memory is so poor.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it? Definitely the former. I am also gullible, in that I can believe almost anything a person tells me, and this has caused my husband some confusion since he is the exact opposite of that. I call him a pessimist but he thinks that you have to be careful at all costs. So, I have trained myself to at least research something before jumping to conclusions, though I still do jump to conclusions anyway.
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself? I'd say the latter, most definitely. I do care about people, but not in a group setting, more like, individually.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions? I think before I speak; if I don't, I just word-vomit and not be able to make a full and coherent sentence, which might bug a lot of people. I am fine with group discussions, especially if they are fun, but I mostly enjoy deep, one-on-one talks with one or a very few people.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words? I HATE being forced to take immediate actions straight away. I like to think about things first before I dive in head first, you know? I don't like surprises and I definitely don't like to be felt like an idiot for jumping so soon before enough information and time to make myself feel comfortable taking that leap. I am definitely a words-person, and I have gotten hurt before because of this. Tell me you like me, and I'll look over the fact that you don't like to talk to me in public because you are ashamed of me... things like that, you know?
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do? The favorite show comes first, sorry guys!
15) How do you act when you're stressed out? I am a master at holding everything in, for long periods of time. I like to be alone in stressful periods in order to decompress, both physically and emotionally.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people? When they are cruel towards others just for the hell of it. I can't stand emotionally manipulative or otherwise mean people who treat others unfairly. I am very judgmental against those people.
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people? Life, death, philosophy, those yummy deep talks. I don't mind small talks, but I definitely enjoy seeing the inner workings of another person's mind the most. That's how my husband and I fell for each other in the first place.
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life? Every day, mundane stuff. The weather. Fashion. Tabloids. Numbers. Voicemails. E-mails unanswered. Dishes.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? ? What would your friends never say about your personality? They see me as this very helpful yet self-depreciating person who loves to make other people laugh and try to fix other people even when they don't want it. Makes me feel like a superhero INFP of some sort, I guess. I don't think there's anything wrong with their perceptions, since reality is so flexible, in my eyes at least. I guess, one thing they'll never say or are too afraid to say, is that the only reason why I fix others is because I am so damaged myself, and I should really focus on myself instead.
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing? To be honest? Be on the internet. Watch movies and tv shows. Sleep. Read, definitely read a lot, and if I'm up for it, enjoy natural beauty such as the sunrise on an early morning.
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type? I was exposed to the MBTI typology in high school when I was a fresh faced eighteen year old. I tested as INFP and did not think much about it until I was a few months shy of turning twenty, and it was then that I joined a popular MBTI website (PersonalityCafe) to discover more about myself. I have since tested as INFP for many years until I began to, for some reason, doubt myself around twenty-two to twenty-four years old when I started playing house with my then-fiance, who is now my husband.
I saw myself really getting into the whole homemaking thing. I may not be a huge fan of cleaning, but I love to cook, do chores and do daily errands in order to make my partner's life easier. I love knowing that I can, in some small way, make a difference in someone else's life. Now that I think about it, I was always the very helpful type of person; I love being there for my friends back in my school days, giving them anything they needed, whether it's a room to sleep in to get away from abusive parents, or a shoulder to cry on. I love giving advice, and sometimes tend to overdo it, and this has gotten me into trouble. I guess this is why my enneagram is a type two instead of a four like I used to think.
Anyhow, going back to homemaking, I realized that being organized with my time and everything else made my life, as well as my partner's, life very easier to manage. I started to really like organizing things around the house and making the best of my time as possible. So, I guess I'm a little confused here: Have I always been a secret Judging type because I was depressed and lazy at a younger age, or am I really still just a Perceiving type who seems a little too OCD for her own good?
I think there is also about sociability that I am confused about. I really think I am an introvert despite everything else, because one thing I should know is how absolutely exhausted I am after I socialize or otherwise stay out for long periods of time. I love staying home. I love being inside my head. But I also love people, in a way. I love helping them, talking with them, discovering their hidden beauty. I am very social online and maybe a little gregarious in real life, though I do have my moments of wanting to just be left alone with my thoughts. But I do wonder, since I am so into people deep down, that I might be a very reserved extrovert?
The N/S type doesn't bother me much, and I don't know if I am truly a Sensor. I am always inside my head, I love patterns and making connections between them, and I love to seek out the unknown, whatever that means. Details bore the heck out of me, hence why my early school days were a total drag for me. I did better in college, though, when professors were more into debates and discussions, and giving us more freedom to be ourselves. I loved that a lot.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why? Finding a place where I belong. I moved around a lot, and consequently never found a place that I totally felt comfortable in or even had a stable group of friends to count on. I feel like a loser in some way. Even the geekiest kids I used to be familiar with all had these great friends and I am just stuck siting on the sidelines, observing everybody, feeling out of touch and out of place. I just want to find a place where I can find warmth, and love, and relationships with all walks of life. I don't need a huge group of friends, but would like a few lifelong companions that I can count on.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way. I was probably 12 or younger. Life was simple and thus, amazing. I had everything I ever wanted; a home, parents who adored me, showered with gifts because of my dad's prosperous career, friendships with many school children, teachers who were proud of me. I remember being very social, and bubbly, playful, spontaneous, and just totally radiant. I think I was like a prototypical ENFP as a child, now that I think about it. But then, I don't know why or how, but after I turned 13 and on wards, life began to felt hard and people turned mean. I never understood and I developed depression over it.
4) What makes you feel inferior? That I can't do anything right or as effortless as other people can. I have trouble concentrating, with remembering things, and I seem to misplace every day things like keys like it's nothing. I always feel like an overgrown child and it hurts when I see someone else doing something that I just did and they do it better than I could. I just want to be a normal adult.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.) I think about myself and how I fit in the equation, though I do sometimes consider other people in it. For example, when I was working in one of my previous part time jobs, I was asked to cover other people's shifts. I happily obliged, sometimes to my own detriment, and then sometimes I just lie and say I cannot because I think about my own stress level and how I really need my time alone.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome? I love to write, so let me use that as an example for this question. Whenever I write, I just really enjoy and get into the process without really controlling the outcome of how a story might end. I might think about the ending, but it never controls me or how I dictate the flow of my stories. I just let it go and I trust that it'll go to the right place. People love my stories, I think, for that reason.
7) Describe a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it? I was in Puerto Rico, visiting family, and we had so much fun getting to explore the island and seeing the wildlife, the culture, the food, everything. I really enjoyed seeing my cousins there and just enjoyed life on a slower, yet more carefree, experience. I had a lot of fun. I don't think I ever truly had as much fun again as my memories of visiting that place.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you? I'm definitely a visual learner, and I love to read about things before trying my hand on it. I love to cook, for example. I could read about a recipe on a certain dish, but if I don't see a picture or a video on it, I'll never get it done. So, visual it is.
9) How organized do you think of yourself as? I am very organized at all my jobs, and I make sure everything is nice and tidy. I am somewhat the same at home, sometimes I even think I am autistic because I want certain things to be placed at a certain way or else I get anxious. I don't know if I am really that uber conservative about it, though, like those xSTJs and so on who make it their life goals to make everything so neat and spotless. I don't have that in me, I think. I do love checklists and calendars, though, since my memory is so poor.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it? Definitely the former. I am also gullible, in that I can believe almost anything a person tells me, and this has caused my husband some confusion since he is the exact opposite of that. I call him a pessimist but he thinks that you have to be careful at all costs. So, I have trained myself to at least research something before jumping to conclusions, though I still do jump to conclusions anyway.
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself? I'd say the latter, most definitely. I do care about people, but not in a group setting, more like, individually.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions? I think before I speak; if I don't, I just word-vomit and not be able to make a full and coherent sentence, which might bug a lot of people. I am fine with group discussions, especially if they are fun, but I mostly enjoy deep, one-on-one talks with one or a very few people.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words? I HATE being forced to take immediate actions straight away. I like to think about things first before I dive in head first, you know? I don't like surprises and I definitely don't like to be felt like an idiot for jumping so soon before enough information and time to make myself feel comfortable taking that leap. I am definitely a words-person, and I have gotten hurt before because of this. Tell me you like me, and I'll look over the fact that you don't like to talk to me in public because you are ashamed of me... things like that, you know?
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do? The favorite show comes first, sorry guys!
15) How do you act when you're stressed out? I am a master at holding everything in, for long periods of time. I like to be alone in stressful periods in order to decompress, both physically and emotionally.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people? When they are cruel towards others just for the hell of it. I can't stand emotionally manipulative or otherwise mean people who treat others unfairly. I am very judgmental against those people.
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people? Life, death, philosophy, those yummy deep talks. I don't mind small talks, but I definitely enjoy seeing the inner workings of another person's mind the most. That's how my husband and I fell for each other in the first place.
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life? Every day, mundane stuff. The weather. Fashion. Tabloids. Numbers. Voicemails. E-mails unanswered. Dishes.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? ? What would your friends never say about your personality? They see me as this very helpful yet self-depreciating person who loves to make other people laugh and try to fix other people even when they don't want it. Makes me feel like a superhero INFP of some sort, I guess. I don't think there's anything wrong with their perceptions, since reality is so flexible, in my eyes at least. I guess, one thing they'll never say or are too afraid to say, is that the only reason why I fix others is because I am so damaged myself, and I should really focus on myself instead.
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing? To be honest? Be on the internet. Watch movies and tv shows. Sleep. Read, definitely read a lot, and if I'm up for it, enjoy natural beauty such as the sunrise on an early morning.
My husband is very much convinced that I'm just a stressed out INFP. Which I don't mind, but I just want to put this to rest, so let's see what two folks have to say about it. (I'm waiting for their PMs)
