It seems this thread has veered away from my drug use and back toward it's original intent, and I'm glad for that, but I do want to add this:
I started off talking about my experience as a hard-core INFP and the intense feelings contained therein, and I ended up realizing that my depression and drug problem (yes, I said
problem) are indeed related.
So I want to add something about drugs, for clarity's sake (in case anyone cares to know, without going through the Hell I've been through), and out of deep and abiding respect for Arclight.
He mentioned his drug use earlier in this thread, so I don't think he would mind my repeating it here, but he uses
good drugs, and I've used good
and bad drugs. Way too many bad drugs, and way too often. I just don't want anyone to associate Arclight's
constructive drug use with my
destructive drug use...
Listen: what follows is my learned opinion, after many years of experience:
There are good drugs and there are bad drugs.
The good drugs - Weed, Shrooms, LSD, MDMA (Ecstasy) - are
not addictive. They are not destructive. One doesn't lie, cheat or steal to get and use these drugs. They
expand the mind. They do not destroy it. And yes, I like to be altered, and I will do the good drugs again. They don't
hurt me. They have all been used in therapy (in progressive cultures and settings), and can help in untold ways when used properly.
Now for the bad drugs... the ones I have not done in a year (but still haunt me), and will never do again: Cocaine, Crystal Meth, and worst of all, Crack Cocaine.
Yikes. These are bad. Do not tread there.
They are most certainly addictive, and they will destroy you. They take you up so high that the inevitable fall back to reality is
devastating.
They change you. Whereas the good drugs
expand your mind, these bad drugs
derail your mind. Off to a whole other place where you should never go. They change the way you think, the way you
are, and they lie to you. They make you do things that, simply,
are not you. This is a bad thing.
Okay, nuff said about drugs. I won't know until I read this later if it says what I really wanted to say, but so be it. I did my best.
Thanks for reading, thanks for understanding, and to those special members who help me every day... big hugs and big love.
Abstract, over and out.