Hi guys I have to start apologizing first for my bad english (it's not my mother language), and second because I'm very new to this "typology" thing, I'm trying to understand.
So here's my problem I'm a 20 yo boy who loves a 19 yo girl, seh always said to me that she is "very INFJ", she made me do a test and I'm a "INFP-T", I don't know what it really means but I'll tell my story and I hope you guys can help me.
In my first High School year (about 5 years ago), I met this girl, since then my life completely changed, for the fisrt time in my life I wanted to take an action, not just sit and wait something to happen, I REALLY wanted her, about a year later I told her how I felt about her, (about that time we were already friends), and the result was catastrophic.
So I finished High School, and started a relationship with another girl (ex- best friend of her), it went great for a time, but I was always thinking about her, last year we broke up, and the fisrt person I wanted to talk, that I missed (I don't really know how to explain this feeling), was her. So I called her and we started going out, we became best friends for the first time, I was SO happy, we talked every day, and how we missed each other, until one day that we were in a club and she kissed me, so we started to get out more often and kiss each other, but my happiest memory is of one that we went to the mall, and we walked hand in hand, I don't know how to explain, she asked me how I felt about it, I said great, but that I was afraid, to go to deep and in the end she may doesnt't want anything, she said to be cool about it, that she liked me back.
So, after some time, she said that it won't work out because she didn't love me, that she was looking for someone that she already created on her mind, a prince, and she couldn't stop searching, and she was afraid to hurt me.
I said "ok", and she was very worried (I'm deeply depressed, I go to doctors every week and this kind of thing), so she said that, we might "try again", so we tried again some times, for some months, and it didn't worked out, I said that it was enough, that I couldn't force her to love me, and I needed to leave her life in every way possible, she was very sad because I was her best and only friend.
But I can't forget her, I just can't, I enter in her facebook/twitter/instagram/etc. profile to see how she is doing, and she leaves messages like "I miss you, hope you're fine", and some text saying things that exactly fit in our problem.
For example, last week she called me, she said that we didn't talked for 19 days, she was couting, that she miss me so much, and I was like "I can't talk to you it will make me worse", she was asking if I didn't have anything to tell her, after this she wrote something like "you're right, I DO think you're stupid".
So it is just a friendship? Why she call me even knowing it will make it worse? Why she is always here? Even when I'm telling that we need to be apart?
I need to make clear, that she is VERY beautiful, she already worked as a model, so she doesn't have friends because everybody wants to take advantage of her, and I NEVER did that, she kissed me, I dind't make a move, I never tried anything, I'm a very shy guy and I think she wouldn't like it, but sometimes I feel like that to be more agressive, you know?
And she is very "generous", she wants to help everybody, but forgets about her, she was dating a guy just because he had low self esteem, so I don't know in what point she MAY like me, or if she just want to help with my depression.
Well I don't know, so many thoughts so many things to explain, if you guys could help me I would be extremely greatfull.
So here's my problem I'm a 20 yo boy who loves a 19 yo girl, seh always said to me that she is "very INFJ", she made me do a test and I'm a "INFP-T", I don't know what it really means but I'll tell my story and I hope you guys can help me.
In my first High School year (about 5 years ago), I met this girl, since then my life completely changed, for the fisrt time in my life I wanted to take an action, not just sit and wait something to happen, I REALLY wanted her, about a year later I told her how I felt about her, (about that time we were already friends), and the result was catastrophic.
So I finished High School, and started a relationship with another girl (ex- best friend of her), it went great for a time, but I was always thinking about her, last year we broke up, and the fisrt person I wanted to talk, that I missed (I don't really know how to explain this feeling), was her. So I called her and we started going out, we became best friends for the first time, I was SO happy, we talked every day, and how we missed each other, until one day that we were in a club and she kissed me, so we started to get out more often and kiss each other, but my happiest memory is of one that we went to the mall, and we walked hand in hand, I don't know how to explain, she asked me how I felt about it, I said great, but that I was afraid, to go to deep and in the end she may doesnt't want anything, she said to be cool about it, that she liked me back.
So, after some time, she said that it won't work out because she didn't love me, that she was looking for someone that she already created on her mind, a prince, and she couldn't stop searching, and she was afraid to hurt me.
I said "ok", and she was very worried (I'm deeply depressed, I go to doctors every week and this kind of thing), so she said that, we might "try again", so we tried again some times, for some months, and it didn't worked out, I said that it was enough, that I couldn't force her to love me, and I needed to leave her life in every way possible, she was very sad because I was her best and only friend.
But I can't forget her, I just can't, I enter in her facebook/twitter/instagram/etc. profile to see how she is doing, and she leaves messages like "I miss you, hope you're fine", and some text saying things that exactly fit in our problem.
For example, last week she called me, she said that we didn't talked for 19 days, she was couting, that she miss me so much, and I was like "I can't talk to you it will make me worse", she was asking if I didn't have anything to tell her, after this she wrote something like "you're right, I DO think you're stupid".
So it is just a friendship? Why she call me even knowing it will make it worse? Why she is always here? Even when I'm telling that we need to be apart?
I need to make clear, that she is VERY beautiful, she already worked as a model, so she doesn't have friends because everybody wants to take advantage of her, and I NEVER did that, she kissed me, I dind't make a move, I never tried anything, I'm a very shy guy and I think she wouldn't like it, but sometimes I feel like that to be more agressive, you know?
And she is very "generous", she wants to help everybody, but forgets about her, she was dating a guy just because he had low self esteem, so I don't know in what point she MAY like me, or if she just want to help with my depression.
Well I don't know, so many thoughts so many things to explain, if you guys could help me I would be extremely greatfull.
