Alright. I've been holding off on posting to a forum for a while now, since I'm a relatively private person, but over a year of self-reflection and searching and studying as left me in a rut, and I'm afraid I need some help. My previous draft was accidentally deleted, so I'm attempting to type this out all over again, and I'm pretty tired at the moment—please forgive me if there are mistakes here and there.
To briefly restate what I had written before: I'd tested as INFP, INFJ, and sometimes ISFP on various cognitive functions tests. After deciding to try self-reflection instead of relying on online tests, I've been trying to understand the functions. However, the more I try to wrap my head around them, the more puzzled I seem to get. I'd be much obliged if someone would help me identify the functions I use, as well as my MBTI type. I'm going to list some behavioral traits of mine down, which may or may not be relevant:
I'm afraid I'm running out of time, so I think I'll stop here. If you'd like to know anything else, ask away! Help would be much appreciated !
And ah, I should probably mention that I'm only 15 years old, but I hope that doesn't stop you! Especially since I'm aware that most of the users here are much older than I am...
To briefly restate what I had written before: I'd tested as INFP, INFJ, and sometimes ISFP on various cognitive functions tests. After deciding to try self-reflection instead of relying on online tests, I've been trying to understand the functions. However, the more I try to wrap my head around them, the more puzzled I seem to get. I'd be much obliged if someone would help me identify the functions I use, as well as my MBTI type. I'm going to list some behavioral traits of mine down, which may or may not be relevant:
- My friends' well-being and happiness are of utmost priority. I could extend this to family and strangers, but I feel it's strongest with my friends. I have an extreme concern (perhaps even a fear) of being selfish and a burden to others, to the point where I actively avoid attracting any sort of attention to myself. I avoid presenting my personal achievements, I avoid expressing my emotions when I'm upset or depressed, and I try to avoid even just speaking in general. To be honest, I rarely ever speak unless someone else initiates conversation, because I feel like a burden otherwise. It's irrational, and very difficult to explain precisely through words, but the essence of it is this: if I were to be a burden to others, it would make them unhappy; so, to maintain their happiness, I hold back part of myself. However, I don't expect the same from others. In fact, I encourage them to express themselves freely and come to me with their emotional problems, because I want to support them the best I can. In this world of despair and unhappiness, I want them to be happy, and I see my purpose in life being to brighten the lives of others, if even just a little. This is what I believe to be either an unhealthy form of Fe, or a form of Fi in which my friends' happiness is what I value most, and I've had a lot of difficulty determining which.
- I firmly believe in individuality and independence—simply put, I have no desire to be controlled, and I have no desire to control or impose on others. People's jobs, choices of clothing, choice of friends—they should be determined by the heart of the individual, regardless of what others will think.
- I love collecting! All the possibilities, the knowledge that your collection will never be the same as someone else's—all of this makes the act of collecting very appealing to me. In fact, I loved playing Pokemon when I was younger for that very reason. When it comes to casual games, I'm also a huge fan of rhythm games (pretty devoted Love Live! player )! As for more serious gaming, Kingdom Hearts and FF are some of my absolute favorites. Wonderful storylines, characters, and gameplay.
- Currently, I'm in love with atmospheric music. Like this, for example: https://soundcloud.com/lilu-chan/nagi-no-asukara-ost-2-27-and?in=yurebe/sets/tk-flowering It sounds just beautiful, almost as if you can close your eyes and be transported to another world.
- I'm not all for thrills and exciting experiences. I've never been on a roller coaster, and honestly, I don't ever really plan on it. However, I do enjoy the occasional thrill, as long as it isn't too extreme.
- I draw digitally as a hobby, and I also create graphics. However, I don't usually draw using real-life references. Rather, I draw to express the feelings that I'm feeling at that moment, so the images are derived solely from my imagination. I'd imagine that's N > S, though feel free to express your thoughts.
- I'm always contemplating ideas in my head, constantly. And the ideas vary quite a bit. Most times, I wonder about my purpose in life, my reason for being here, if there even is one (I may possibly have slight existential depression), sometimes I play out potential conversations in my head. Heck, just a few days ago, I was getting deep about the purpose of religion while washing dishes.
- I mostly operate on a schedule. I eat at certain times, I do certain chores at certain times, and I get pretty upset if that routine is disturbed.
- I organize for efficiency, with as little clutter as possible. I only have two bookmarks on my browser, and it's been that way for as long as I can remember. When it comes to possessions, I'm very (perhaps too excessively) eager to get rid of unnecessary items as soon as possible, as I feel they only take up space.
I'm afraid I'm running out of time, so I think I'll stop here. If you'd like to know anything else, ask away! Help would be much appreciated !
And ah, I should probably mention that I'm only 15 years old, but I hope that doesn't stop you! Especially since I'm aware that most of the users here are much older than I am...