What was adolescence like for you? Did you have a rebellious period, and what was it like?
Almost exactly like Same Spade and Habba a few years ago, partially because I was placed in girls' schools for 10 years. I could not click with most of the girls on there as it seemed as if their lives were revolving around cliques, studying, cliques, fashion, cliques, idols, cliques and scoring well in exams. I do not know how much of a stereotype of Thinking girls not fitting in is, but I sure as hell don't. I tried really hard to find similar interests, and only found one, which was anime and manga, and only under 5 people from my class liked them. Even so, the genres and titles the few classmates watch/read were different from mine. Well, I guess that seemed pretty rebellious from my classmates' pov, but I didn't do it on purpose. :rolli: But yes, I was very, very lonely. I remembered days when I did cry at night when no one's looking just because the world just felt cold and empty, and overall just being perpetually pessimistic on my outlook of life. (I still do actually, lol, but it isn't as terrible as it used to)
When I got into polytechnic under a course dealing with game design however, things changed quite a lot. There were a lot more people with much more similar interests and I was happier than I was in secondary school.
Right now though, I think what I really need is a female friend I can relate to and talk to about almost anything. I'm not being a sexist here or anything, it's just like how guys need guy buddies which they can talk to about guy troubles that girls 'can never understand'. It just struck me that I never really have one of those female confidants (other than my ENFx sister and I love her but she's now busy with her boyfriend to care much about me, mum too but there's always this generation gap and she just can't seem to empathize, but still, love her) or even a best friend. Most of my close friends are kinda taken up by some other friend already, heh. I have a couple of guy friends who are like confidants, but I never really felt safe telling them too much and sometimes I still do think that they don't really understand. (Yes, I know it's mean to think that way, and I really do appreciate them for taking the time to listen to me talk about my troubles.) Oh, and all these are always done on msn because I never seem to be able to get my thoughts out as clearly as I want when talking as compared to typing.
Currently I'm 18 and nearing the end of adolescence, we'll just have to see what happens next.
How important was it to you to do well at school (or further studies)?
Not very important unless I can see how I can apply what I learn to my life and/or future jobs.
What is your opinion of people with qualifications such as Doctorate or Masters degrees? Do they automatically gain your respect?
Depends. They do not automatically gain my respect, but I'll take their opinions in their areas of expertise with more weight.
Have you ever lost your temper and exploded emotionally (raising your voice, screaming, crying)? What brought it on?
I think I'm a rather immature ISTJ and I lose my temper very easily. It's usually when my peace and quiet is disrupted, most of the time by my brother or classmates and I do not have the choice to leave the area. Might be because of a highly developed Fi. I can get agitated easily when things don't go according to plan and I think I'll be the first to freak out when faced with some sudden situation like someone passing out right in front of me or something. You might even say, if stoic = ISTJ, then I'm not an ISTJ at all.
Well since you have us all figured out, there's no need for you to participate in this forum. :hi:
Would you say SJ fear the unknown or unfamiliar?
For me, yes. Copy pasting my views about luck from my blog, since it pretty much deals with unpredictable events.
I have a very strong dislike for anything luck based, random or happens by chance. So much that I try as much as possible to eliminate that portion even if sometimes the time it takes to do that might not be worth it.
An example: I was playing a game called Monster Hunter. You can hire cats that cook for you. Cats with useful abilities and aptitude for certain food are rare and randomly generated. I was so irritated with that aspect of the game that I took the time to look up how to install a plugin which hacks psp games, then used codes to customize my own cats. My line of reasoning was, if the game was testing my luck with the game’s RNG and not on my skills, I think I’ll learn more from learning how to hack than mindlessly waiting for lady luck to favor me.
Even in real life, when something bad happens and it’s nobody’s fault but just pure coincidence that two incidents (or a few incidents) collided with each other and produced an undesired outcome, I find it hard to accept it even though the ‘reason’ itself is ‘coincidence’ and nothing else. Somehow, there just must be a better reason.
