HotpinkHeatwave
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- Nov 30, 2009
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- MBTI Type
- ENFP
I have no idea what my type is anymore. Back when I was 16, I tested as an INFP, but we can rule that out - I am definitely not introverted. Not anymore.
From the age 15 to the age 17, I was very, very depressed. Diagnosed, medicated, all that good stuff. I am wondering if the depression (which originally caused me to test as an introvert) was ALSO causing me to test as a feeler (depression makes some people oversensitive).
I am undoubtedly ENXP.
But when it comes to either being a thinker or a feeler, the line is very thin.
I used to be very sensitive, and very emotional. When I say emotional, I mean very lively, bubbly, and highly animate. Very easy to read. I used to feel emotions very deeply. When I was happy, I was ecstatic. When I was sad, it felt as if the world was crashing down around me. When I was angry (which was, and still is a rare thing - it takes something very serious to piss me off), I was enraged. The problems of my loved ones affected me very greatly, and even the problems of complete strangers.
But now? It's different.
I am no longer sensitive and emotional. SURE, I feel emotions, but not as much anymore, and certainly not as intensely. I still get sad, happy, and angry, but nothing like before, as if my emotions are stifled. Usually I am pretty stoic - I'm either stoic, or visibly happy (but only when engaging in conversation). Otherwise, good luck guessing how I feel.
I now face problems very logically. When faced with a problem that belongs to a close friend or family member, it is hard for me to feel their pain anymore. Instead, my reaction is some form of 'Eh, it'll be okay. And if not? Life goes on.'
I can very easily get over relationships now, prior to before, when I would cling to people and be so upset and/or hurt. I am very distant with everyone. There are the people that I am very comfortable and familiar with, and the people who I decide aren't worth my time. I no longer feel 'close' to anyone. It is as if I am keeping myself at bay always, and if a person does enough to warrant me dropping them out of my life (even the people who I love), I will do so with little remorse.
I feel like a robot - calculating, and unable to truly feel.
Am I truly an ENFP who has almost completely stifled their F preference in order to cope,
or
am I truly an ENTP?
OR, am I going through some weird funk? I think this is most likely. I'm still an ENFP.. just going through something weird.
Help.
(Sorry if this post skips around a lot and is worded awkwardly. My mind skips around a lot, I did my best to explain. If you have any questions, ask!)
From the age 15 to the age 17, I was very, very depressed. Diagnosed, medicated, all that good stuff. I am wondering if the depression (which originally caused me to test as an introvert) was ALSO causing me to test as a feeler (depression makes some people oversensitive).
I am undoubtedly ENXP.
But when it comes to either being a thinker or a feeler, the line is very thin.
I used to be very sensitive, and very emotional. When I say emotional, I mean very lively, bubbly, and highly animate. Very easy to read. I used to feel emotions very deeply. When I was happy, I was ecstatic. When I was sad, it felt as if the world was crashing down around me. When I was angry (which was, and still is a rare thing - it takes something very serious to piss me off), I was enraged. The problems of my loved ones affected me very greatly, and even the problems of complete strangers.
But now? It's different.
I am no longer sensitive and emotional. SURE, I feel emotions, but not as much anymore, and certainly not as intensely. I still get sad, happy, and angry, but nothing like before, as if my emotions are stifled. Usually I am pretty stoic - I'm either stoic, or visibly happy (but only when engaging in conversation). Otherwise, good luck guessing how I feel.
I now face problems very logically. When faced with a problem that belongs to a close friend or family member, it is hard for me to feel their pain anymore. Instead, my reaction is some form of 'Eh, it'll be okay. And if not? Life goes on.'
I can very easily get over relationships now, prior to before, when I would cling to people and be so upset and/or hurt. I am very distant with everyone. There are the people that I am very comfortable and familiar with, and the people who I decide aren't worth my time. I no longer feel 'close' to anyone. It is as if I am keeping myself at bay always, and if a person does enough to warrant me dropping them out of my life (even the people who I love), I will do so with little remorse.
I feel like a robot - calculating, and unable to truly feel.
Am I truly an ENFP who has almost completely stifled their F preference in order to cope,
or
am I truly an ENTP?
OR, am I going through some weird funk? I think this is most likely. I'm still an ENFP.. just going through something weird.
Help.
(Sorry if this post skips around a lot and is worded awkwardly. My mind skips around a lot, I did my best to explain. If you have any questions, ask!)