timothyreborn
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Age: 20
General location: Lived in USA ages 0-14, Australia 15-20
Any impairments: No
[B*Religious or political beliefs:[/B] Have them, rather not say - probably wouldnt effect
Types considering: 4,1,7,5
*Why considering them: Four primarily because of life long feeling and assumption of seperateness, no one understands me etc - though I am extremely idk - manic? I can be really reserved and appropriate or crazy risk taking behavior, with also deep academic/philosophical interests - so 4,1,7,5 seem like contenders but really want people who know what theyre doing take their best guess - so thank you for helping out!
Purpose in life: Experience the most extraordinary experiences possible while sharing them with other people that share a mutually deep understanding of me/eachother
Seven deadly sins: Lust, pride, envy, wrath - I feel very pointed in that I tend to resonate with the sins that are directly AT something rather than a general state (e.g gluttony, sloth etc) I feel very intense in that way. I constantly want more so maybe lust and envy in that way. Also pride and wrath in that I might have a slight superiority complex - I dont like that term because it seems binding, I believe when someone can recognize their faults and name them - its easy to change, but I tend to look down on people while also trying to internally constantly check If I'm being arrogant in thinking in such a way (which I probably am.)
Analyzing relationships -
People I'm drawn to: people who are similar to me, who can take my intensity, who are can intellectually challenge me, like 'deep things', I like to get to the point where I know someone so well you can tell what theyre thinking in most situations - I like people who are individualistic and think objectively - arent afraid of anything.
People who are drawn to me:People who appreciate my kind of humor (dry, witty,) I'm quite bold so people who arent sheepish I think. I'm withdrawn but extremely intense so I think that filters out alot of filler/floaty type people. Also people who are on the same wavelength intellectually (I dont mean in a smart kind of way but think on similar planes of thought/ideologies)
Type of people I am repulsed by: bullies, purposely and ignorantly dumb, someone who cannot someones answer without taking it emotionally - people who are surface level - arent willing to explore existence.
Traits I admire that I cannot emulate: Practical people - people who are earthy in the sense they DO things - I do things but it is the last step for me. People are naturally DOERS - think elon musk people type work ethic - extraordinary honestly. I'm working at it but it doesnt come naturally. Also people who balance really well - I'm a kind of all or nothing type person and I can fixate on an interest and pound it to death until i realize my house is burning around me.
Relationship with anger: I would consider myself agreeable until I'm not, I have a high tolerance for garbage: but eventually I have sticking points that I know very well and I know I always will win the argument or situation, I dont particularly like watching someone shrink back in a conversation so I only let my anger go when the camel's back has been broken - but even then I'd rather convery my opinions in a sharper more wise type of way. When I am angry its more like sharp pointed hate rather than a general anger at life.
Shame: I'm easily embarassed - the drive to be what I'm not fuels alot of what I do I think. I dont like failing, I want to be the very best at something before I showcase it. Honestly I think this is my most consistent response. It seems kind of a hue of my behavior. I feel kind of inadequate and experience innate lack.
Fear: what is that? but seriously only time this is a concern is when I take too much maryjane and I dont do that anymore. I also dont like going for runs in the dark.
Love/passion: There is nothing higher than this. Though I wouldnt put love and passion together, unless you mean passion in a intimate/sexual kind of way. Love: the highest goal for all human relationships and attitudes towards creation. Passion: fuels work, hobbies, and pursuits - my jet fuel for life. If its not my passion - I cant pour myself into it.
Conflict: I dont really like it: but its a necessary weapon for growth and to uphold truth
Themes prominent in my life: To find out who I am lol and reach utopia/nirvana/heaven/god whatever you want to call it. Also I would say the phoenix archetype fits quite nicely - Overcoming circumstances seems to be a recurring mission put before me - somewhat successful thus far
What is your area of work/study: No idea - my key interests right now are philosophy, music, exercise lol no long term missions (which is kind of torturous)
When meeting a new person what do I tend to focus on: How they react to things - particularly challenging moments in conversation. Temperament.
How do you feel about humanity as a whole: Wonderful - everyone's much more important than they realize
Biggest problems human race faces: themselves - because the answers arent within the finite
Hobbies and interests: already named above - but used to play video games, was top 5% in League when I played it lol.
How do you usually hang out with your friends: Think two things, a) warm cup of coffee, talking about a book, in the winter - and b) summer night driving too fast into the city with euphoric hardstyle playing and in my wild past taking a substance.
Are actions or words more important?Actions, because they convey what your words *really* are.
What curse would I choose: To be immortal
What do I hope to avoid being: Close minded, ordinary, cynical, boring, dumb, helpless, a nobody, without a lover, without deep experiences, I dont want life to go downhill.
How do I relate to obsession? merge with others or interests? How do I feel about the idea of doing this? Hard question I want to merge with both of them, IF I merge only with ideas I'd go mad. IF I merge only with people - it's like Brave New World all over again. If I had to choose I would chose people. I am very obsessive. I feel excited about it
Organized or messy: I want to be organized, but somewhat messy by default
Plans or impulse: Impulse and surprises by far
How do you view comfort and create comfort in your life?: Comfort is a great feeling but often causes stagnation, too much and you sink into the floor into nothingness, too little and you cant move. How I create comfort: by being sure of myself
General location: Lived in USA ages 0-14, Australia 15-20
Any impairments: No
[B*Religious or political beliefs:[/B] Have them, rather not say - probably wouldnt effect
Types considering: 4,1,7,5
*Why considering them: Four primarily because of life long feeling and assumption of seperateness, no one understands me etc - though I am extremely idk - manic? I can be really reserved and appropriate or crazy risk taking behavior, with also deep academic/philosophical interests - so 4,1,7,5 seem like contenders but really want people who know what theyre doing take their best guess - so thank you for helping out!
Purpose in life: Experience the most extraordinary experiences possible while sharing them with other people that share a mutually deep understanding of me/eachother
Seven deadly sins: Lust, pride, envy, wrath - I feel very pointed in that I tend to resonate with the sins that are directly AT something rather than a general state (e.g gluttony, sloth etc) I feel very intense in that way. I constantly want more so maybe lust and envy in that way. Also pride and wrath in that I might have a slight superiority complex - I dont like that term because it seems binding, I believe when someone can recognize their faults and name them - its easy to change, but I tend to look down on people while also trying to internally constantly check If I'm being arrogant in thinking in such a way (which I probably am.)
Analyzing relationships -
People I'm drawn to: people who are similar to me, who can take my intensity, who are can intellectually challenge me, like 'deep things', I like to get to the point where I know someone so well you can tell what theyre thinking in most situations - I like people who are individualistic and think objectively - arent afraid of anything.
People who are drawn to me:People who appreciate my kind of humor (dry, witty,) I'm quite bold so people who arent sheepish I think. I'm withdrawn but extremely intense so I think that filters out alot of filler/floaty type people. Also people who are on the same wavelength intellectually (I dont mean in a smart kind of way but think on similar planes of thought/ideologies)
Type of people I am repulsed by: bullies, purposely and ignorantly dumb, someone who cannot someones answer without taking it emotionally - people who are surface level - arent willing to explore existence.
Traits I admire that I cannot emulate: Practical people - people who are earthy in the sense they DO things - I do things but it is the last step for me. People are naturally DOERS - think elon musk people type work ethic - extraordinary honestly. I'm working at it but it doesnt come naturally. Also people who balance really well - I'm a kind of all or nothing type person and I can fixate on an interest and pound it to death until i realize my house is burning around me.
Relationship with anger: I would consider myself agreeable until I'm not, I have a high tolerance for garbage: but eventually I have sticking points that I know very well and I know I always will win the argument or situation, I dont particularly like watching someone shrink back in a conversation so I only let my anger go when the camel's back has been broken - but even then I'd rather convery my opinions in a sharper more wise type of way. When I am angry its more like sharp pointed hate rather than a general anger at life.
Shame: I'm easily embarassed - the drive to be what I'm not fuels alot of what I do I think. I dont like failing, I want to be the very best at something before I showcase it. Honestly I think this is my most consistent response. It seems kind of a hue of my behavior. I feel kind of inadequate and experience innate lack.
Fear: what is that? but seriously only time this is a concern is when I take too much maryjane and I dont do that anymore. I also dont like going for runs in the dark.
Love/passion: There is nothing higher than this. Though I wouldnt put love and passion together, unless you mean passion in a intimate/sexual kind of way. Love: the highest goal for all human relationships and attitudes towards creation. Passion: fuels work, hobbies, and pursuits - my jet fuel for life. If its not my passion - I cant pour myself into it.
Conflict: I dont really like it: but its a necessary weapon for growth and to uphold truth
Themes prominent in my life: To find out who I am lol and reach utopia/nirvana/heaven/god whatever you want to call it. Also I would say the phoenix archetype fits quite nicely - Overcoming circumstances seems to be a recurring mission put before me - somewhat successful thus far
What is your area of work/study: No idea - my key interests right now are philosophy, music, exercise lol no long term missions (which is kind of torturous)
When meeting a new person what do I tend to focus on: How they react to things - particularly challenging moments in conversation. Temperament.
How do you feel about humanity as a whole: Wonderful - everyone's much more important than they realize
Biggest problems human race faces: themselves - because the answers arent within the finite
Hobbies and interests: already named above - but used to play video games, was top 5% in League when I played it lol.
How do you usually hang out with your friends: Think two things, a) warm cup of coffee, talking about a book, in the winter - and b) summer night driving too fast into the city with euphoric hardstyle playing and in my wild past taking a substance.
Are actions or words more important?Actions, because they convey what your words *really* are.
What curse would I choose: To be immortal
What do I hope to avoid being: Close minded, ordinary, cynical, boring, dumb, helpless, a nobody, without a lover, without deep experiences, I dont want life to go downhill.
How do I relate to obsession? merge with others or interests? How do I feel about the idea of doing this? Hard question I want to merge with both of them, IF I merge only with ideas I'd go mad. IF I merge only with people - it's like Brave New World all over again. If I had to choose I would chose people. I am very obsessive. I feel excited about it
Organized or messy: I want to be organized, but somewhat messy by default
Plans or impulse: Impulse and surprises by far
How do you view comfort and create comfort in your life?: Comfort is a great feeling but often causes stagnation, too much and you sink into the floor into nothingness, too little and you cant move. How I create comfort: by being sure of myself
Welcome to the forum, by the way.
