I crave heightened reality. Out of this world dramatic events where my life is on the line like the stuff you see in movies. I get sooo bored with normal life it's not even funny. After awhile everything starts to look gray to me. I crave meaning and extreme excitement but I don't know how to go about getting it. Stuff like jumping out of a plane might be exciting but it doesn't mean anything to me so it would be an empty experience. When I do eventually get to have that intense peak experience with all the pressure I like it so much that I seriously start tearing up and psychotic laughter creeps out of me. Things that would scare other people and make them crack under the pressure I live for. I sort of feel like I'm meant to be something like han solo wandering around on my own spaceship causing trouble and rebelling against things or daryl dixon from the walking dead. So basically I'm meant to be in some sort of lawless post apocalyptic world that doesn't exist.
Can any other SPs relate?
Can any other SPs relate?