I don't reveal my vulnerabilities, that is foolish. Why?
Because no ally is 100% trustworth. I still have thousand of secrets, from the little ones, through the embarassing ones, to the ones, that can't be revealed to world, or else it would totally change the way people would look at me (. . . no, I am not murderer!
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I try to find out type of every person around me. Why?
Because I am bad in predicting far future (actually, who is that good), to find out who will be my enemy. So I want to find out type of everybody. Sooner - better. You can never tell which of your allies will turn tommorow evil. I try to find out most things about them, but at the same time let them know least about what I am trying to do. If I really explain somebody personality theories, those are really good friends. However, even to those I can't reveal everything. Why? It is in my behaviour. Fixed and permanently active. Lock of "too private" data.
I was once forced to tell my friend (ESTJ 3w2) my greatest secret. Why? He used emotions, guilty feelings, and "true friendship". What have I said him? I said him secret. Not my greatest one. This one was known to my whole family, whole class on elementary school, and probably to some more people outside that class. "I... I was... bullied on elementary school..." Well, with a little actor talent, and true statement, I gave him what he wanted. Secret, that I don't want to think of anymore. Was it my greatest secret? NO.
That concrete friend makes me a lot of trouble. And yes, he always highlights me the fact, that in this world work actions, not toughts. He once was really really in bad mood and asked me: "What are my bad characteristics?" (btw he knows about my psychological research, but doesn't know the reason of them) It was long conversation. I said him that he thinks he is perfect. He asks me that same question all the time, and I think this is what would honest normal boy of my age say. It is obvious. He always shows off his best characteristics, his all wins, his all- you know what I am talking about. But when he fails, he just says something like "Nah, nevermind", or better - not say anything. And next day he brags out about how he is great in that stuff (in which he yesterday failed). I believe that he would be able to persuade you that he is perfect. He is good persuader. A lot better than me. However, everybody is better persuader than me. This is art I want to teach. Persuading, manipulating, controling people by simple words. He has got it naturally and I am kinda envious of it.
In the conflict at the beggining of that column up here I said that he is perfect. Why? I logicaly came to this as argument, that should end these talks once and for all. But why? Because it is paradox. Best thing you could do, is letting it be. And he did it. It is just like saying "I am humble person." You are obviously liar, you can straightly add to it "Yeh, and I am perfect too B-)" I said him, that he is perfect. He asked me for evidence. I answered, that talks of this style are evidence. He said that he doesn't understand my thinking (duh, it's a paradox!). He tried to persuade me about fact, that he is not perfect, to proove me, that he IS perfect. Wouldn't that be crazy? (Wow, I think I need to write about this article somewhere) That is what he was doing at that moment.
From that conversation he didn't talked to me on this theme. I know that those stories are Off-topic, but I need to brag out about them somewhere. It is simply Epic Win over the Undefeatable.
