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    Answer my questions- fill this out to whatever extent you choose- and I will try to type you. Ill do this, as much as possible, by ignoring any preconceived notions of your type, and again, as much as possible, will actually try to avoid even looking at who is filling this out! I will type you, as much as I can, by ONLY your answers to this survey below.

    Survey

    How do you relate to the feelings of:

    Excitement?

    Fear?

    Jealousy?

    Hope?

    Anger?

    Hurt?

    Love?

    Sadness?

    Happiness?

    Frustration?

    Disappointment?

    Tension?

    Curiosity?

    Loneliness?

    Anticipation?

    How do you relate to the concepts of:

    Revenge?

    Kindness?

    Betrayal?

    Faith?

    Belief?

    Friendship?

    Perfection?

    Loss?

    Missing out?

    How do you relate to your experiences of:

    Yourself?

    Your emotional state?

    Your intellect?

    Your relationships with others?

    Your relationship with people you love?

    Your relationship with people you hate?

    Your relationship with yourself?

    Your relationship to society?

    Your relationship to societies expectations?

    Your relationship to expectations you place on yourself?

    Your relationship to your past?

    Your relationship to your present?

    Your relationship to your future?

    Describe more:

    The things you are proud of?

    The things that you wish you had?

    The things you regret?

    The things you want?

    The things you need?

    The things you wish you could do without?

    The things you know you could do without?

    And finally:

    Who are you?

    Answer as few or as many as youd like in any way that you would like and Ill get back to you. Just thought this would be fun. And was curious to see what could become of it. Lots of it is repetitive but whatever.
    The only kinds of fights worth fighting are those you’re going to lose, because somebody has to fight them and lose and lose and lose until someday, somebody who believes as you do wins.
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    I’ll give it a shot! I’m not sleeping anyway. I should be but alas my restless mind has decided otherwise. Right. Here goes.

    Excitement?
    I don’t really get excited. Not ecstatic anyway. About anything. It’s just not in my nature.

    Fear?
    Oh I have fears, as do we all, but I seldom speak of them with other people. It’s too personal for my tastes.

    Jealousy?
    I can be. It’s a nasty emotion though.

    Hope?
    I find it’s a good thing unless it leads to inaction. It’s necessary in scenarios where life is it’s bleakest and all possible actions to rectify the situation have failed. Otherwise you would just lay down and die.

    Anger?
    Ah it’s an old friend. It’s an old enemy. It’s needed at times but it will destroy the mind and the body if it’s held onto too tightly. I’ve fought with it my whole life. On some level I’ll be grappling with it as we both plummet into the unknown.

    Love?
    It’s a mixed bag really. It’s nice at times and then it’s constricting at others. It can knock you over or sneak into you when you aren’t looking. Either way, it’s in charge once it arrives and you can accept it or resist it or if you’re difficult like me do both.

    Sadness?
    This is a strange one. Sometimes it’s just an awful companion that tries to drag you down and yet it can be beautiful depending on how it’s presented and how close to home it is. Music and art that delve into the realm of melancholy can present it in a way that I find is utterly charming. I suppose that’s convenient sadness though that one can wear like a coat and then replace it in the wardrobe.

    Happiness?
    Another odd one that never consumes me entirely. I can feel happy but it’s always measured. Accept when a playful dog jumps up and licks my face. Then I turn into a giggling five year old boy.

    Tension?
    I’m a worrier. I always have been and will die one. It’s just part of my nature. I explore lots of possibilities, both positive and negative. This has put tremendous strain on my body and mind at times.

    Loneliness?
    I spend a great amount of time by myself but I’m not immune from it. When I have felt it it has been profound. A deep deep sense of it that makes you feel like the only person in existence. I tend to ignore when it does strike.

    How do you relate to the concepts of:

    Revenge?
    I definitely have a short term passion for it but only the most severe offenses reside in my head long term. My anger burns bright and furiously but only for a short time usually.

    Betrayal?
    This is the thing I despise. If it’s a serious betrayal I will sever all ties immediately without a second thought. My trust is hard won and will never be regained once it’s been lost.

    Faith?
    As in religious faith? I don’t place that much trust in any religion. I don’t believe humans have the faintest clue what a deity wants and to suggest to me that it’s actually communicated directly and in a way humans would comprehend (Bible, Torah, or Quran) is just not true. I believe those books are the creations of mortals and nothing more.

    Belief?
    I think everyone is entitled to believe what they wish as long as those beliefs don’t advocate intentionally harming others.

    Friendship?
    I believe it’s important to have friends. Not friendships based completely on convenience though. Quality over quantity is what I prefer. I’ve had two solid friends that no matter how much time we’ve spent apart have kept returning into my life. I’m not necessarily big on destiny but some things seem meant to be I guess.

    Perfection?
    It’s completely unrealistic and unattainable. I believe competence and quality are reasonable goals. Chasing perfection is like chasing shadows.

    Loss?
    Loss is terrible and inevitable. Ultimately we all lose, but losing others is devastating as well. My father was the worst loss. I still feel the loss of every pet, every dog or cat I’ve ever loved. If you attach yourself to other lives, part of your’s will be lost when they depart. Not connecting with others will avoid this pain but then that’s a loss in itself, isn’t it?

    Who are you?
    A human being. One of billions and one in a billion. A variation. A possibility.
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    How do you relate to the feelings of:

    Excitement?
    It's not something I normally feel.

    Fear?
    With amusement and curiosity (and sometimes, a couple eeks depending on the cause).

    Jealousy?
    Something I don't usually experience. I'm content with my lot in life. I might feel a passing envy of someone for their abilities or perhaps even their gadgets. If it's their abilities, I'm usually just amazed or sometimes proud of them and wish I had their skill. If it's a gadget (gaming device or some such), it passes quickly because I realize I have too many the way it is lol

    Hope?
    Is necessary. I'd say it was one of my primary emotions, even if it doesn't appear prevalent.

    Anger?
    To be avoided at all cost.

    Hurt?
    Physical or emotional? Physically, I have a pretty high tolerance and a knack for being able to distract myself from a lot of it. (I get syncope if the pain is sudden, though.) I don't handle emotional pain well. I can distract myself from it, to a point, but mostly I just avoid it like the plague.

    Love?
    An alien concept... somewhat. I have deep affection for people, but I don't know how far it extends beyond that.

    Sadness?
    To be avoided at all cost; though I'd rather feel sad than angry.

    Happiness?
    A daily emotional. I laugh and smile often. I'm highly amused by the simplest, silliest of things.

    Frustration?
    Another daily emotional lol. Usually it's regarding my health, my nature, or the actions/inactions of others (like my kids inability to do chores).

    Disappointment?
    Not something I experience often. When I do, I can brush it off pretty easily.

    Tension?
    Daily lot in life: kids, chores, health, animals. I'm often irritated by all those and get tense because of it.

    Curiosity?
    Daily. It's another one of my core expressions. I stay curious.

    Loneliness?
    Unknown to me, in memory (last 20+ years).

    Anticipation?
    Rarely experienced. Unless, perhaps, anticipating my weekly allowance. In any case, it's not something I have strong feelings for.

    How do you relate to the concepts of:

    Revenge?
    Horrible. It just perpetuates a cycle and no one feels good about the outcomes.

    Kindness?
    Should be expressed and felt daily.

    Betrayal?
    Intrigued. Everyone is a mystery and no one knows all of the story.

    Faith?
    How can a person NOT have any toward *something* (if not God, people, science, themselves).

    Belief?
    It can make or break a person, in some cases. It goes hand-in-hand with Faith, for me.

    Friendship?
    It's nice, I guess. But people require too much: time, energy, emotion etc. I don't have it in me.

    Perfection?
    The ultimate, though ultimately impossible, goal I tend to be a perfectionist, though I'm forgiving of others. But because it is impossible, I usually opt to do nothing at all than fail.

    Loss?
    Inevitable, sad, but survivable.

    Missing out?
    On what? Nah, I'm content.

    How do you relate to your experiences of:

    Yourself?
    An annoying clump of problems with the occasional awesome insight. I'm generally accepting of myself.

    Your emotional state?
    Drugs help :P HSP is a bear. Other than that, I'd be okay.

    Your intellect?
    Embarrassing.

    Your relationships with others?
    Friendly.

    Your relationship with people you love?
    Distant.

    Your relationship with people you hate?
    There are none.

    Your relationship with yourself?
    Okay.

    Your relationship to society?
    As long as I don't have to mingle with the masses I'm okay. Nah, society, in small amounts, is okay.

    Your relationship to societies expectations?
    People can suck my toe. At least, that's the front I try to put on. I've given up trying to please all people all the time. I know a lot of people will judge or have other thoughts or emotions about my life, there's nothing I can do about it. Just don't be a jerk and I'm okay. I try to be aware of "my audience" and behave/dress accordingly.

    Your relationship to expectations you place on yourself?
    I'm an optimistic realist. I try to do things within my means and ability. I grumble at myself when I fail, but I forget the failure pretty quickly.

    Your relationship to your past?
    It happened. Some of it was even pretty nice. If only I could remember it better...

    Your relationship to your present?
    To be savored and appreciated.

    Your relationship to your future?
    Is unknown and unknowable. I try to predict interactions (I have dialogue mapped out etc), but beyond that it's out of my control. (I gave myself severe anxiety about fears for the future for most of my life. I try not to think about the future any more.)

    Describe more:

    The things you are proud of?
    My empathy and compassion. My ability to read people and advice them (when asked).

    The things that you wish you had?
    Willpower, self-discipline, the ability to read and write music and pattern, better intellect.

    The things you regret?
    Letting down and failing the people in my life.

    The things you want?
    Peace and quiet, my house fixed, my animals whisked away, my kids to move out, better health.

    The things you need?
    Peace and quite, lots of space, zero chaos.

    The things you wish you could do without?
    Video games, nicotine.

    The things you know you could do without?
    Video games and nicotine lol.. but a whole lot more too.

    And finally:

    Who are you?
    I am a conflict-adverse, creative and sometimes inventive homebody who needs very little to feel content in life. I care about others, open up quickly and easily but maintaining ties isn't something I want. In another life, I would have been a hermit shaman on a mountain top- mapping the sky, living off the land and learning all the mysteries of nature. In this life, though, I'm much too lazy.
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    Imma try to keep all this concise so ya don't have to read a novel ha.

    Exictment= This is something that is a very positive thing as it means things aren't stagnant and boring. I love this emotion.

    Fear=I don't feel this one much as such. Mostly when I am frightened of conflict or discomfort in some way.

    Jealousy= Im not a very jealous person overall but hmmm I can get jealous of how others seem to have something Im missing.

    Hope= Hmmm this to me is the fact that things work out well in the end generally.

    Anger= Something to be avoided like the plague as it tends to lead to worse things happening unless its for a good reason. I very rarely feel truly angry and when I do I tend to try to shove it down.

    Hurt= It hurts nuff said :P. It makes for very good Young Adult fiction characters though he he he.

    Love= I relate to love as hmmm just feeling really fond of a person and also like hmm merging with them.

    Sadness= I feel this a lot but try to not let it get me down. I tend to feel sad when I feel defective or bummed out about not being able to do what I want to.

    Happiness= This is a good thing to be. Its also a good sign that you are doing well .

    Frustration= Jesus don't even get me started on this lol. I am frustrated a lot as I have so many things and dreams in my head but not enough time or resources to do it all. I also get frustrated at myself for failing to be "perfect".

    Disappointment= This is but a gadfly in the grander scheme of life he he he. It tends to come when things aren't as grand as I expected them too be (Which is most of the time lol) then it passes.

    Tension= I am not sure how I relate to this emotion tbh.

    Curiosity= My middle name . Its what makes life worth living imo as without it we would still be stuck in the single cell age as two cells must have been curious enough to try sexual reproduction :P.

    Loneliness= I tend to feel lonely when I feel separate from others like if I feel ignored by others.

    Revenge= Revenge is unneeded and does no good at all long run at all. I would rather justice than revenge in that people are held accountable for what they did and they can be forgiven and make amends. Revenge is the emotional equlivent of using up your energy to chase a prey animal rather than just go to Walmart and buy a steak . (At least for humans).

    Kindness= Kindness is a nice thing I suppose and is the reason why we have culture and civzation as having zero kindness would mean that society as we know it would collapse.

    Betrayal= It can hurt especially from someone I love a lot but I tend to forget about it after a second or two or they offer me cake :P. Food is really one good way to make me like you again lol (Not a joke). Plus it makes for very good dystopian Dickenson comedy.

    Faith= A good money making tool if you can pose as a prophet plus the sasfaction and giggles of fooling people :P. Jking it can be a beatifical thing I suppose.

    Belief= Its not something I really have as such. Hard to explain but I would rather logically figure out things than believe in them even though it would be fun to believe in something.

    Friendship= A good thing and it what makes life that great and more fun lol.

    Ill try and condense a lot of the questions from here since a lot can be kind of lumped together.

    I see myself as hmmm I am kind of hard to define since I am a shapeshifter of sort in that I change my personally both knowingly and unaware to mirror and in a way merge with others taking on their personality traits though one thing is consistent I seem to be high energy and funny. I suppose if I had to sit with myself without anyone to merge with I would say I am a fun loving guy . I try to relate to others on a basis of goodwill and dignity like I try to be kind and accept 99% of folks as even if they seem a unpleasant person sometimes you will find they are actually pretty cool. My relationship with the past,preastn and future hmmm. The past is mostly just the past its gone by but sometimes I can dwell on it in a negative way that stops me from moving on. The present is jus that nothing special about. The future imo is the most important. Without a good future one cannot enjoy the past and present and I suppose that's a way to put them all into harmony.

    My relationship with society hmmm. I think its a good thing overall as humans have advanced so much but sometimes I feel hmmm I don't fit at times like I am a outsider looking in from a spaceship not from within.

    And that's it for today . Feel free to ask more questions Frosty if you want or need too and this is a very good idea as well!.
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    Ahhhh I love this idea!
    Perpetual mood


    “Sometimes I think I have felt everything I'm ever gonna feel.
    And from here on out, I'm not gonna feel anything new.
    Just lesser versions of what I've already felt.”


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    Excitement?
    I have long said that I rarely get excited about anything and that I have no inner child, but I don't think that's necessarily true. It is true that I rarely look forward to something in a manner that provokes excitement, but I do have a tendency to get playfully childlike/mischievous in bursts, which is how I get when I am excited about things. Like baby goats.

    Fear?
    I'm not a terribly fearful individual in the anxious sense. Like, I don't sit around and worry about worst case scenarios. I do have fear though, and a lot of it revolves around fearing that I will be unable to attain what I want, the life I envision. Therefore, I struggle with taking active steps toward my idealized life and tend to suffer for it. In that sense, I guess I do let fear hold me back.

    Jealousy?
    I wouldn't call myself jealous as a descriptor, but I can be a touch territorial. I can also be quietly insecure, worrying that my partner might have eyes for another woman he knows or that he may have lingering feelings for a past lover. The latter is particularly difficult to deal with because as stupid as it sounds, I want to be the most desirable and adored woman my partner has ever been with, and I don't want him reminiscing about the past in a way that makes him feel I am lacking something and don't measure up.

    Hope?
    I have a weird on/off relationship with hope. I can cycle between pessimism/acceptance/optimism, but I generally get sucked more toward the glass half empty side. Hopelessness is not a foreign feeling for me.

    Anger?
    Oh boy. If I am truly honest with myself, I am probably one of the most angry people I have ever known, maybe even the angriest. This doesn't show up in the classic sense of the word all the time though and tends to manifest via frustration and irritation mostly, but I'm also openly angry more often than most people too. I guess a lot of things just get under my skin. I wouldn't call myself the most violently angry person I've ever known though, just more that it's often there.

    Hurt?
    A core feeling that I cannot separate from who I am. I think most of you know enough about my history to get it.

    Love?
    My savior and my downfall. Life is meaningless without it, and manifesting it alone can be difficult for me. I'm working as hard as I possibly can to learn how to love myself, by myself.

    Sadness?
    Another core feeling. I guess I just feel like my life is a series of losses. Sadness strikes me at odd times often, and it's an emotion I keep near to myself. I honestly don't think I'd be happy without it, which doesn't make sense because I also don't think I know what feeling truly happy is like.

    Happiness?
    I think I just answered that, but let me clarify: I do have happy moments or short periods of time, but if you took a 6 month chunk of my life, any chunk, and asked me if I was "happy" about my life in that time frame, there would always be a "but"... something would always be out of reach. I would probably in some way be working toward whatever that is, or at least telling myself that I am working toward it, but I would never be content as is for a sustained period of time.

    Frustration?
    Hahahaha. I'm probably the most perpetually frustrated TypoC forum member.

    Disappointment?
    I actually don't relate highly to disappointment of people, although I have felt this lately a bit. I don't really have expectations of people and don't want people to have expectations of me, so disappointment is generally not on my radar in that manner. I am perpetually disappointed with life though.

    Tension?
    I carry physical tension in my shoulders/neck/jaw often. Sexual tension is a thing sometimes, but rarely (which is disappointing). I am prone to awkward tension, as in being super uncomfortable in my own skin in certain social situations, particularly without alcohol.

    Curiosity?
    I'm an extremely curious individual. I am constantly mining for information pertaining to whatever I am interested in at the moment. My body needs no stimulation, but my mind needs constant stimulation.

    Loneliness?
    I've been very lonely for several years now, understandably.

    Anticipation?
    This ties in with excitement. I usually only experience romantic or sexual anticipation. I don't have enough exciting things lined up at any given moment to experience general anticipation.

    How do you relate to the concepts of:

    Revenge?
    I don't seek revenge, I seek justice. It's not something I get hung up on often, but if it happens, you will go down.

    Kindness?
    Meh. I'm not as kind as I should be.

    Betrayal?
    Kinda ties in with disappointment of people, which isn't part of my core operating system because of the separation between me and others. I did feel deeply betrayed by some friends who abandoned me at a low point in life, especially because I think they allowed my abusive ex-husband to poison their perception with his manipulation, despite knowing beforehand that he was like that. I don't know if I will ever truly get over that.

    Faith?
    No. I don't have any of that.

    Belief?
    Who are you without beliefs? A nobody. Nothing.

    Friendship?
    I consider many people acquaintances. They may think they are my friend, but I have a hard time using that word to describe people, even people I like. Therefore, I generally consider myself to have few friends, and I spend no time with anyone in person, for the most part. I am always satisfied by having one main connection with a lover, and one friend whom I spend some time with occasionally, and then all the connections I make online. (I still consider many of you here friends, but we don't see each other in person, so something will always be missing in that sense. Please don't be offended or hurt.)

    Perfection?
    I'm very hard on myself. I recall being called a perfectionist as a child by my mom many times. This perfectionism showed up particularly when I was in college and is why I had a 4.0 GPA. If I were to go back to get a degree, I would be disappointed in myself if I didn't graduate top of my class. I know how crazy that sounds, but it's how I feel. Other than that, with others, I can either be very easy to please or impossible to please. I'm so dateable.

    Loss?
    I feel like we covered this? My whole life is loss.

    Missing out?
    Not really in terms of action. I always feel that I am missing something though.

    How do you relate to your experiences of:

    Yourself?
    I don't understand the question. I can tell you that I am abnormally preoccupied with my sense of self and identity and figuring myself out...

    Your emotional state?
    It's unstable and a defining characteristic of who I am and what I am dealing with at any given moment. It hinders my ability to take action and move toward what it is I want in life.

    Your intellect?
    I consider myself to be intellectual, but not in a best of the best way. Feeling dumb makes me red in the face.

    Your relationships with others?
    Weirdly detached. I see you, you see me, we are interacting, we are laughing, I like you, you like me... but yet I am still completely contained over here and there is little you can do to change that. In order to connect beyond that into something authentic and deep, I need to see what's behind the front door. Then I'll decide if I open mine for you (although I do tend to flash the curtains open here and there just to see what happens).

    Your relationship with people you love?
    I only have love for my children and romantic partners, and whomever opened their front door and also walked through mine. There are levels though.

    Your relationship with people you hate?
    I don't often go full-fledged with the hate, but when I do, that person becomes nothing to me. Sometimes I want to rip out the box that they hid in their core and open it, exposing it to the whole world.

    Your relationship with yourself?
    Complex, consuming, conflicted, cancerous, carved. I give it a grade of C-.

    Your relationship to society?
    I don't really have one and I like it better this way for the most part.

    Your relationship to societies expectations?
    No thank you.

    Your relationship to expectations you place on yourself?
    Hm, I should place more expectations on myself than on others. I do feel disappointed in myself I guess, for not being where I should be, emotionally or otherwise.

    Your relationship to your past?
    Well, that's who I am, innit? I can't remember a lot of it, so maybe that's why I can't figure out who I am.

    Your relationship to your present?
    I'm hanging in there, getting outside of myself in small ways. Trying to integrate the past, present, and future in a healing sense. Trying to build my own foundation so that I can have what it is I want in life one day.

    Your relationship to your future?
    See last answer.

    Describe more:

    The things you are proud of?
    Mostly the fact that I am still here.

    The things that you wish you had?
    A house with a yard and trees and a 3-season room. A career I don't fucking hate that gives me freedom and room to be a creative problem solver, the embrace of the love of my life, peace, a feeling of contentedness.

    The things you regret?
    Everything and nothing.

    The things you want?
    Everything and nothing.

    The things you need?
    Everything and nothing.

    The things you wish you could do without?
    Societal expectations.

    The things you know you could do without?
    Societal expectations.

    And finally:

    Who are you?

    A formless canvas with many colors but no clear image.
    Perpetual mood


    “Sometimes I think I have felt everything I'm ever gonna feel.
    And from here on out, I'm not gonna feel anything new.
    Just lesser versions of what I've already felt.”


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    This is a really cool idea. I'm putting mine in a spoiler bar to conserve space.
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    Really cool idea, Frosty ^_^



    How do you relate to the feelings of:

    Excitement? I am mostly excited when I have a creative idea in mind or am going somewhere new. It's funny, if I'm in class and people are all riled up about something, I'm often blank. But I also get excited about little things like groceries. I get hyper and bounce around the place.

    Fear? I am made of fear, lol. Fear of my phobias(like fire), fearing for my security, fear of conflict, all the fear. Also, I overthink things a bunch. I just see so many possibilities.

    Jealousy? I feel this from time to time. It's not usually a seething jealousy, but I can't help but feel a bit jealous if say, a friend is spending a ton of time with someone else or someone achieved something I worked hard for and failed.

    Hope? Despite dealing with a lot of fear, I am generally optimistic. I'm not a ball of sunshine, but I tend to see the best in situations and the best in people.

    Anger? Something I don't like to express-I don't like arguing(debates are fun though). I rarely blow up at anyone. I do get angry at people being obnoxious, judgmental, and controlling though.


    Love? I'm a romantic person I think. When I'm in a romantic relationship, I'm just happier. I've got that one devoted person. My philosophy is to treat your partner as your best friend-more fun times and understanding. I also love animals and taking care of them. They're simply adorable.

    Sadness? Besides the typical breakups and deaths, I think what really makes me sad is seeing people hurt and just having a life with no depth or meaning, one that's too routine. I wallow in self pity. I try to avoid things that make me sad, like deep talks or most sad shows.

    Happiness? Unfortunately, I wish I could feel this one more. But what makes me happy? Eating delicious and foreign foods, visiting somewhere new, spending time with a couple close friends, playing board games or hours of a good video game, looking at beautiful art or nature, that stuff

    Frustration? I feel this one a lot, more so than real anger. Loud noises, stress, being misunderstood, those all play in. I just try to drown out my feelings with music or something. I'm often pacing around too-I feel very tense.


    Curiosity? I love learning about all sorts of stuff. History is a favorite-it's just fascinating what people acted like back then in comparison to now, what inventions were around. I also enjoy watching medical shows and deducing the mystery, learning what weird conditions people can have.

    Loneliness? Alone time is refreshing. However, I do feel lonely a lot. I've always been a third wheel and I just have trouble relating to people. Not that I'm a special snowflake, but I've rarely ever fit in a group. Guess I don't really need to though.


    How do you relate to the concepts of:

    Revenge? Never executed, but I can't help but think about pulling a prank on an ex or something.

    Kindness? I try to be kind by sharing food with friends or surprising them with little gifts and just helping out around the place.

    Belief? I'm laid back about most of my beliefs and am tolerant of other peoples' beliefs too. You can have your beliefs and I may not agree with them. But if you're actually acting on the (presumably) bad belief, I'm more likely to get upset.

    Friendship? Friendship is good! I don't have many friends, but I do prefer to have a few good, loyal friends. I love my internet friends

    Perfection? Pfft, I am sensitive to criticism, I don't like feeling incompetent. I am a disorganized mess though. When working on a project, I want to put my soul into it and be creative, but I don't mind cutting a few corners.

    Loss? I am clingy! Not just in a relationship way, but I strongly fear loss in a sense of losing my favorite things, losing friends, losing what I've worked hard on, leaving places. Basically, losing whatever disrupts my security.


    Missing out? I don't like missing out. If I'm genuinely not interested in something, then whatever. But if I'm uninformed and left out of activities, I feel disappointed. Life is short. It's not the worst feeling, but if I miss an opportunity to accomplish something(like if I'm late trying to apply for something) I regret it.



    How do you relate to your experiences of:


    Yourself? I'm a trainwreck


    Your emotional state? Dead inside


    Your intellect? I'm usuallyyy book smart, but I'm also scatterbrained and clumsy. Burnout gifted kid here. If it helps, my long term memory is famously good, but my short term memory is not as good-I'm quite forgetful.

    Your relationships with others? Rarely close, but I get along with most people I meet. Around most people I am quiet but am generally easy to talk to once you get past my shell.

    Your relationship with people you love? Distant. I'm not the mushiest person; I can be in romance, but not with family. But I show people I love them by cheering them up, offering to do fun activities with them, and listening to/not judging them for their problems.

    Your relationship with people you hate? There's no one my life I genuinely hate. I've had my enemies in the past, but live and let live. I'm a very forgiving person. I'll hear about crimes committed in the world and it'll make me upset. There are certain things that irk me, but generally, it's hard to hate someone if I don't know them on a personal level.

    Your relationship with yourself? My self confidence could be better. I doubt myself a lot and can't help but have my flaws gnaw at me.


    Your relationship to societies expectations? Meh. I don't feel the need to actively rebel, but societal expectations are something I don't need to actively follow. I do the basics and try to be polite. But other than that, if breaking the societal expectation doesn't hurt anyone, then I don't think it matters.


    Your relationship to expectations you place on yourself?


    I've got a few basic expectations for myself. Be responsible, be creative, live and let life, and be kind to others.


    Your relationship to your past? I've had some rough patches that are hard to talk about-used to have a crappy home life. But I'm very nostalgic-I'm a sucker for old school video games and computers

    Your relationship to your present? Seize opportunity! I can be pretty spacey about present matters though.


    Your relationship to your future? I look forward to it mostly. I'm still young and have lots to look forward to, like buying a house and getting married. I have a tendency to plan in advance when I'm excited about something. I do have trouble moving on in life though.

    Describe more:

    The things you are proud of? Academic achievements. Am I the best student around? Nope, but I've gotten lots of awards as a kid, especially in languages! I've also applied for lots of scholarships, albeit not winning any.



    The things that you wish you had?
    Talent. Not saying that I'm totally untalented, but for now I'm just a jack of all trades. Nothing wrong with that, but I want to find my calling, something I'm truly passionate about and that I can master. I want something I can do something with-it would be cool to start my own business for example. I wish I had peace of mind-I just want to be happy. Also a vacation. Not in a way of getting away from a job though. Part of it is that I love traveling and am interested in different cultures, but it's also just wanting to get away from things and refresh. Also good health-I just want to be full of energy so I can do more stuff.

    The things you regret? Probably me not asking for help. I'm the person who tends to tackle problems by themselves and not ask for help much or even express them in general. But if I did ask for help, perhaps I could achieve more and maybe be happier.


    The things you know you could do without? Poor mental health lol

    And finally:

    Who are you?

    An average, curly haired, small town gal. Quiet, easygoing, innovative and a bit of a goofball, but also spacey and indecisive. Someone who jams to the beat of her own drum, loves putting her creative spin on things. Often found listening to music whilst daydreaming and dancing, doodling, writing, and binge watching. A small speck in the universe.
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    How do you relate to the feelings of:

    Excitement?


    I do not get excited easily, but when I do I have trouble controlling my volume. I cannot speak very well, and will have a lot of energy and want to scream sometimes. Or just laughing maniacally.

    Fear?

    I am not sure on fear. I am either easily afraid, or not afraid. It is difficult to tell, because I have anxiety and various other OCD and paranoia tendencies (Like never opening the windows because you think someone will rob you.) that can be attributed to fear. This is inherently, a physical feeling. Psychologically, I don't think I am afraid of anything that isn't an immediate threat to my physical well being. I am not afraid of psychological threats either.

    Jealousy?


    An emotion I do not feel very often, if not at all. I have never been jealous, and if I have I probably never noticed because it doesn't really affect me. Now envy I feel. I think the two are commonly confused. Jealousy is wanting something you already have, Envy is wanting something you do not have.

    Hope?

    If I wasn't adept at being able to hope, I would not be here. I would say I cannot see myself without being hopeful at all. I mean, I can be cynical and pessimistic at times. But at my core, I am always hoping things will turn out better.

    Anger?

    Oh yes, I am an extremely angry person. I can't really control my anger once it comes out, and the moment things start to set me off I just become a hysterical mess. I definitely do not show anger like most people. I usually contain it for as long as possible. Distract myself from it. I will try to diffuse a situation before I explode too. Or I will begin to use very harsh words. If I am drunk, I will really really hurt your feelings and I don't want that. I can go on a verbal tirade for quite a bit. Physical anger only happens with me, if I am being physically pressed to react. Like not letting me get away from you will only result in me attacking.

    Hurt?

    Hurt? As in emotional pain? I am in a constant state of agony, but that is my norm. So it doesn't really bother me. I just learn to keep on smiling and keep on looking forward like some retarded shounen protagonist. Physical pain wise, I have surprisingly high tolerance for a female. I have endured things that would give people nightmares. I seem adept at controlling my mind in those situations enough to overcome them.

    Love?

    Ah love, the emotion that continues to evade me. I would say I wasn't loved much growing up. As a result, I don't really understand it, or how to reciprocate it. Those times I did experience love, I didn't know it at the time and they all resulted in trauma and tragedy. So I tend to associate intimacy and closeness of people, with pain and loss as a result. With animals though, it seems to be a loophole in my brain fuckery. I can love animals wholly and express it. Humans just make me shell-shocked.

    Sadness?

    Sad is just normal for me, as with hurt. It is as common as sunlight in my life. I am in a constant state of melancholy and reflection. It also doesn't bother me. It is fuel for thought, and introspection. It drives me to overcome some things. Its an emotion I probably feel the deepest, but it isn't entirely bad.

    Happiness?

    The only time I have ever felt happy, is with the help of drugs and alcohol. I am not joking. I don't think my brain is capable of producing this feeling without something interfering with my dopamine receptors.

    Frustration?


    I hate this feeling, because I don't generally get it. I am good at avoiding frustration, but its not something easily avoided. I more often than not, get frustrated with my own incompetence. I hate not being able to get things done the way I want them to be done. I am very particular about execution in my tasks.

    Disappointment?

    Ah, I hate this feeling too. I generally twist and avoid this feeling as much as possible. I don't like it. I sometimes turn on myself, and stop doing something all together because of it. But I also know how to convince myself to get back up afterwards.

    Tension?

    I am TENSION. I am so tense, all the time that I feel like I am about to snap in half most of the time. I grew up in an environment that forced me to be on my toes at all times. I legit do not know how to relax. I will probably die young from the sheer amount of stress.

    Curiosity?

    I wouldn't say I am curious as much as I just absorb information from all areas, because I can. I don't feel curiosity as an emotion. If something is new and interesting, I will search it up because its relevant to a task at hand. Sometimes that leads to other things that are also interesting. Before I know it, I read everything and feel like I need more. Its more of a desire to fill in the blanks.

    Loneliness?

    Ah, I hate this emotion. It is the worse emotion. I have spent my whole life pretty contained and isolated. I had to learn to make friends with myself, and I had only myself to talk to and rely on. Life was not kind to me in the sense of giving me connections to people. If it wasn't for online interactions, I would have struggled even more than I have with this. Some part of me really wants to connect to people, because of this profound loneliness. Another part of me thinks that's an idealistic fantasy that won't ever come to fruition, backed up by the idea that humans can never fully understand each other.

    Anticipation?


    Anticipation has an extremely negative impact on me. It ties into tension with me. I was forced to stay on my toes, because I had to avoid physical harm, unpleasant surprises etc on a constant basis growing up. I am so good at anticipation, that my body reacts before my brain does. I have insane reflexes. This anticipation has resulted in extreme bouts of intrusive thoughts of physical harm, harming others, and horrible things happening around me. It tends to give me a feeling of dread.

    How do you relate to the concepts of:

    Revenge?

    Revenge is one of those things I thought I wanted a lot growing up, but as I became older it just seems pointless. You'd have to quite literally fuck me over in some really bad way. I am too naturally inclined to blame myself over what someone else has done.

    Kindness?

    I think being kind is what makes the world go round, and a better place. Kindness might be considered a weakness, but without it we would be lost as a species.

    Betrayal?

    I have extreme trust issues, so the odds of one betraying me is pretty low. So low in fact, I haven't been betrayed since I was 16. But this also means I have not trusted anyone since then. I struggle to trust anyone in any sort of way. I just remove any attachment from things that I give people, and don't even expect to get it back. Same applies for a lot of emotion. I am so detached, that it never feels real. That things are not happening to me etc.

    Faith?

    I think faith is required to be confident. You have faith in yourself, your knowledge, or someone else. It's a lot like blind trust. I have faith in the way things generally play out in life. I have faith in my own ability to survive and accomplish what I need to, when I need to.

    Belief?

    Everyone has them, I am no different.

    Friendship?

    As with love, I feel a slight disconnect to the idea and concept. I don't honestly feel I am worthy of humans, regardless of how much I want to connect with them. I feel so uncomfortable sometimes, that I cannot accept that I have friends. My emotions keep trying to reject intimacy out of fear.

    Perfection?

    I am a bit of a perfectionist, and it drives me nuts. It also works in mysterious ways. I don't think I am perfectionist in a way a lot of other people are. It is generally associated with performance, and creation. I never like doing things in front of people, until I am a master already. I don't like people seeing me learning.

    Loss?

    I deal with loss pretty well. Like other traumas in my life, I just learn to let it go. If I couldn't let it go, I don't think I could bear the weight of the things I have lost in my life. I feel some loss is ultimately inevitable, and I fully expect it to come around eventually.

    Missing out?

    This doesn't bother me. I don't really miss out on anything. If I want to do something, I do it. There is no wanting, and not doing with me.

    How do you relate to your experiences of:

    Yourself?

    If I met myself, I would probably feel bad for myself. I am such a broken human bean.

    Your emotional state?

    I cannot really describe or articulate my emotional state. It's very much like seeing an offshore thunderstorm, but still trying to have fun at the beach.

    Your intellect?

    My opinion on my intellect varies a lot. In real life, I seem way more intelligent than most people. Online, I feel inferior. My inability to communicate in a way that's easily understood and respected by others holds me back the most.

    Your relationships with others?

    Others in general? I don't really have relationships with people, unless they are already friends. Otherwise they are strangers I hold at a respectable distance.

    Your relationship with people you love?

    As explained with love, I don't really have that feeling and connection with people.

    Your relationship with people you hate?

    I don't really hate anyone. I think we are all fighting the good fight, and we just have different perspectives.

    Your relationship with yourself?

    I have a relatively poor relationship with myself. I am way too hard on myself, and way too strict and unforgiving.

    Your relationship to society?

    I generally dislike people, that create society. So society itself is pretty ugly and pretentious.

    Your relationship to societies expectations?


    I have a decent relationship with society expectations, I am a good productive member to society.

    Your relationship to expectations you place on yourself?


    I am too harsh on myself, as mentioned above. I demand perfection, but I am not perfect.

    Your relationship to your past?

    I think I have overcome my past, and now have a decent relationship with it.

    Your relationship to your present?

    My present is pretty shit, but also pretty good. It can be better.

    Your relationship to your future?

    I am optimistic that it can be improvement.

    Describe more:

    The things you are proud of?

    Me? Pride? haha! Okay, I somehow fluctuate between zero pride, and too much pride. My ego inflates and deflates so fast its not even funny.

    The things that you wish you had?

    Money, lots and lots of money.

    The things you regret?

    Too much to list.

    The things you want?

    Money, and more money. xD

    The things you need?

    Money, and all the money.

    The things you wish you could do without?

    Emotions, and people.

    The things you know you could do without?

    Society.

    And finally:

    Who are you?


    Nothing special, an average human being.
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    How do you relate to the feelings of:

    Excitement?
    A very good feeling, but I don't experience it that often. I guess it's somewhat dangerous, because a lot of times, I get excited about something and it ends up being disappointing in some way (and I don't think my expectations are unreasonably high).

    Fear?
    There are things that I fear that are related to anxiety, past trauma, and OCD. Then there are fears that speak more to the heart of me, like I fear ending up alone, loveless, familyless, possibly getting dementia and not being able to look out for myself. I fear losing people I love. I fear never having the kind of love I want. I fear being abandoned. I fear not being good enough. I fear making big mistakes that can't be undone.

    Jealousy?
    I really only experience jealousy when I feel that someone is a threat to a close relationship. Then sometimes it's reasonable, but most of the time is unreasonable, and I need to relax.

    Hope?
    Similar answer as to Excitement. Don't experience often, usually end up being let down.

    Anger?
    I think I usually experience anger in a healthy way. By which I mean that generally (NOT always) my anger is reasonable, and I generally don't lash out in a harmful way. It's often in response to myself or someone I care about not being treated the way I think I or they should be.

    Hurt?
    I think I've had more than my fair share of this.

    Love?
    The main point of life.

    Sadness?
    Often. Because - look at the state of the world. Look at how people treat each other. Look at how unfair things are.

    Happiness?
    Is wonderful, but too fleeting.

    Frustration?
    All the time. I do not easily accept that which I cannot change. OCD.

    Disappointment?
    Very much so. My life is not how I thought it would be. Things don't tend to work out the way I want them to in some important ways.

    Tension?
    I hate tension. It eats me up inside. I have a hard time letting things go. I have a hard time not worrying. I have a hard time forgiving myself (and others).

    Curiosity?
    One of the best feelings. I am rarely bored. Life is fascinating.

    Loneliness?
    Something I've felt a lot in my life, more often than not. I sometimes find people who make it less so, who are good friends and who are understanding, but the times I've been lonely are still more numerous than the times I've not. Hopefully the scale tips at some point.

    Anticipation?
    Dread.

    How do you relate to the concepts of:

    Revenge?
    Not healthy, generally. It implies acting beyond what is necessary and ethical.

    Kindness?
    I strive to be kind, it's extremely important to me.

    Betrayal?
    One of the most hurtful feelings.

    Faith?
    I am highly uncomfortable with blind faith. I must be able to question. However, I have faith in people who've proven themselves to me.

    Belief?
    Not sure what this means separately from faith...

    Friendship?
    One of the best things in life.

    Perfection?
    Is not possible. I'm trying (and getting there centimeter by centimeter) to accept that this is so and that this is okay.

    Loss?
    Something that has weighed on my soul since I first experienced it. What ended my childhood. What is always there, threatening.

    Missing out?
    I don't want to die without having experienced certain things, but beyond that, I am not sure how much I relate to FOMO.

    How do you relate to your experiences of:

    Yourself?
    Steadily. Sometimes respectfully. Sometimes painfully.

    Your emotional state?
    Is everything. Like... the idea that for some people it's not, I understand, but I can't really imagine. My emotional state is always there, at the forefront, demanding to be dealt with. Of course, it's not always turbulent. Often it's not. But it's still there at the forefront.

    Your intellect?
    Something I am thankful for having a predisposition for, parental encouraging of, and having made a commitment to nurturing. Something I am proud of.

    Your relationships with others?

    Your relationship with people you love?
    Largely good. I strive to be respectful in the sense of accepting who other people are, not treading over boundaries, not pushing too much. Respect is highly important to me. But I want authentic openness and intimacy. And I am afraid of being abandoned, of not being good enough somehow. Which can be a problem. (And which is also due to past life events.)

    Your relationship with people you hate?
    Either do my best to avoid, or if there's something they're doing that is wrong, try to stop it or counteract it if I can.

    Your relationship with yourself?
    I've been told I need to love myself more.

    Your relationship to society?
    I've been told I march to the beat of my own drummer.

    Your relationship to societies expectations?
    See above.

    Your relationship to expectations you place on yourself?
    I've placed expectations on life and inferred that I wasn't good enough when those expectations weren't met. I need to work on this.

    Your relationship to your past?
    For a very long time, I was caught up in the past. I have finally been able to let much of it go.

    Your relationship to your present?
    I try to focus on because...

    Your relationship to your future?
    ...the future feels so uncertain, it's just anxiety inducing.

    Describe more:

    The things you are proud of?
    I'm proud of my intellect, my values and standing up for them, how I try to respect and care about others, and how good I am with animals. Sometimes things like being able to make others laugh or feel special, and talent with things like photography.

    The things that you wish you had?
    I don't want to answer.

    The things you regret?
    I regret being so scared of rejection. Not that not being scared would have changed anything. It doesn't seem like anything I do changes anything.

    *** Okay, yes, it would at least change in that I wouldn't have suffered so damn much. So... if the same thing is going to happen anyway, what use is being scared or anxious or wasting time worrying? It's hard not to do, though.

    The things you want?
    I try to get them, I think. Though others would likely say I could try in a better way.

    The things you need?
    Ah, where is the line between want and need? A very important question. There are things that are not essential to my survival that I want, that some would consider a need. I need a safe place. Which means safe physically, but I also need a safe place where I can love and be loved the way I want to.

    The things you wish you could do without?
    Mowing the lawn? lol

    The things you know you could do without?
    Unkind judgmental people.

    And finally:

    Who are you?
    The Walrus.
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