I firstly thought about physics and that's the topic I am still intrested into the most. But physics lacks practical application and I am not that much intrested in every of the topics in physics.
Physics and math are pretty much alike. They have their special moments, when they are really intresting. I for example just discovered the existence of math lab and that program is so much fun. Developed an "Antiblock Breaking System" for a car with it. You can put in all kinds of mathematical operations and create a Differential equation and then you can get it solved for the way the car needs to break in the end and can show it graphically. Pretty cool. And maths has in this sense a practical application.
Just to do math for the sake of math or physics for the sake of physics, I was never into. If I stumble about theoretical physics models, like the "Alcubierre Metric", I like to do the math for the sake of physics, because that's intresting. But it would not fulfill me, if I could never turn my theoretical models into an application. Guess there are only a few physics guys who have had this pleasure, like the guys from the LHC.
So I was never quite sure what to study. Sadly I lacked proper guidance, because if I myself do not know what I want to do and people dont give you input about possibilities or you dont search for input, it's a hard time to find answer, to questions not even asked.
In school I picked english and german as main fields of study. You probably can call them literature. Second was math and third was biology. Biology was intresting for a time, I was pretty good at genetics, but when it came to botany I failed big time. Not that I dont like flowers, I love them but to categorize flowers and name their mechanisms of reproducing, wasnt my field of expertise. What I missed mostly there was the ability to invent something. And I choose the word "invent" now, conciously. By the time I did that biology course I wasnt aware of what I am missing, nowadays I am.
Well the math course was great, but it was more like an instrument. An ability I wanted to have but didnt use with a practical background. I am still a master of mental arithmetic, something I definitly got from my ISTP dad and I once even scored 2nd in a mental arithmetic challenge out of 46 participants
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I flourished in my first course german and english. In that time I wrote a lot, but nothing really great. That was nevertheless a field where you could live your inventive nature. The things I wrote though wasnt really good. I am still searching for the definition of what makes a good writer or better said, when people read your shit. I guess from today's point of view, I could say my writing was to impersonal maybe but most of all it was set up in a realistic environment with surrealistic elements. One of my favourite writers in that time was Kafka and I liked his way of creating metaphors that could be interpreted in 3 directions at one time. So I guess the writing was always about the text to sound cool at the end, lacking content.
In university then after a dark period of mal-practiced drug abuse I decided to go back to that what I always wanted the most. Though every teacher of mine said I will not suceed in science, because my mind is too haphazard, I did it nevertheless. I was always into electronics and I built a lot of circuits when I was a child, but I didnt wanted to pursue that field, because I thaught, I knew enough about it. And electronics would only be another part of building a practical application, with electronics alone, I could never build a mechanical robot for example. So I decided to hold onto electronics as my hobby.
The same it was with informatics. I liked programming and I already went into business with a good friend building some websites. But I didnt wanted to study it. It seemed boring in the longrun and was again only a part in developing a mechanical robot.
So I choosed the field I was never intrested in before and I knew not a single thing about when I started it. And choosed mechanical engineering. I was however intrested in how a car works, like a lifetime or so. But I never really did do something in that direction. Maybe that was fate, so my studies are going to be fascinating, intresting and breath-taking
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Because I knew one topic will not satisfy me, I choosed besides mechanical engineering, economics and business Administration aswell.
Today I am still not at the point of doing something new. There is always some application I work on, some idea to build something I have and in recent time I even finally started to build something andto finally finish something I started
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To choose two fields of intrest was definitly a good choice, there were times I did do more for the one and less for the other and vice versa. That sounds not good but it is good for me, because I can balance intrests that way.
Any yes overall I consider these two intrests to be the professional ones that need to be done. I try to never let them interfere with my variety of other intrests I have. I try, do not succeed though everytime
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Why did I write such a long text now ? I dont now. Probably in the mood of talking at the moment
