isn't anything
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- May 2, 2017
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- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 5w6
We are known for being overly analytical. Most of the time, if an irrational thought or possibility pops into my head, it's easily dismissed. But, I've noticed recently that marijuana has the uncanny ability to mess with my Dom Ni. I get uber-paranoid. My thought processes get very negative, rapid and urgent. Everything that wouldn't occur to me (for good reason) were I was sober suddenly does. Because I value insight and the ability to reassess the dynamics of something, being in this altered state of mind seems to me at the time very enlightening. Everything in my head's environment comes unraveled, and this is supremely unnerving. I'm not someone who particularly enjoys being with friends in the first place, so if I'm in a bad state of mind, being around other people makes it even worse. But I'm at an age where a lot of the time, if I am with friends, marijuana is involved. One weekend, stupidly, I was unable to sleep the night before and while hanging out with my friend, accepted a pot cookie from her. I proceeded to absolutely lose it. I went home, had a full tilt panic attack, convinced myself that I would fail at every goal I had in life, that I was going insane and that death was imminent. When I finally managed to fall asleep I woke up (13 hours later) completely fine. Since then, I've started to dial back on just how high I get, and this seems to help a bit. Has anyone else had bad experiences while high? Do you think INTJs are prone to "bad highs"? Have you found ways to circumvent this?