Methylene
Now with more salt.
- Joined
- Oct 10, 2016
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It's been more than a year now. Things changed. Lets see how much.
Early 20s, girl from Italy, uni student. Nothing particular to declare. Got some selfies around the forum.
Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty is a concept created by people, thus completely inexistent. It should be the aderence to some pre-established parametres, such as symmetry or a phantomatic poetical meaning.
I see love as a series of chemical reactions which determine several sensations. It's all in our head, in a mechanistic way.
2. What are your most important values?
I don't think I have many values. The first one maybe is knowledge, a thirst for understanding even more. Ignorance is what annoys me the most in people, with the denial to know.
I value actions on a scale of "is it a stupid or mentally degrading thing?". Often I feel really annoyed if something doesn't pass this test.
But overall, also the "live and let live". I don't care about most of the actions you could make.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
Undecided between atheism and agnosticism.
Logically, my reasoning stops at agnosticism (during history, several religions alternated before being debunked. Thus it's impossible that yours is the "real" one.)
If there must be something that started it all, who says it's sentient o a divinity? It could also be some kind of physical force in conditions of relativity, so maybe in a condition where time's virtually inexistent.
Instinctively, I'm an atheist, and have been since I was a kid. The world as I see it is mechanistic and deterministic, no metaphysics involved.
In high school, while studying philosophy, only one thing had me a hard time: "Pascal's bet".
If you bet on God's existance and win, you really do win after you die. If you lose, you don't lose anything. If you bet on his non existance, if you win, you win nothing, if you lose, you're damned in hell.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
I dream about an utopistic world where they aren't needed. They're a waste of resources and humans which could be used for the better, such as education or helping others.
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
I'm a chemistry student, so lately I'm having long conversations about new results in research, mainly understanding how they work more than actually implementing them. Last one was about carbon nanotubes, which could be used by nasa to build a "space elevator".
Besides that, I've always been into computer science (I'm gonna attend a phd in computational chemistry), so I'd like to go back to coding more often.
Languages. During my life I've studied, besides english which is supposed to be my second language and italian, my first one, spanish, french, latin, ancient greek, russian and arabic. The last two on my own, the other ones in school.
I love studying languages as much as I hate studying literature. I love to try and decipher the scheme and set of rules which define the language, while literature needs more memory than reasoning, I feel it "colder".
When I was younger a was a lot into astronomy, now just occasionally I look at the sky and try finding the constellations, back then I used to study everything I could find about astronomy and astrophysics.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
It'd bore me to death. It's the only science I can't stand, except for farmacology.
Since I've been in hospital for a month last year because a sinusitis had excalated in meningitis and orbital cellulitis and I was risking losing an eye, I'm very anxious about my health. I often check my heartbeat, I'm afraid something could go wrong.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
Boring. I procrastinate and pile them up until I'm forced to do them.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Last time I cried was linked to a breakup. It's been 6 months now, if I think about it I become gloomy and shed a tear.
Smiling... after a messed up period in my life I've finally found friends and peace of mind. With them I feel wanted. So pretty lately while I was thinking about that.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
At one with the environment: never happened and never will, I don't see why or how should I feel I.
A sense of belonging: I've recently moved to the other side of Italy in order to have a fresh new start. It worked. In my new city I can feel that sense of belonging
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
Weaknesses: disorganization, being too much emotive when I finally express my feelings.
Right now I don't dislike anything about me. I've made major improvements to me and my life.
Time ago I'd said the inability to behave in social gatherings, but now not anymore.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Feelings management. They're really hard for me to grasp, understande and act accordingly.
If something makes my happy, I start walking in circles and thinking about it for hours. If I'm truly sad I can become a bit of a drama queen.
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
The environment in my family was toxic. I was stuck in the routine of arguments and hatred. My reaction was "fuck this, I'm out", maybe cowardly.
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
Cleverness, gentleness, being able to guide me in social situations. My interactions are generally based on saying jokes in a light-hearted atmosfere.
I hate ignorance, roughness, harshnwss.
My friends are ENTPs, ESFJ, ISFJ, INTJ, ENFP.
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
Confused. I couldn't have occasional sex, not without some kind of emotional connection before. But when the chemical reaction that I mentioned in the first answer is triggered and you feel good with a single person, then yes.
But really often it doesn't work for me, I find it really hard compaired to others to fall in love.
In a partner, I look for someone similar to me. Bonus points if he can take emotional initiative.
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
I don't want to have a child, I don't feel that impulse. But I'd focus on reasoning with his more than scolding him and making sure he grows gentle and knowledgeable.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Externally, I immediately proceed to explain why not. Internally, I'd think "that makes no sense, are you dumb?" and feel extremely annoyed.
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
It just happens. But with them, I can come across as bubbly or hyperactive. I make a lot of jokes and to things to annoy them, then I get tired of social interaction and become silent for hours. As I said, light-hearted atmosphere and a lot of jokes.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
I used to be really formal and stiff until a year ago. I'm kind of still am, but not that much. Awkward, a lot.
Early 20s, girl from Italy, uni student. Nothing particular to declare. Got some selfies around the forum.
Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty is a concept created by people, thus completely inexistent. It should be the aderence to some pre-established parametres, such as symmetry or a phantomatic poetical meaning.
I see love as a series of chemical reactions which determine several sensations. It's all in our head, in a mechanistic way.
2. What are your most important values?
I don't think I have many values. The first one maybe is knowledge, a thirst for understanding even more. Ignorance is what annoys me the most in people, with the denial to know.
I value actions on a scale of "is it a stupid or mentally degrading thing?". Often I feel really annoyed if something doesn't pass this test.
But overall, also the "live and let live". I don't care about most of the actions you could make.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
Undecided between atheism and agnosticism.
Logically, my reasoning stops at agnosticism (during history, several religions alternated before being debunked. Thus it's impossible that yours is the "real" one.)
If there must be something that started it all, who says it's sentient o a divinity? It could also be some kind of physical force in conditions of relativity, so maybe in a condition where time's virtually inexistent.
Instinctively, I'm an atheist, and have been since I was a kid. The world as I see it is mechanistic and deterministic, no metaphysics involved.
In high school, while studying philosophy, only one thing had me a hard time: "Pascal's bet".
If you bet on God's existance and win, you really do win after you die. If you lose, you don't lose anything. If you bet on his non existance, if you win, you win nothing, if you lose, you're damned in hell.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
I dream about an utopistic world where they aren't needed. They're a waste of resources and humans which could be used for the better, such as education or helping others.
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
I'm a chemistry student, so lately I'm having long conversations about new results in research, mainly understanding how they work more than actually implementing them. Last one was about carbon nanotubes, which could be used by nasa to build a "space elevator".
Besides that, I've always been into computer science (I'm gonna attend a phd in computational chemistry), so I'd like to go back to coding more often.
Languages. During my life I've studied, besides english which is supposed to be my second language and italian, my first one, spanish, french, latin, ancient greek, russian and arabic. The last two on my own, the other ones in school.
I love studying languages as much as I hate studying literature. I love to try and decipher the scheme and set of rules which define the language, while literature needs more memory than reasoning, I feel it "colder".
When I was younger a was a lot into astronomy, now just occasionally I look at the sky and try finding the constellations, back then I used to study everything I could find about astronomy and astrophysics.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
It'd bore me to death. It's the only science I can't stand, except for farmacology.
Since I've been in hospital for a month last year because a sinusitis had excalated in meningitis and orbital cellulitis and I was risking losing an eye, I'm very anxious about my health. I often check my heartbeat, I'm afraid something could go wrong.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
Boring. I procrastinate and pile them up until I'm forced to do them.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Last time I cried was linked to a breakup. It's been 6 months now, if I think about it I become gloomy and shed a tear.
Smiling... after a messed up period in my life I've finally found friends and peace of mind. With them I feel wanted. So pretty lately while I was thinking about that.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
At one with the environment: never happened and never will, I don't see why or how should I feel I.
A sense of belonging: I've recently moved to the other side of Italy in order to have a fresh new start. It worked. In my new city I can feel that sense of belonging
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
Weaknesses: disorganization, being too much emotive when I finally express my feelings.
Right now I don't dislike anything about me. I've made major improvements to me and my life.
Time ago I'd said the inability to behave in social gatherings, but now not anymore.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Feelings management. They're really hard for me to grasp, understande and act accordingly.
If something makes my happy, I start walking in circles and thinking about it for hours. If I'm truly sad I can become a bit of a drama queen.
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
The environment in my family was toxic. I was stuck in the routine of arguments and hatred. My reaction was "fuck this, I'm out", maybe cowardly.
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
Cleverness, gentleness, being able to guide me in social situations. My interactions are generally based on saying jokes in a light-hearted atmosfere.
I hate ignorance, roughness, harshnwss.
My friends are ENTPs, ESFJ, ISFJ, INTJ, ENFP.
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
Confused. I couldn't have occasional sex, not without some kind of emotional connection before. But when the chemical reaction that I mentioned in the first answer is triggered and you feel good with a single person, then yes.
But really often it doesn't work for me, I find it really hard compaired to others to fall in love.
In a partner, I look for someone similar to me. Bonus points if he can take emotional initiative.
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
I don't want to have a child, I don't feel that impulse. But I'd focus on reasoning with his more than scolding him and making sure he grows gentle and knowledgeable.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Externally, I immediately proceed to explain why not. Internally, I'd think "that makes no sense, are you dumb?" and feel extremely annoyed.
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
It just happens. But with them, I can come across as bubbly or hyperactive. I make a lot of jokes and to things to annoy them, then I get tired of social interaction and become silent for hours. As I said, light-hearted atmosphere and a lot of jokes.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
I used to be really formal and stiff until a year ago. I'm kind of still am, but not that much. Awkward, a lot.
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