Tonitrum
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- Joined
- May 27, 2017
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- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 5w4
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/so
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
I generaly have very skewed of the idea of my own personality and my personality traits, the difficulty comes from within - I see myself as X, while others see me as Y or Z or both, whatever it represents. It's what makes assesing my own personality type difficult, due to my own cognitive dissonance.
For example, I see myself as extrovert. Generaly speaking, extrovert does not mean someone who is ADHD and very decent in socialising, but rather someone that simply prefers external stimuli, it does not neccesaringly has to have great social skills (An extrovert can be socialy awkward, like me), and well this is how I see myself as.
Many see me as an Introvert, but I disagree. When I think of an introvert, I'd think of someone who enjoys being alone, perhaps reading books or just enjoying the quietness and peace, something that I personaly find boring, as I rather be in a a popular enviroment, with many people, so I can fell like being a part of something bigger, that it will give me a sense of identity and belonging.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
I'd yearn to find my own identity and integrity, because I fell like I lack this so much in my life. Most of the time, I fell like I have a personality without a shell or "Armor" if you call it, I'd want to find a role or multiple roles that I'd able to accomodate that will fit my personality and identity that I aspire to have.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
Back when I was still going to middle school to early high school. First of all, back then I felt like I have an identity, I felt like being special in something of my own hobbies and flirting with girls, secondly I didnt need to waste energy on taking own responsibilities, as others did my responsibilities for me.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
Regarding my own status, how others preceive me and my own successes, I feel like lacking any significance in those specific areas. My inferiorities tend to be triggered in terms of jealousy and envy, which appears as anger, grumpiness and becoming emotional. When I look at someone who if far more succeful at me, I lowkey become jealous and envious. My coping mechanims are playing the the "Savior", becoming moralistic, righting out wrongings, believing trying to be a "Good" person will make everyone appreciate me, and tend to suffer from some martyr complex because of that, oh god It's horrible because I fell like my identity and glory has been stripped away from me from others.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
I consider how to effectively execute it by considering the pro and cons of said decision. Generaly speaking I try to make sure that it has a balanced and fair trade-off between multiple parties if I take a decision for multiple people, I'd want to make sure that I also make a valuable decision in the proccess of thinking out the pros and cons.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
I focus on the outcome when working on a project, and I make sure to put efficient effort into it, so I can feel like I put hard work into it and can be satisfied. I make sure it follows It's exact precise implementation I'd want it to have based on the concepts and authentic quality I envisioned it to have. Generaly speaking, I usualy work on own projects on myself, as having someone else interfereing with my project can mess it up and it might not become with the quality in mind I've envisioned it to have, as I work with someone might disagree with it and skew up what I envisioned.
7) Describe a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
I had great time during my field trip to a desert in the country I live in (Israel). It started off firstly getting out of the bus in the middle of a desert, with a sun making lots of heat. We placed sunscreen cream on our body to protect from the sun heat, and it felt like we are in the beach. As we are all then later on marching to the sea of desert. This field trip lasted 3 days, each day doing a different route in desert.
We had to climb Rocky mountains, cross over a long desert with lots of sun heat (And also a Rain in the first day). I didnt complain about the heat or the difficulties of the trip, as it all energised me and made me feel pleasure for actualy being in the moment and allows me to connect with myself while enjoying the company of others at the same time.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you?
The first thing, I usualy focus on learning the general accepted metas and patterns that are most efficient and most used. From there I focus on building something my own, trying to expand the horizons from the general meta to make up something my own and unique.
9) How organized do you think of yourself as?
I'd say I'm moderatley organised. When I want to make something, I usualy in my mind build up the steps I'd want to take before initiating what I want to do. Generaly speaking, I have hard time improvising on my workings, because I'm obsessed with it being perfect and meet the precise expectations I'd like it to have, which is quality, practicality and authecity. But when finding a new better concept, I can suddenly just stop following whats previously, because I make things with pre-determined steps, so I generaly find it difficult to improvise and adapt to the new concept, as it would not allow me to meet up the expected result.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?
When approaching a new idea or concept, I try to make sense of what use it has, search up for external source information to find what are the most accepted and efficient metas behind it, and then I try to measure the values behind whether I want it personaly for myself.
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
As long as I able to be affirmed for what I do, for what I work and what I personaly like, I'm fine and I can have harmony. Without having positive affirmation from others, I might become sensitive, in extreme cases become emotional and widthdrawal in order to not feel being "Exposed" for my weaknesses.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
I'd fine be with group communications. As long as the conversation goes on topic and having a good time, I'm fine. I do have trouble improvising in conversations though, mostly because I have to think and build up what I'd want to say from my mind and heart, and as you guess it, it takes time. Tbh I'm not sure how some people can speak so confidently and fast, I'd wish I'd have those skills though.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words?
As much as I love being adventurious, I prefer knowning where I'm going to step. But due to my lack of improvisation skills, It can instigate panic in me when something goes wrong and not as expected or planned.
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
I might hop in for the night out. I'd rather enjoy the outside atmosphere rather than bore myself at home. I prefer the real enviroment over the non-existing one you see through the screen.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
Usualy when I'm stressed out, I become upset. When I'm upset I become retreating or widthdrawal mainly because I kinda dont want to deal with venting out my own frustration to others because then I'm just unable to react in an analytical way I'd like to, I become self-absorbed and apathetic, fearing that I will appear pathetic to others.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
The downright opinionated, deluded, misinformative and ignorant attitude of others, with nasty and harmful agenda behind it or not following whats it itended to be. If I'd describe it as a villain, he would love to rebel against the accepted norms, he would act in a barbaric way, distort realities and make sure everyone will 'suffer' like him and convert others to his own stupid ideology and beliefs.
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
Mostly I'd love to talk my interests and my daily activities with others, I love to ask others about how they see me or preceive me in order to be able to get in touch with myself better and places to improve on.
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life?
I guess the least thing I focus on most is introspecting about my own actions in daily life, my emotions tend to accumulate, increasing in tension, and I need to find a way to vent out, sometimes it comes unhealthy, with negative impulses and outbursts.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? ? What would your friends never say about your personality ?
Others preceive me as Introverted with rich intelligence and knowledge sometimes perfectionistic, quiet at times since people tell me It's quite hard to get to know me, in a more negative sense people describe me becoming uncharacteristicaly emotional, sometimes impulsive and aggressive. I'd say they are wrong in one aspect, I personaly see myself as Extroverted, but albeit Socialy awkward. Though, they never say that I'm much of an active person or that of a hippy-happy type of party person.
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
Ah, personaly I'd like to go outside to the entire day with a small group of people I'm close with, and wear desireable and favorite clothes to fit my style of appearance I'd lovetohave. Just simply visit beautiful places, or perhaps have some fun together, something to free up my mind for the day.
I generaly have very skewed of the idea of my own personality and my personality traits, the difficulty comes from within - I see myself as X, while others see me as Y or Z or both, whatever it represents. It's what makes assesing my own personality type difficult, due to my own cognitive dissonance.
For example, I see myself as extrovert. Generaly speaking, extrovert does not mean someone who is ADHD and very decent in socialising, but rather someone that simply prefers external stimuli, it does not neccesaringly has to have great social skills (An extrovert can be socialy awkward, like me), and well this is how I see myself as.
Many see me as an Introvert, but I disagree. When I think of an introvert, I'd think of someone who enjoys being alone, perhaps reading books or just enjoying the quietness and peace, something that I personaly find boring, as I rather be in a a popular enviroment, with many people, so I can fell like being a part of something bigger, that it will give me a sense of identity and belonging.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
I'd yearn to find my own identity and integrity, because I fell like I lack this so much in my life. Most of the time, I fell like I have a personality without a shell or "Armor" if you call it, I'd want to find a role or multiple roles that I'd able to accomodate that will fit my personality and identity that I aspire to have.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
Back when I was still going to middle school to early high school. First of all, back then I felt like I have an identity, I felt like being special in something of my own hobbies and flirting with girls, secondly I didnt need to waste energy on taking own responsibilities, as others did my responsibilities for me.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
Regarding my own status, how others preceive me and my own successes, I feel like lacking any significance in those specific areas. My inferiorities tend to be triggered in terms of jealousy and envy, which appears as anger, grumpiness and becoming emotional. When I look at someone who if far more succeful at me, I lowkey become jealous and envious. My coping mechanims are playing the the "Savior", becoming moralistic, righting out wrongings, believing trying to be a "Good" person will make everyone appreciate me, and tend to suffer from some martyr complex because of that, oh god It's horrible because I fell like my identity and glory has been stripped away from me from others.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
I consider how to effectively execute it by considering the pro and cons of said decision. Generaly speaking I try to make sure that it has a balanced and fair trade-off between multiple parties if I take a decision for multiple people, I'd want to make sure that I also make a valuable decision in the proccess of thinking out the pros and cons.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
I focus on the outcome when working on a project, and I make sure to put efficient effort into it, so I can feel like I put hard work into it and can be satisfied. I make sure it follows It's exact precise implementation I'd want it to have based on the concepts and authentic quality I envisioned it to have. Generaly speaking, I usualy work on own projects on myself, as having someone else interfereing with my project can mess it up and it might not become with the quality in mind I've envisioned it to have, as I work with someone might disagree with it and skew up what I envisioned.
7) Describe a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
I had great time during my field trip to a desert in the country I live in (Israel). It started off firstly getting out of the bus in the middle of a desert, with a sun making lots of heat. We placed sunscreen cream on our body to protect from the sun heat, and it felt like we are in the beach. As we are all then later on marching to the sea of desert. This field trip lasted 3 days, each day doing a different route in desert.
We had to climb Rocky mountains, cross over a long desert with lots of sun heat (And also a Rain in the first day). I didnt complain about the heat or the difficulties of the trip, as it all energised me and made me feel pleasure for actualy being in the moment and allows me to connect with myself while enjoying the company of others at the same time.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you?
The first thing, I usualy focus on learning the general accepted metas and patterns that are most efficient and most used. From there I focus on building something my own, trying to expand the horizons from the general meta to make up something my own and unique.
9) How organized do you think of yourself as?
I'd say I'm moderatley organised. When I want to make something, I usualy in my mind build up the steps I'd want to take before initiating what I want to do. Generaly speaking, I have hard time improvising on my workings, because I'm obsessed with it being perfect and meet the precise expectations I'd like it to have, which is quality, practicality and authecity. But when finding a new better concept, I can suddenly just stop following whats previously, because I make things with pre-determined steps, so I generaly find it difficult to improvise and adapt to the new concept, as it would not allow me to meet up the expected result.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?
When approaching a new idea or concept, I try to make sense of what use it has, search up for external source information to find what are the most accepted and efficient metas behind it, and then I try to measure the values behind whether I want it personaly for myself.
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
As long as I able to be affirmed for what I do, for what I work and what I personaly like, I'm fine and I can have harmony. Without having positive affirmation from others, I might become sensitive, in extreme cases become emotional and widthdrawal in order to not feel being "Exposed" for my weaknesses.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
I'd fine be with group communications. As long as the conversation goes on topic and having a good time, I'm fine. I do have trouble improvising in conversations though, mostly because I have to think and build up what I'd want to say from my mind and heart, and as you guess it, it takes time. Tbh I'm not sure how some people can speak so confidently and fast, I'd wish I'd have those skills though.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words?
As much as I love being adventurious, I prefer knowning where I'm going to step. But due to my lack of improvisation skills, It can instigate panic in me when something goes wrong and not as expected or planned.
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
I might hop in for the night out. I'd rather enjoy the outside atmosphere rather than bore myself at home. I prefer the real enviroment over the non-existing one you see through the screen.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
Usualy when I'm stressed out, I become upset. When I'm upset I become retreating or widthdrawal mainly because I kinda dont want to deal with venting out my own frustration to others because then I'm just unable to react in an analytical way I'd like to, I become self-absorbed and apathetic, fearing that I will appear pathetic to others.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
The downright opinionated, deluded, misinformative and ignorant attitude of others, with nasty and harmful agenda behind it or not following whats it itended to be. If I'd describe it as a villain, he would love to rebel against the accepted norms, he would act in a barbaric way, distort realities and make sure everyone will 'suffer' like him and convert others to his own stupid ideology and beliefs.
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
Mostly I'd love to talk my interests and my daily activities with others, I love to ask others about how they see me or preceive me in order to be able to get in touch with myself better and places to improve on.
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life?
I guess the least thing I focus on most is introspecting about my own actions in daily life, my emotions tend to accumulate, increasing in tension, and I need to find a way to vent out, sometimes it comes unhealthy, with negative impulses and outbursts.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? ? What would your friends never say about your personality ?
Others preceive me as Introverted with rich intelligence and knowledge sometimes perfectionistic, quiet at times since people tell me It's quite hard to get to know me, in a more negative sense people describe me becoming uncharacteristicaly emotional, sometimes impulsive and aggressive. I'd say they are wrong in one aspect, I personaly see myself as Extroverted, but albeit Socialy awkward. Though, they never say that I'm much of an active person or that of a hippy-happy type of party person.
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
Ah, personaly I'd like to go outside to the entire day with a small group of people I'm close with, and wear desireable and favorite clothes to fit my style of appearance I'd lovetohave. Just simply visit beautiful places, or perhaps have some fun together, something to free up my mind for the day.
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