Do you guys agree with my typings?

[Ghost of the dead horse]

INTP LII-Ne 7w6 794 sp/so is what I think. Here's a questionnaire I answered, started on March 11th but the bulk of it was answered today!
If you guys disagree, then what do you think and why?

What do you study or do for a living? How did you come to do that? What do you like or dislike about it?

Though I'm only a 10th grade high school student at the moment, I am interested in studying computer science in university. I came to that conclusion mostly through process of elimination. Social jobs? Fuck no, my social skills are abysmal and pretending I'm not completely incompetent would be too stressful. Creative jobs? Nope! I can't do that every day, I'd get tired of it (I had better-phrased reasoning for this but I've since forgotten it.) What can I do consistently without getting tired? Huh, programming I guess although I haven't done it too much of it so that may not be certain.

I guess it's fun because I feel like I'm actually learning something useful that gives me a lot of flexibility, and because I like that dopamine burst when I solve something. I don't know what I dislike about it, maybe when I thought something would work but then finding out it didn't. Also, along with my reasoning above, I find the types of people to be interested in programming to be much more in sync with me than the average person. It's like I'm instinctively repulsed by people who aren't "like me."

Though with my current trajectory, I may just be a fucking NEET in the future. Can't be bothered to do shit I don't like, i.e most schoolwork. I don't know why other people feel stress/anxiety and I do not at all. Severe apathy moment.

What else do you do on a daily basis? What are your interests and hobbies? Why do you do them?

Suffer. No but seriously, most of what I do is read posts online. I don't truly enjoy anything so the next best thing to do is to kill time. Parents claim I'm addicted but even with using it less, I still feel the same emptiness/boredom/whatever. Sometimes talk to people online too. Feels like I don't care about them as much as I should. Interests include psychology, philosophy, programming, and language learning. Psychology is fun because I can use it to manipulate my foes into doing my evil bidding give further context and meaning to my cripplingly meaningless relations with other people. Philosophy is fun because I can argue with other people and feel like I have a more accurate worldview. Programming is fun because (see above.) Language learning is fun because it's a hierarchical type skill, I can build upon what I've learned.

What are your values, and why?

Integrity because I don't know. I feel compelled to tell the truth unless I have a good reason not to.

Describe your relationships with family and friends. What do you like and dislike about them?

I am an only child that lives with mother and father and has never had a friend in real life. Mother is 54, father is 67. I am more similar to father, I can tell he is introverted. Mother is hard to pinpoint. I wouldn't know exactly how to describe the relationships because I have an abysmal sense of knowing what other people think about me. Am mostly indifferent to mother and father, when I need to say something important I tell it to mother because father tends to not know how to deal with emotions.

Currently have 3 close friends online, although I can't talk to them too much recently because mother limited my access to my phone.

Friend 1 is kind, loyal, optimistic, and is interested in self-improvement. I like him because he asks me a lot of questions, my love language is like, gathering information on people if that makes sense. We're on really good terms, but there hasn't been any challenges or conflict at all now that I think about it. Wonder if that will be detrimental in the future, but I doubt it as I rarely have conflict with friends.

Friend 2 is... interesting. She's always been shy, introverted, neurotic, yeah but I have no idea what happened to her. Every friend she's ever had has eventually left her, except for me, and from my observations she can't accept herself as the issue and tends to blame them. Suspect she's a vulnerable narcissist or some shit. I tried to leave her once but an ex-friend convinced me to "give her another chance" and we're back here again. She hasn't done anything to piss me off since, so I guess I'm okay with still being her friend.

Friend 3 is apathetic, intelligent, reserved, not good with emotions. I tend to bounce ideas off of him (he doesn't share his ideas usually) with him saying stuff like "Hmm" or changing the topic. Sometimes I try to confront him with his issues on apathy and unhappiness but it never seems to go anywhere.

What do you look for in friends? In romantic relationships?

In many people I meet, I notice something that gives me a sense of repulsion, not because I think I'm better than them or anything, but because I feel as if we aren't going to be good friends. Maybe it's a self-fulfilling prophecy but I've never been close to someone that gave me this sense. So, the people that are left are those I befriend, although not everyone I want to befriend ends up becoming my friend. Some things that give me this feeling are when people use "..." too much, pushy people, people who are busy. Other things too that I can't quite pinpoint.

Sometimes I notice the opposite in a person and want to befriend them. I notice I can pick on people with autism/adhd or traits of them, and tend to really like them. Something about them being societal misfits, being highly emotional, thinking in creative ways is highly endearing to me.

What conflicts have you encountered recently with other people? Why did they happen? Which kinds seem to happen on a regular basis?

Ugh, skip.

What are your strengths? What do people like about you? What do you like about yourself?

Strengths, hmm. I think I am quite rational and don't tend to freak out in situations where others might. I can be kinda funny with the right persons, people have told me that. Something else is that I'm loyal, but overall I feel as if I don't have many strengths or positive traits, Lol.

What are your weaknesses? What criticism do you often face from others? What do you dislike about yourself?

I am lazy. I am immature. I am lacking in self-awareness. I am creepy. I am socially inept. I am forgetful. I am uncaring. Believe I've been told these at least once for each. Used to beat myself up about these but I no longer care enough to think about it (most of the time.)

In what areas of life can you manage well on your own? In what areas of your life would you like help?

I am profoundly lazy and generally need help for most things because I repeat the same mistakes over and over again and never learn.

What things do you dislike doing? What things do you enjoy more than others?

I dislike doing things that are boring such as schoolwork or chores. Sometimes even the things I like more than other things become boring. For the things I "like" doing, see the "hobbies and interests" question.

What goals, aspirations, or plans do you have for the future, and why?

Have no aspirations besides education and career-wise things. See first question for that.

If you won the lottery and didn't have to work anymore, what would you do?

Save the money for later until I'm more mature to think about what to do with it.

What traits do you find endearing that others might dislike? What traits are considered positive/neutral by others but tend to annoy you?

This is a good question actually. I like clingy/desperate/socially inept guys because I find it cute and find that they have a much higher chance of not abandoning me. Sometimes guys that are considered annoying to others I find likable, not sure why. A trait that I dislike though is whatever the hell "being sassy" is.

What kinds of things do you do to manage and/or beautify your environment (your room, your house, etc.)?

I was instinctively going to answer "I don't care about home decor" but I realized I made my parents change my room cuz I didn't like how princessy it was lol. I guess I like things simple but not minimalistic-simple. My room right now has green and white walls, it's somewhat messy too.

How do you behave around strangers?

Generally ignore and dismiss them. If they have something that makes me want to talk to them, I quell the minor anxieties I have and go up to them. Online, I used to wait and lurk to see what the atmosphere was like but I stopped doing that, dunno why. Now I just jump right in.

How do you react to conflict? What do you do if somebody insults or attacks you?

I'm rarely in a situation with direct conflict, but I noticed I tend to be dismissive. If someone criticizes me I either just agree or tell them I don't care. If someone insults or attacks me I either find it funny or get slightly angry. Depends if it catches me by surprise, with surprises being more likely to anger me.

Would you ever be interested in starting a business? Why or why not? What role would you play in it? What kind of business would it be?

Probably not, I feel like I'm far too lazy and not really "up for the task." Like if I had to, I guess I'd go for a tech startup because those are the types I find interesting, but then again I know almost nothing about business.

How do you dress or manage your appearance?

Honestly I care so little that I still let my parents pick out my clothes most of the time. If I had to do it myself I'd probably just wear the same shit every day like a fucking cartoon character lol.

Do you like kids? Why or why not?

No not really, I don't see why I would.

In what situations or times in your life did you feel most fulfilled, and why?

Good question. I've never really felt that fulfilled in my life that I can remember but the closest thing to that was probably around when I was 10 and liked to do Minecraft roleplays with my online friends lol. I think it was because we had a lot of fun and it distracted me from the crippling meaningless of my life.

How do you feel about attention? Do you seek it out?

Irl, try to avoid it. If I can't avoid it, then enjoy it. The reason I avoid it is because I don't wanna launch myself into an inescapable situation where I'm approached by people and don't want to be. Not sure why I fear inescapable situations so much. Online I tend to seek it out sometimes but I try not to be too annoying.

How do you approach responsibility? What do you tend to expect of others?

I don't lol. I'm very irresponsible if you couldn't tell already. I don't think I expect anything from others, I can't actually think of any time where I've been disappointed in someone.

If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what approach would you take, and why?

Honestly I can't imagine ever raising a child so I have no idea what my state of mind would be if I had one. I'd prob end up unintentionally being emotional neglectful bcz I fucking suck at taking care of people's feelings.

Your friend bursts into tears. What do you do? How does it make you feel?

Speaking of sucking at taking care of people's feelings. I'd be like "oh god oh fuck" and just space out for a bit and be like "I h-hope you're okay." If there are other people around, I'd prob imply that they should go talk to my friend instead.

What is your biggest accomplishment?

God this sounds so dumb but it was probably this 10,000 word friend fanfic. It was kinda fun to read but poorly written and hard to follow. The basic gist is that one of my friends falls down a fucking hole and dies and we try to find her before a time traveller with a stupid name comes and saves her. I was 13 when I wrote it lol, a lot more shit happens with weird machines and yeah.

What was (or is) your high school experience like?

9th grade: got bad grades due to apathy. Had a friend group, guy came to my 15th birthday party but then we stopped talking. 10th was similar but it was all virtual school so little socializing. Somehow made a friend recently I think, he has shitty social skills so that's a good sign (for me) lol.

Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.

I've been stuck in a rut for years and I have no idea why. My reaction to it is to try to distract myself from the crippling meaninglessness to no avail.

What is something you regret?

My relationship with regret is odd. I tend to feel this feeling of regret with many of the stupid shit I've said, but I don't think I regret anything major.

Who do you admire, and why?

I don't really admire anyone anymore. Like, I used to put some people on a pedestal because they seemed really amazing to me, but now I dunno. Like if I saw a celebrity I wouldn't just be like "ayy homie sup?" but I wouldn't admire them either.

What's been on your mind? Has anything been worrying or concerning you? What problems have you encountered lately?

Don't think so. I think I'm incapable of experiencing anxiety on a conscious level at this point. The closest thing to a worry was me thinking that eternal recurrence was a horrifying idea. Like it was all on a cerebral level, not on an emotional one.

What are your spiritual or religious beliefs and why do you hold them?

Agnostic although I've mostly ruled out the belief of any purely benevolent God(s). I hold this belief because I don't see any strong evidence to either side. Like I've seen many atheists say "I stopped believing in god cuz of (insert horrible thing here)" and I never understood that. Why would you go from believing in a god to saying he doesn't exist just because he did a bad? Wouldn't it make more sense to think he's not all good but still believe in him?

What are your political beliefs, and why? How much do you care about politics?

Apolitical because of some things I'd rather not mention just yet heh.

What kind of work environment do you prefer? What do you look for in a job?

N/A because I'm 16 lol.

What is or was your favorite school subject and why?

As a child I liked writing/reading because I could read fun stories and write fun stories. Now I like math because it's straightforward and logical.

What is one common misconception that people have about life? Explain why it is wrong.

Heh, I have something but not only do I not really want to share it, I haven't worked out all the counterarguments. Otherwise, I dunno, bit of an odd question.

Where did you go on your most recent vacation? What did you do there? How did you like it and why?

Skipped bcz I didn't want to go tbh lol

Talk about a significant event from your life.

Oh boy. My life has been crippingly meaningless and isolated, but something I do remember was the time I tried to murder a girl in 1st grade because she kept egging me on. Don't remember my emotional reaction to it, but I do remember crying hard as fuck when I got in trouble for it. I did it through slamming her into the wall and choking her in front of everyone. Believe I was also bored and frustrated with school at the time, I vaguely remember the term "breaking the last straw" being a theme at around this time. Overall it was too long ago to say much about it lol, I remember my parents would guilt trip me about it afterwards. Fun.

How do you see other people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.

People as a whole are okay and varied. Dunno what prevalent social problems there are, my old go-to would have been "tribalism" - the idea that people see each other as "tribes" and hate people that are different from them but I dunno anymore.

What do you do if you're not getting what you want? What approach do you use?

Not sure. I'm often unaware of what I want.

Are you comfortable taking leadership roles? In what areas? Why or why not?

I'd rather not because I give off dislikable impressions to most people and am rather socially incompetent, but if the people are even worse than me somehow then sure, I'd take leadership role.

How often do you get angry? What kinds of things make you angry?

I rarely get angry on an emotional level but im often instinctively angry (not to be confused with cerebrally angry) when I'm bored. Act irritable and aggressive. When I'm emotionally angry I can just suck it up though. Odd.

What is one unusual trait or ability you possess? What makes you special?

As a young child, my party trick was to be able to have a genuine laugh without anything funny going on around me, but that ability seems to have left me. The thing that makes me special is how warped my emotions and worldview are due to having an incredibly strong internet fixation.

What is your sense of humor like? Do you joke around a lot?

My sense of humor seems to have taken a liking to "surreal ironic horror rage comics" that seem popular around r/true_reddit and /x/. Other things include absolutely infantile memes, and stuff that's hard to categorize. Yes, I joke around a lot. Quite fun.

What were you like as a child? How have you changed since then?

As a child, I was very hyperactive yet introverted and daydreamy. The poster child for ADHD despite not having ADHD lol. Was smart and shit, yeah. Always been socially inept. I've changed by being less openly hyper, but otherwise I haven't changed that much I would say.

What is the best thing that happened to you during the past week?

I have an abysmal memory but I don't think anything has affected me much this week lol.

What is the worst thing that happened to you during the past week?

See answer above.

What is the purpose of life? What do you find personally meaningful in life?

I don't think there's any objective purpose in life. I am extremely nihilistic and find almost nothing personally meaningful. I'm not even sure what I would consider meaningful, if anything.

What is the most interesting place you have been, and why?

Not attuned to my environment. Been to a few landmarks because of my parents' interests. Did not care.

Do you like surprises?

Indifferent. I quite like being caught off-guard because it rarely happens to me but that's not exactly the same thing as being surprised.

OMFG that is too much information. But yes. Fuck yes. I'm gonna read all that and reply with thought

 

[Ghost of the dead horse]

Okay, that seems like a plentiful information you gave out right there.

My first impressions are that your genuine, open, distracted, thoughtful human being. It's more than probable you might be a smart one. You are thinking how your background makes you what you are, and that's a good thing. So from what I know, you have a ton of knowledge working for you and you are doing well.

I'm not sure if you asked questions. Do you think you asked questions?

 

[OneTriz]

Okay, that seems like a plentiful information you gave out right there.

My first impressions are that your genuine, open, distracted, thoughtful human being. It's more than probable you might be a smart one. You are thinking how your background makes you what you are, and that's a good thing. So from what I know, you have a ton of knowledge working for you and you are doing well.

I'm not sure if you asked questions. Do you think you asked questions?

Asked questions? I don't think so, why would I? This was a thing to answer them, not to ask them.
Thanks for the kind words though.

 

[Ghost of the dead horse]

OH my god you're a really smart one. I am too, though. Would you wanna go ahead with something more?

 

[OneTriz]

OH my god you're a really smart one. I am too, though. Would you wanna go ahead with something more?

Uh what? Go ahead with what, exactly?

 

[OneTriz]

did a new questionnaire
Block I

General to specific, specific to general – what does it mean?
I have no idea what this question is asking honestly.


What does "logical" mean? What is your understanding? Do you think that it correlates with the common view?
I don't really know, it's quite subjective. I guess logical means you are consistent with your beliefs. It's more of a mindset than a behavioral thing though, you can be very logically-minded but not follow through with your behavior. I don't really know what people's common views are.


How do you explain fractions on the dial of the clock?
What? I don't know what a dial of a clock is or what a fraction in this context means.


What is a rule? What rules do you have to follow?
A rule is a set of agreements that people follow. It's like, a group agreeing to be logical if you will.


What is hierarchy? Do you need to follow it? Why or why not?
A hierarchy is an ordered classification system where certain people or things are rated as "more" than others. For example, compare the "sexual marketplace value hierarchy" with "maslow's hierarchy of needs." A person might be inclined to say "hierarchies are when things are rated as worse or better than each other" but that's an oversimplification. The former rates people on how valuable they might be, which can be good, but not everyone necessarily wants to be good in that way.


What do you think of instructions? Do you use them? Could you write an instruction manual? If so, what type of instruction manual would you most likely write?
Instructions are like how-to's to do something. I often tune them out if they're long, but I use them when I have to, such as in school. An instruction manual could be fun to write if it's something that interests me. I would write a programming instruction manual because I like it when things are done and explained my way.


Please explain: "Freedom is in complying with the laws, but not in ignoring the laws"? Do you agree with the statement? Why?
I mean it depends if you're talking about collective or individual freedom. If most people comply with the laws, then they are more free than if everyone just did crimes. Like for example, if crime was commonplace then going outside would likely be dangerous, thus not being as free. I have no idea if I "got" the quote.


Tell us how about consistent you are?
Not sure, I find the word consistent hard to grasp. Like do I follow something? I wouldn't say so, I'm quite spontaneous and outright impulsive sometimes.


What is a "standard"? Why do people need it?
A standard is a set of guidelines to achieve for a specific goal. People need it because they need consistency with their goals. If you have no standards to build a boat, then someone can claim a car is a boat and it would be perfectly valid.


You need to put your home library in order. How do you feel about this activity? How will you approach this task?
"Waste of time," I think to myself. It depends on how important the task is, and why I "need to." Oftentimes though I simply won't do things that don't interest me.




Block II


What is work in your opinion? Why do people go to work? Are there any parameters where you can distinguish whether you can do this work or not?
Work is something that someone does that has an output or effect. People go to work to get money, to find fulfillment, because of societal pressure, to learn skills, et.c. I don't distinguish whether I can or cannot do work, I distinguish it on a spectrum of how skilled or unskilled I'd be.


Is there any correlation between quality and quantity? Tell us if or how the price depends on quality?
Yes, generally speaking, quality takes more resources and thus cannot be quantified as much. The price is not necessarily dependent on quality, it's more dependent on how many resources used vs. competition.


How do people determine the quality of work? How do you determine such quality? How well you can determine the quality of any purchase, do you pay any attention to it?
People generally determine the quality of work by comparing it to the standard, or average of the works. To determine such quality, people can do it by what resources were used and how effectively they were used, or they can do it by if they simply liked/disliked it. I can't think of any time I cared about the quality of my purchases.


How do you feel if you didn't finish some work? Does it ever happen? What are the reasons?
I often don't finish work because I simply don't want to and don't care about the consequences. I do not fall for people trying to guilt trip me.


What is "interesting work" for you? Please explain in detail.
Interesting work is work that makes me feel as if my sense of wonder is satisfied. Such as programming, I like it when I get to wonder what I can do with it and how I can manipulate the code to do what I want.


You go to the store and see something you're interested in buying; there is a price tag on it. What parameters are you going to use to understand if it's overpriced, underpriced, or priced correctly?
I would compare it to previous purchases if applicable. If not applicable, I just kinda... I don't know, I just consider whether I want to buy it or not for that price.


When you work and someone tells you: "You don't do it right." What is your reaction?
It depends on how I felt about the work. If I agreed with them, I'd try to learn from them. If I disagreed, I'd try to explain what I was doing.


There is a professional right next to you. You always see that you can't perform the way they do. Your feelings, thoughts and actions?
When you have to ask someone else to help you with the task, how do you feel?
I take this as a decrement of my self-esteem. I feel inferior to them in that case, but usually wouldn't hold it against them. My thoughts are usually critical, but I don't react. When I have to ask someone else to help me with a task, I don't feel one way or the other because I recognize that everyone needs help with something.


You need to build a pyramid exactly like in Egypt. Your thoughts, feelings and actions?
Why do I 'need to'? I'd feel annoyed and ask for elaboration.


Was better than the first block, but still doesn't really speak to me.


Block III


What is beauty? Do you change your opinion about beauty? Does your understanding correlate with the generally accepted notion? What goes beyond the generally accepted notion?
Beauty is something you recognize and apply it as "Okay, that's beautiful/not beautiful." Kind of like emotions. I don't know what the generally accepted notion is.


Please describe your understanding of a beautifully dressed person. What is the core of beauty? How do you explain what is beautiful to a person who has never heard about beauty before?
A beautifully dressed person is dressed in a way that gives off an impression of social status. The core of beauty is something like an emotion. To explain what is beautiful to a person who has never heard about beauty before, I would show examples of people and things to them to have them differentiate between what they like and what they dislike in appearance.


Is there a template of understanding what beautiful means for everyone to use? Is there such a term as "classical beauty"? If so, what is it?
No. See the quote "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder." And no there is no such term as classical beauty.


What is comfort? What is coziness? How do you create your comfort and coziness? How do others evaluate your skill in doing so? Do you agree with them?
Comfort is, I don't know, some kind of emotion. Coziness is the same thing as comfort. Others don't evaluate my skill in doing so because why would they? It's not something I can imagine paying attention to.


How do you pick your own clothes? Do you follow fashion? Why? Do you know how to select clothes for different types of figures?
I pick my own clothes by which elicits a positive emotional response, by aesthetic and by comfort. I don't follow fashion. And no, I don't know how to select clothes for different types of figures. Not something I tend to pay attention to.


How do you cook? Do you follow recipes? What do others think of your skill?
I only cook simple things because I have no interest in learning more. I follow recipes loosely. I only cook for myself so the third question is not applicable.


Are you good at color patterns and mixing them and matching?
No. I vaguely remember my art teacher in Elementary school telling me I was bad at that sort of stuff.


If someone is telling you what is beautiful and what is not, what goes with what color and what is not, do you agree with this person?
This is a stupid question. It's like asking "If someone is telling you the meaning of life, do you agree with this person?" I don't know their opinion so I cannot tell you if it matches up with mine.


Tell us how you'd design any room, house or an office. Do you do it yourself or trust someone else to do it? Why?
I'd design it depending on how the person wants it. I don't trust myself with it because design is definitely not my strong suit. I lack spatial ability and often overuse things, to the point where people have told me that my designs look terrible.


How do you know if a person has bad taste? Could you give us an example? Do you always trust your own taste or do you seek opinions from others?
There's my opinion, and then there's the collective opinion. An example of bad taste that are both my opinion and a collective opinion are socks with sandals. I usually trust my own taste because I have an unyielding need to do my own thing.


This block was boring as hell.




Block IV


Can you line up human resources and make them do things? What methods do you use? Can you press people? If so, how does it happen?
Well, it's kind of a power or social status thing. If you're asking "you" as in a person, instead of "you" as in me, it's something to do with cornering people and convincing or forcing them to do something. I don't know what you mean by asking if I can press people.


What is incursion? How do you deal with this? Can you repulse? How easy can you do it?
Don't know what that means.


What does "my people" and "strangers" mean? When do "my people" become "strangers" and why?
My people is the group you identify with, and want to see succeed above all others. Strangers is everyone else. My people become strangers if they change radically and quickly before you're able to catch up.


Are there strategies of attack? Can you use them? When is it justified?
Yes. This is such an immensely vague question though, do you mean as in interpersonal conflict or as in literal war?


Do you think it's ok to occupy someone else's territory? In what situations?
I think it's ok in terms of benefit/cost. If you occupy someone else's territory for no reason and oppress them, then yeah that's obviously bad. But if you do it as in a "the ends justify the means" way, then maybe that's okay. I guess it depends on whether you're doing it to cause goodness, or to prevent badness. I personally don't agree with the former, but the latter definitely makes sense to me.


What are the methods of volitional force? When is it most effective and in what situations?
Don't know what that means.


How do you protect yourself and your interests?
Personally I just try to appease to anyone with power by making myself seem nonthreatening and entertaining. Other people can do the opposite and make themselves seem like a force to be reckoned with. I don't do this though because I feel like it's inviting trouble.


Describe your behavior in the situations of opposition and if you have to use some force?
I don't often face situations of opposition. Usually I try to compromise, rarely use force when I have to.


Do others think of you as a strong person? Do you think you are a strong person?
I don't really know how I'm perceived. I guess the type of person that thinks "sensitivity = weak" would think I'm strong but I really don't want to listen to that type of person. I don't think I'm strong because I often don't do the right thing and get manipulated easily.


How do you understand if a person is strong? Are there any signs of a strong person? What is the core of any force? Why do people listen to one person, but not the other?
A person is mentally strong in two facets in my opinion. How often they do the right thing (courage) despite it being hard, and how often they can bounce back from hardship (resilience.) The signs of a strong person are that they stand up for themselves and others. Some people listen to one person but not the other based on solid reasoning, but that doesn't seem to be the majority unfortunately. From my observations, people tend to see it as a popularity contest and want to listen to the popular person.


What the hell does this have to do with typology? It seems enneagram 8-ish if anything, but this was supposed to be for socionics.


Block V


What is boorishness? Does your understanding of it correlate with the generally accepted notion? How would you explain what boorishness mean to a 10 year old child? How would you explain the same to an adult who does not behave ethically?
Don't know what boorisness is.


How would you improve the moral of the society?
I don't know whether you mean morale as in motivation or moral as in ethics. Either way, I have no idea. I'm not one for wide-spread big ideas.


Can you justify somebody's bad behavior by thinking that he/she wasn't taught how to do so?
I don't know how to wrap my head around justifying someone's behavior. If it's causing suffering, they should be retaught or removed from the situation.


Give us your understanding of love. Can you love and punish at the same time?
Love is a state of feeling and behavior towards someone or something. Love as a feeling is like connection and empathy combined together but stronger. Love as a behavior is respectful and loyal. The second one is kind of interesting, I think punishment is usually used because people don't know any better, but ideally like I said, if the person is doing something wrong, they should be retaught or removed from the situation. They shouldn't be forced to do stuff they dislike. The person you love should not be afraid of you.


Have you heard about the Southern hospitality? Everything is for the guest. There is also a German hospitality – the master of the house is always right. What method is the right one? Try to evaluate without the weight of any cultural aspects, traditions, nations etc.
I think the German hospitality is right when the guest has an option to go to the house. But if a dire situation, then the Southern hospitality is right. I don't really know how to explain why I think that way.


What is sympathy? When do you need to express it? When is it advised not to?
Sympathy is a state of feeling and behavior towards someone. As a feeling, it is usually wanting to not make the other person feel worse when they're in an unfortunate situation. As a behavior, it is seen in facial expressions and body language. You need to express it when someone wants you to. It is advised not to when you do it in an excessively pitiful way or when someone doesn't want you to.


Are there any norms of behavior in the society? Do you follow them? Do people always have to follow them? Why?
Yes, there are so many that are taught to us implicitly that it's hard to think of them. I try to follow them. People don't always have to follow them because sometimes there are situations where breaking norms can save a life, prevent suffering, et.c.


How do you know what attitude among people is right or wrong?
I don't know. I don't really have an emotional moral compass.


What does moral mean? What is immoral? Does your understanding correlate with the others? How can you evaluate the correctness of your own understanding?
Moral means behavior that is altruistic and benefits the world. Immoral means behavior that harms the world. I don't know how it correlates with others. I can evaluate my correctness by discussing it with people and seeing if their reasoning holds up.


Somebody is giving you a negative attitude – what is your reaction? Could you show your own negative attitude toward someone else? If so, how? Could you give a person the silent treatment? How easily do you forgive people?
I just take it if they don't elaborate or become an obstacle. I could show negative attitude toward someone else if I dislike their behavior. I could give them angry glares or tell them to stop doing what they're doing. I don't want to give people the silent treatment because I like imposing my thoughts on people instead of having them come to their own conclusion. I forgive people easily because I often don't care or remember what they did. I am very hard to genuinely hurt.


Was an ok block.


Block VI


"Whole world does not cost one tear of child" – how do you understand this phrase? Do you agree with this opinion?
I don't know what it means. Something about net happiness being more than net suffering? It's worded strangely.


Is it acceptable to express emotions? Give examples of inappropriate expression of emotions.
Usually. Inappropriate expressions of emotions include things that would bother other people such as expressing anger at things that aren't injustices. In general, the rule is to not express emotions that aren't warranted in the situation.


Can you use negative emotions? In what situations?
Yes. You can use anxiety of failure to prevent failure. You can use fear of threats to avoid the threats. You can use sadness of loss to emphasizse with other people.


How do you express negative emotions? What does it look like? What do others think about it?
I often don't recognize or feel my emotions in general so it's hard to express them accurately. It looks like crying and shouting. Others think it's very bothersome. I do not care.


Shallow emotions – what does it mean? Are there any other emotions?
Shallow emotions are emotions that lack depth/substance/meaning. This means that they arise, and just go without the person having to reflect on anything. There are emotions that can cause change and reflection such as grief, outrage, love, et.c.


What are right or wrong emotions?
There are no right or wrong emotions, simply right or wrong emotional expressions.


Can you change the emotional state of yourself? Of others? To what side – positive or negative?
No, I lack the ability to influence myself. I can definitely change the emotional state of others by making them laugh, annoy them, et.c. Both positive and negative.


What does it mean to "pour out your emotions"? How does it happen?
To pour out your emotion is to have a strong emotional expression. It happens when someone is very strongly affected by an emotion or when someone wants to display vulnerability.


Does your internal emotional state correlate with what you show externally?
I like this question. Frankly no, I often find myself feeling bored but acting angry, to the point where people think I'm lying when I said I was bored.


Do you track what mood you are in throughout the day? Do you notice the mood of others?
Somewhat to the former, not really to the latter. I tend to reflect on if I'm feeling and what I'm feeling but find that the answer is often repetitively simple such as "slightly bored" "slightly angry" "slightly sad" et.c. I don't notice the moods of others because I don't really care and struggle to read facial cues.


I like being asked about my emotions. Good block.


Block VII


Do you like surprises?
No. They take the control out of my hands. I like having control.


How people change? How do you feel about those changes? Can others see the changes?
People develop and get more mature or less mature. I feel like it's natural and like comparing the before and now. Others can see the changes if they pay attention.


Is it true that whatever happens is only for the best?
Probably not. I guess there can be a deity with a master plan, but I doubt that is the case. I don't know, it just feels like some things are unimaginably horrible and can never be justified.


What do you think of horoscopes, fortune telling etc.? Do you believe in luck, lucky fortuity?
First two, they are simply barnum effect, too vague to accurately predict anything. Latter two, maybe. I've heard of people trying to use quantum physics to their advantage in cases such as randonauting, but I haven't investigated that enough.


Can you forecast events? Is it even real?
You can guess what will happen but not with a 100% accuracy.


What is time? How do you feel time? Can you "kill" time? How?
Time is a dimension that connects with the three space dimensions. You can kill time by wasting it and not work towards anything.


Is it easy for you to wait for some important event? What if you don’t know when it is supposed to happen?
I'm unsure. Nothing is truly a struggle for me, but nothing is truly easy for me either. I find the second question interesting, if I don't know what is supposed to happen then I find myself often feeling slightly excited or outright blocking it out from my thoughts.


Do you need help creating forecasts and determining how something will end? Do you trust those forecasts?
No. I often do not care so I just show up to the event and wait until it's over.


Are you normally late? How do you react if someone is late?
No. I do not care if people are late.


Imagine the situation where you agreed to meet with someone. Your feelings and actions: a) 20 minutes before the meeting starts, b) 5 minutes before the meeting starts, c) it is time for the meeting to start, but the person is not here, d) 20 minutes after the meeting start time and the person is not here, e) more time and the person is still not here…
20 minutes before I'd be ready to go. 5 minutes I'd be there. The meeting starts, I'd give them a bit of time. 20 minutes later, I'd try to quell the "They dislike me and only agreed to meet with me to be polite" feelings, and then I'd text them to see what's happened. If more time passes, then I'd leave and feel like I was duped/scammed out of my time.


Was okay, heard something about a sense of time being connected to socionics but wasn't quite sure how.


Block VIII


Is there a meaning of life? In what? Is it the same for everybody?
I don't know to both. For me, it's just "get the most happiness points" if that makes sense. Obviously mine's not objective or the same for everyone, but I could see a theist believing that a higher power gives everyone the same life goal.


What should be done so people can be happy?
I don't know, have them pursue their interests probably.


In the situations with a lot of potential and volatility will you trust your own guts, logically calculating everything or will you ask people you trust what should be done?
Interesting. I guess I will ask people I trust for logical calculations but weigh that vs. my intuition.


When you meet a stranger, what can you say about them right away? How do you know what this person is all about? Does it take long to understand someone's talents?
I can say what they look like. I don't know what people are all about because I miss cues easily. It takes somewhat long to understand someone's talents.


Remember an interesting person and call out 5-6 qualities you think are interesting in them. What makes an interesting person? Are you an interesting person? Why? What if someone calls you "boring" and "not interesting"?
I remember a certain someone had some kind of charm to him. He was very intelligent and had an interesting past. He would be mysterious about certain things, while implying there was more to him than met the eye. An interesting person is someone that gives information about themselves that raises more questions than it answers. To some my quirks, behaviors, and general craziness are fascinating, to some I'm just a lazy bum that does nothing all day.


What opinions, from people who know you, seem: a) fair; b) not fair; c) hurtful; d) strange.
Many people have called me annoying. I think that's fair. There's also funny, which is okay. There's also "I can tell you're sensitive." which made me think "huh?" And then there's the "Are you actually braindead?" which is a bit hurtful.


Do you fantasize? What kind of fantasies do you have?
Oh yes I fantasize. I have these sorts of fantasies that I use to gather data on my thoughts and feelings about things. They're usually extremely far off from reality and very much fast, with lots of motion. Not necessarily me in motion, just lots of glimpses of events that happen. Usually there are themes and symbols that mean something to me.


What qualities should a person have to be successful and why?
First of all, a person should have a desire to be successful. A desire to self improve, resilience, courage, et.c. This is because success is being the leader in a competition. Life is complex and thus to be successful in it, you need to win at it. To win at it, you need to adapt to everything it throws at you, or else you will get stuck and fail.


What qualities can stop a person from being successful and why?
Sometimes people are just born with many dislikeable traits and thus not be socially successful. Success is interconnected in various ways, with the academic, social, interpersonal ways, et.c. If you fail at one, it's likely that there will be consequences for the others. It's not always a person's destiny to be successful though, sometimes people are just unfortunate or self-sabotage.


What is more important in life – to be a good person or be a successful one? Why? Is a good person always successful? If not, then why?
Well it depends on the person. Some people want to be recognized for being good. Some people want to be recognized for being successful. A good person can be successful in their own definition. I don't know how else to explain it.


This was one of the better blocks. Overall, this qustionnaire was quite mediocre and repetitive, too many "What's" and "Do's" and not enough "Why's" and "How's." I dunno what I would recommend though.

 

[MargaretScholz]

INTP LII-Ne 7w6 794 sp/so is what I think. Here's a questionnaire I answered, started on March 11th but the bulk of it was answered today!
If you guys disagree, then what do you think and why?

What do you study or do for a living? How did you come to do that? What do you like or dislike about it?

Though I'm only a 10th grade high school student at the moment, I am interested in studying computer science in university. I came to that conclusion mostly through process of elimination. Social jobs? Fuck no, my social skills are abysmal and pretending I'm not completely incompetent would be too stressful. Creative jobs? Nope! I can't do that every day, I'd get tired of it (I had better-phrased reasoning for this but I've since forgotten it.) What can I do consistently without getting tired? Huh, programming I guess although I haven't done it too much of it so that may not be certain.

I guess it's fun because I feel like I'm actually learning something useful that gives me a lot of flexibility, and because I like that dopamine burst when I solve something. I don't know what I dislike about it, maybe when I thought something would work but then finding out it didn't. Also, along with my reasoning above, I find the types of people to be interested in programming to be much more in sync with me than the average person. It's like I'm instinctively repulsed by people who aren't "like me."

Though with my current trajectory, I may just be a fucking NEET in the future. Can't be bothered to do shit I don't like, i.e most schoolwork. I don't know why other people feel stress/anxiety and I do not at all. Severe apathy moment.

What else do you do on a daily basis? What are your interests and hobbies? Why do you do them?

Suffer. No but seriously, most of what I do is read posts online. I don't truly enjoy anything so the next best thing to do is to kill time. Parents claim I'm addicted but even with using it less, I still feel the same emptiness/boredom/whatever. Sometimes talk to people online too. Feels like I don't care about them as much as I should. Interests include psychology, philosophy, programming, and language learning. Psychology is fun because I can use it to manipulate my foes into doing my evil bidding give further context and meaning to my cripplingly meaningless relations with other people. Philosophy is fun because I can argue with other people and feel like I have a more accurate worldview. Programming is fun because (see above.) Language learning is fun because it's a hierarchical type skill, I can build upon what I've learned.

What are your values, and why?

Integrity because I don't know. I feel compelled to tell the truth unless I have a good reason not to.

Describe your relationships with family and friends. What do you like and dislike about them?

I am an only child that lives with mother and father and has never had a friend in real life. Mother is 54, father is 67. I am more similar to father, I can tell he is introverted. Mother is hard to pinpoint. I wouldn't know exactly how to describe the relationships because I have an abysmal sense of knowing what other people think about me. Am mostly indifferent to mother and father, when I need to say something important I tell it to mother because father tends to not know how to deal with emotions.

Currently have 3 close friends online, although I can't talk to them too much recently because mother limited my access to my phone.

Friend 1 is kind, loyal, optimistic, and is interested in self-improvement. I like him because he asks me a lot of questions, my love language is like, gathering information on people if that makes sense. We're on really good terms, but there hasn't been any challenges or conflict at all now that I think about it. Wonder if that will be detrimental in the future, but I doubt it as I rarely have conflict with friends.

Friend 2 is... interesting. She's always been shy, introverted, neurotic, yeah but I have no idea what happened to her. Every friend she's ever had has eventually left her, except for me, and from my observations she can't accept herself as the issue and tends to blame them. Suspect she's a vulnerable narcissist or some shit. I tried to leave her once but an ex-friend convinced me to "give her another chance" and we're back here again. She hasn't done anything to piss me off since, so I guess I'm okay with still being her friend.

Friend 3 is apathetic, intelligent, reserved, not good with emotions. I tend to bounce ideas off of him (he doesn't share his ideas usually) with him saying stuff like "Hmm" or changing the topic. Sometimes I try to confront him with his issues on apathy and unhappiness but it never seems to go anywhere.

What do you look for in friends? In romantic relationships?

In many people I meet, I notice something that gives me a sense of repulsion, not because I think I'm better than them or anything, but because I feel as if we aren't going to be good friends. Maybe it's a self-fulfilling prophecy but I've never been close to someone that gave me this sense. So, the people that are left are those I befriend, although not everyone I want to befriend ends up becoming my friend. Some things that give me this feeling are when people use "..." too much, pushy people, people who are busy. Other things too that I can't quite pinpoint.

Sometimes I notice the opposite in a person and want to befriend them. I notice I can pick on people with autism/adhd or traits of them, and tend to really like them. Something about them being societal misfits, being highly emotional, thinking in creative ways is highly endearing to me.

What conflicts have you encountered recently with other people? Why did they happen? Which kinds seem to happen on a regular basis?

Ugh, skip.

What are your strengths? What do people like about you? What do you like about yourself?

Strengths, hmm. I think I am quite rational and don't tend to freak out in situations where others might. I can be kinda funny with the right persons, people have told me that. Something else is that I'm loyal, but overall I feel as if I don't have many strengths or positive traits, Lol.

What are your weaknesses? What criticism do you often face from others? What do you dislike about yourself?

I am lazy. I am immature. I am lacking in self-awareness. I am creepy. I am socially inept. I am forgetful. I am uncaring. Believe I've been told these at least once for each. Used to beat myself up about these but I no longer care enough to think about it (most of the time.)

In what areas of life can you manage well on your own? In what areas of your life would you like help?

I am profoundly lazy and generally need help for most things because I repeat the same mistakes over and over again and never learn.

What things do you dislike doing? What things do you enjoy more than others?

I dislike doing things that are boring such as schoolwork or chores. Sometimes even the things I like more than other things become boring. For the things I "like" doing, see the "hobbies and interests" question.

What goals, aspirations, or plans do you have for the future, and why?

Have no aspirations besides education and career-wise things. See first question for that.

If you won the lottery and didn't have to work anymore, what would you do?

Save the money for later until I'm more mature to think about what to do with it.

What traits do you find endearing that others might dislike? What traits are considered positive/neutral by others but tend to annoy you?

This is a good question actually. I like clingy/desperate/socially inept guys because I find it cute and find that they have a much higher chance of not abandoning me. Sometimes guys that are considered annoying to others I find likable, not sure why. A trait that I dislike though is whatever the hell "being sassy" is.

What kinds of things do you do to manage and/or beautify your environment (your room, your house, etc.)?

I was instinctively going to answer "I don't care about home decor" but I realized I made my parents change my room cuz I didn't like how princessy it was lol. I guess I like things simple but not minimalistic-simple. My room right now has green and white walls, it's somewhat messy too.

How do you behave around strangers?

Generally ignore and dismiss them. If they have something that makes me want to talk to them, I quell the minor anxieties I have and go up to them. Online, I used to wait and lurk to see what the atmosphere was like but I stopped doing that, dunno why. Now I just jump right in.

How do you react to conflict? What do you do if somebody insults or attacks you?

I'm rarely in a situation with direct conflict, but I noticed I tend to be dismissive. If someone criticizes me I either just agree or tell them I don't care. If someone insults or attacks me I either find it funny or get slightly angry. Depends if it catches me by surprise, with surprises being more likely to anger me.

Would you ever be interested in starting a business? Why or why not? What role would you play in it? What kind of business would it be?

Probably not, I feel like I'm far too lazy and not really "up for the task." Like if I had to, I guess I'd go for a tech startup because those are the types I find interesting, but then again I know almost nothing about business.

How do you dress or manage your appearance?

Honestly I care so little that I still let my parents pick out my clothes most of the time. If I had to do it myself I'd probably just wear the same shit every day like a fucking cartoon character lol.

Do you like kids? Why or why not?

No not really, I don't see why I would.

In what situations or times in your life did you feel most fulfilled, and why?

Good question. I've never really felt that fulfilled in my life that I can remember but the closest thing to that was probably around when I was 10 and liked to do Minecraft roleplays with my online friends lol. I think it was because we had a lot of fun and it distracted me from the crippling meaningless of my life.

How do you feel about attention? Do you seek it out?

Irl, try to avoid it. If I can't avoid it, then enjoy it. The reason I avoid it is because I don't wanna launch myself into an inescapable situation where I'm approached by people and don't want to be. Not sure why I fear inescapable situations so much. Online I tend to seek it out sometimes but I try not to be too annoying.

How do you approach responsibility? What do you tend to expect of others?

I don't lol. I'm very irresponsible if you couldn't tell already. I don't think I expect anything from others, I can't actually think of any time where I've been disappointed in someone.

If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what approach would you take, and why?

Honestly I can't imagine ever raising a child so I have no idea what my state of mind would be if I had one. I'd prob end up unintentionally being emotional neglectful bcz I fucking suck at taking care of people's feelings.

Your friend bursts into tears. What do you do? How does it make you feel?

Speaking of sucking at taking care of people's feelings. I'd be like "oh god oh fuck" and just space out for a bit and be like "I h-hope you're okay." If there are other people around, I'd prob imply that they should go talk to my friend instead.

What is your biggest accomplishment?

God this sounds so dumb but it was probably this 10,000 word friend fanfic. It was kinda fun to read but poorly written and hard to follow. The basic gist is that one of my friends falls down a fucking hole and dies and we try to find her before a time traveller with a stupid name comes and saves her. I was 13 when I wrote it lol, a lot more shit happens with weird machines and yeah.

What was (or is) your high school experience like?

9th grade: got bad grades due to apathy. Had a friend group, guy came to my 15th birthday party but then we stopped talking. 10th was similar but it was all virtual school so little socializing. Somehow made a friend recently I think, he has shitty social skills so that's a good sign (for me) lol.

Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.

I've been stuck in a rut for years and I have no idea why. My reaction to it is to try to distract myself from the crippling meaninglessness to no avail.

What is something you regret?

My relationship with regret is odd. I tend to feel this feeling of regret with many of the stupid shit I've said, but I don't think I regret anything major.

Who do you admire, and why?

I don't really admire anyone anymore. Like, I used to put some people on a pedestal because they seemed really amazing to me, but now I dunno. Like if I saw a celebrity I wouldn't just be like "ayy homie sup?" but I wouldn't admire them either.

What's been on your mind? Has anything been worrying or concerning you? What problems have you encountered lately?

Don't think so. I think I'm incapable of experiencing anxiety on a conscious level at this point. The closest thing to a worry was me thinking that eternal recurrence was a horrifying idea. Like it was all on a cerebral level, not on an emotional one.

What are your spiritual or religious beliefs and why do you hold them?

Agnostic although I've mostly ruled out the belief of any purely benevolent God(s). I hold this belief because I don't see any strong evidence to either side. Like I've seen many atheists say "I stopped believing in god cuz of (insert horrible thing here)" and I never understood that. Why would you go from believing in a god to saying he doesn't exist just because he did a bad? Wouldn't it make more sense to think he's not all good but still believe in him?

What are your political beliefs, and why? How much do you care about politics?

Apolitical because of some things I'd rather not mention just yet heh.

What kind of work environment do you prefer? What do you look for in a job?

N/A because I'm 16 lol.

What is or was your favorite school subject and why?

As a child I liked writing/reading because I could read fun stories and write fun stories. Now I like math because it's straightforward and logical.

What is one common misconception that people have about life? Explain why it is wrong.

Heh, I have something but not only do I not really want to share it, I haven't worked out all the counterarguments. Otherwise, I dunno, bit of an odd question.

Where did you go on your most recent vacation? What did you do there? How did you like it and why?

Skipped bcz I didn't want to go tbh lol

Talk about a significant event from your life.

Oh boy. My life has been crippingly meaningless and isolated, but something I do remember was the time I tried to murder a girl in 1st grade because she kept egging me on. Don't remember my emotional reaction to it, but I do remember crying hard as fuck when I got in trouble for it. I did it through slamming her into the wall and choking her in front of everyone. Believe I was also bored and frustrated with school at the time, I vaguely remember the term "breaking the last straw" being a theme at around this time. Overall it was too long ago to say much about it lol, I remember my parents would guilt trip me about it afterwards. Fun.

How do you see other people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.

People as a whole are okay and varied. Dunno what prevalent social problems there are, my old go-to would have been "tribalism" - the idea that people see each other as "tribes" and hate people that are different from them but I dunno anymore.

What do you do if you're not getting what you want? What approach do you use?

Not sure. I'm often unaware of what I want.

Are you comfortable taking leadership roles? In what areas? Why or why not?

I'd rather not because I give off dislikable impressions to most people and am rather socially incompetent, but if the people are even worse than me somehow then sure, I'd take leadership role.

How often do you get angry? What kinds of things make you angry?

I rarely get angry on an emotional level but im often instinctively angry (not to be confused with cerebrally angry) when I'm bored. Act irritable and aggressive. When I'm emotionally angry I can just suck it up though. Odd.

What is one unusual trait or ability you possess? What makes you special?

As a young child, my party trick was to be able to have a genuine laugh without anything funny going on around me, but that ability seems to have left me. The thing that makes me special is how warped my emotions and worldview are due to having an incredibly strong internet fixation.

What is your sense of humor like? Do you joke around a lot?

My sense of humor seems to have taken a liking to "surreal ironic horror rage comics" that seem popular around r/true_reddit and /x/. Other things include absolutely infantile memes, and stuff that's hard to categorize. Yes, I joke around a lot. Quite fun.

What were you like as a child? How have you changed since then?

As a child, I was very hyperactive yet introverted and daydreamy. The poster child for ADHD despite not having ADHD lol. Was smart and shit, yeah. Always been socially inept. I've changed by being less openly hyper, but otherwise I haven't changed that much I would say.

What is the best thing that happened to you during the past week?

I have an abysmal memory but I don't think anything has affected me much this week lol.

What is the worst thing that happened to you during the past week?

See answer above.

What is the purpose of life? What do you find personally meaningful in life?

I don't think there's any objective purpose in life. I am extremely nihilistic and find almost nothing personally meaningful. I'm not even sure what I would consider meaningful, if anything.

What is the most interesting place you have been, and why?

Not attuned to my environment. Been to a few landmarks because of my parents' interests. Did not care.

Do you like surprises?

Indifferent. I quite like being caught off-guard because it rarely happens to me but that's not exactly the same thing as being surprised.

At your first question - I can assert the best profession to study for. According to a recent report by Glassdoor, doctors and lawyers are still the nation's top-earning professionals. With them, you will do your best for your living (generally, when I discuss about "bread givers", I remember https://freebooksummary.com/category/bread-givers because it associates for me with prosperity, essence of life...). My mother claims that to assure a stately level of wellness, you simply should do what you like and get somebody to pay you for it.