Sup guys,
So I've been watching videos and reading up on MBTI for a few years now and I'm like 95 percent sure I'm either an ISTP or an ESTP but I still don't know if I'm an E or an I so I thought I'd extemporaneously ask you guys.
OK so sometimes I'm convinced I'm an ISTP cause in certain contexts I'm super reserved and quiet and have a hard time connecting with others, even if I try to start a conversation with other people I'll be unsure of myself and it'll just be really awkward. Like right now I just started working at my new job at a gym and one of my colleagues was like "hey man don't be too hard on yourself, you're just an introvert that's all." When I was a kid I used to take ball point pens apart and play with the individual pieces and I can spend hours by myself playing video games in my room for an entire weekend by myself and be totally ok with it. People have said to me I'm that guy who looks like an engineer who works on a nuclear submarine who doesn't talk much and just tinkers with mechanical devices. That's when I'm like "OK so I must be an ISTP."
But in other contexts I'm the loudest and cockiest guy in the room. When I was a kid whenever the home video recorder was on I hammed it up. Hell you should all read my rants I post my Facebook, I am a provocateur par excellence and I looooove getting a kick out of pissing people off with my inflammatory posts. Sometimes people will delete me but usually I have enough charm to win some of them back once I've persuaded them that I'm not the asshole I portray myself... most of the time anyway. It's like you can't win over all of them right? lol
I'm calm and reserved at work but if I'm at a company party where I have to dress to impress it's like I can turn on a switch and can easily schmooze and make small talk with just about everyone. If someone is needed to give a rousing speech to bolster motivation I'm your man. It's like sometimes when you meet someone and it you just click with them, you ever meet someone you've never met before but it feels like you've known each other you're whole life? If I'm with those kind of people and if they can reassure me if my strengths I do really great. The key thing for me is that I'm in an environment that facilitates and encourages that kind of behavior I thrive. It's like I say to myself "It's safe now to show my wild side where I won't get into trouble." Like if I'm at a job like the one I'm at now that's more administrative and maintence work I falter, I can't show the real me. But if I'm in an environment where it's ok to act out more I thrive. Like I hated math in school, geometry was alright but I hated algebra, just hated it. I liked science but I hated having to sit for two hours in class doing pointless assignments. I did good in English only cause I was really good at bullshitting on essays or giving oral presentations, I always kicked ass at giving oral presentations but god damn I hated analyzing symbolism and shit while having to read John Steinbeck novels. I just hated having to sit in class and be lectured by some dumbass when I knew I was smarter than the teacher. Hell if I was the teacher where I could teach however I wanted I would've loved school, but I wasn't so I hated it.
One second I'm like Solid Snake from Metal Gear Solid, a quiet and solitary figure who sulks in the dark waiting for the right moment to sneak up and pounce on my prey. Two minutes later I'm Liquid Snake, loud cocky and in your face ready and hellbent on world domination. Or sometimes I feel like the main character from Yu Gi Oh, timid amongst intimates but then when I step up to the plate I transform into the most ferocious competitor the world has ever seen. Kind of a Jeckyll and Hide dualistic persona I got going on y'know? I guess you could say I'm struggling with figuring out who I really am, sometimes I look inward and I feel like a ghost in the machine, or like the T-1000 from Terminator 2, I look like a human and act like a human but when you open me up I feel like a soulless robot. I'm constantly trying to please others while simultaneously having a sadistic desire to stoke the flames of controversy. I'm conflicted, unsure of who I am and the role I need to live while in this life. Instead of getting depressed about it I just remind myself that I know that I'm determined to persevere through whatever life throws at me and I'll just be stronger each and every time as a result of it.
Alright so that's the end of my rant lol I tried to be as spontaneous as I could be to give the best snapshot of my personality.
So what say all you? ISTP? ESTP? Or something else completely? Thanks all y'alls for your input.
So I've been watching videos and reading up on MBTI for a few years now and I'm like 95 percent sure I'm either an ISTP or an ESTP but I still don't know if I'm an E or an I so I thought I'd extemporaneously ask you guys.
OK so sometimes I'm convinced I'm an ISTP cause in certain contexts I'm super reserved and quiet and have a hard time connecting with others, even if I try to start a conversation with other people I'll be unsure of myself and it'll just be really awkward. Like right now I just started working at my new job at a gym and one of my colleagues was like "hey man don't be too hard on yourself, you're just an introvert that's all." When I was a kid I used to take ball point pens apart and play with the individual pieces and I can spend hours by myself playing video games in my room for an entire weekend by myself and be totally ok with it. People have said to me I'm that guy who looks like an engineer who works on a nuclear submarine who doesn't talk much and just tinkers with mechanical devices. That's when I'm like "OK so I must be an ISTP."
But in other contexts I'm the loudest and cockiest guy in the room. When I was a kid whenever the home video recorder was on I hammed it up. Hell you should all read my rants I post my Facebook, I am a provocateur par excellence and I looooove getting a kick out of pissing people off with my inflammatory posts. Sometimes people will delete me but usually I have enough charm to win some of them back once I've persuaded them that I'm not the asshole I portray myself... most of the time anyway. It's like you can't win over all of them right? lol
I'm calm and reserved at work but if I'm at a company party where I have to dress to impress it's like I can turn on a switch and can easily schmooze and make small talk with just about everyone. If someone is needed to give a rousing speech to bolster motivation I'm your man. It's like sometimes when you meet someone and it you just click with them, you ever meet someone you've never met before but it feels like you've known each other you're whole life? If I'm with those kind of people and if they can reassure me if my strengths I do really great. The key thing for me is that I'm in an environment that facilitates and encourages that kind of behavior I thrive. It's like I say to myself "It's safe now to show my wild side where I won't get into trouble." Like if I'm at a job like the one I'm at now that's more administrative and maintence work I falter, I can't show the real me. But if I'm in an environment where it's ok to act out more I thrive. Like I hated math in school, geometry was alright but I hated algebra, just hated it. I liked science but I hated having to sit for two hours in class doing pointless assignments. I did good in English only cause I was really good at bullshitting on essays or giving oral presentations, I always kicked ass at giving oral presentations but god damn I hated analyzing symbolism and shit while having to read John Steinbeck novels. I just hated having to sit in class and be lectured by some dumbass when I knew I was smarter than the teacher. Hell if I was the teacher where I could teach however I wanted I would've loved school, but I wasn't so I hated it.
One second I'm like Solid Snake from Metal Gear Solid, a quiet and solitary figure who sulks in the dark waiting for the right moment to sneak up and pounce on my prey. Two minutes later I'm Liquid Snake, loud cocky and in your face ready and hellbent on world domination. Or sometimes I feel like the main character from Yu Gi Oh, timid amongst intimates but then when I step up to the plate I transform into the most ferocious competitor the world has ever seen. Kind of a Jeckyll and Hide dualistic persona I got going on y'know? I guess you could say I'm struggling with figuring out who I really am, sometimes I look inward and I feel like a ghost in the machine, or like the T-1000 from Terminator 2, I look like a human and act like a human but when you open me up I feel like a soulless robot. I'm constantly trying to please others while simultaneously having a sadistic desire to stoke the flames of controversy. I'm conflicted, unsure of who I am and the role I need to live while in this life. Instead of getting depressed about it I just remind myself that I know that I'm determined to persevere through whatever life throws at me and I'll just be stronger each and every time as a result of it.
Alright so that's the end of my rant lol I tried to be as spontaneous as I could be to give the best snapshot of my personality.
So what say all you? ISTP? ESTP? Or something else completely? Thanks all y'alls for your input.
