Can you explain how that particular conversation made you realize (again) that you are so inept?
It is quite funny how we grow fond of and do not wish to lose ourselves even if we are miserable. What is important, however, is that you will still be you during and after treatment because it is the memory that makes the person. You can still be special when you are 'like everyone else': they are all different.
I have chat with him before couple times, we were talking about my problems. How I view things, my beliefs, my attuide towards people. He said he can already tell by tone of my voice I'm depressed or whatever. I felt I was misunderstood cause my traits weren't "normal". Which made me angry cause I accpet people for who they are. I respect how they view things and I don't ever see thoes traits as something "bad" even I disagree with them. People tend to believe they're all right and everyone needs to follow by their rules
Unless this entire thread is a load of bullshit you are posting simply for amusement, yes you do have a mental disorder and yes you need therapy.
doesn't matter if I have mental disorder, this is how my brain is wired. I always been the same since I was a kid. Never function too well in school settings or people but I dealt with it. Just feel lonely that I'm a lot older.
Just makes me angry that people say I need a fix or that my brain is broken.
learn to love yourself and people will learn to love you.
very cliche... but could be true. Never learned to love myself, always been self-loating. Don't really know how to break out of my insecurities.
If you don't want to change and you don't want to be social, why are you even here posting?
I do want to change but in a sense of my own realization. Telling me to go to therapy doesn't justify how I deal with my problems. I do want to be social but I always get the sense from people that I'm insane. I even get a vibe from INFP and ISTP that I"m odd and these are the type I related the most to.
Here to rant and express my emotions. See a different view. Maby some INTP went through the same thing, would be interesting to read how they cope with it. Maby to relate, that I"m not the only one who feels this way, maby to get validation that I'm not totally insane.
Wow, and I thought I had problems.
You need to seek help, soon.
The next time someone accuses me of being negative, I'm going to point them to you.
You definitely think too much about shit that doesn't matter. Quit thinking about how crappy you are and start trying to change whatever it is that bothers you about yourself. For one, quit worrying about what people on a forum think of you. It's a testing ground and not real life.
what does matter??????? Isn't that define by the individual? Does career matter? If I focus on my career and become successful would I then be complete?
For me finding something I love matters, finding someone I can spend the rest of my life matters. My family matters.
sorry, I just get this a lot from people "stop stressing about things that doesn't matter". How do they know what matters to me? always gets me what matters and what's important
Most of friendship or conversation I had weren't very good, most people would just drop whatever they said and avoid me. Just stop talking to me in general. If I'm talking to someone online I would either not get invited or get banned in a group. It does bother me that I'm an outcast and I always try to find a reason why.
