That explains why I don't comprehend America. I'm looking for a structure to help me find a job in order to survive, but all I'm getting is a bunch of nonsense about "knowing what I want," and "pushing for it." There's no coherent structure, the whole thing is chaotic and based on people chasing after ridiculous dreams, not knowing what the hell they're doing.
What kind of madmen can survive in such ambiguity? I almost think prison would be better...
I'm not cut out to be an American. I don't know where I belong... but it's somewhere where they've actually got established ways of doing things that aren't so dependent on knowing your own will and fighting hard. It may be a great country, but it's not great for people like me. It's for people who have big dreams, strong wills, loads of ambition, and want freedom above all. That's not me.
I want to find some place where you're allowed to contribute to a system in exchange for the goods needed to survive, and it's not overly difficult to get into a position to contribute to said system. But apparently that's too much to ask.