Quote Originally Posted by UnitOfPopulation View Post
I want to have a conscious understanding of what I do, so some of the deepest reaching self-illusions are out of the game for me. I actually seek out my self-deceptions even though finding them might hurt me emotionally. What survives, survives.

So, finding "inspiration" in something and "emulating" some behaviour pattern it is the highest deception I can go for.

What if you or I made a self-deception so great we wouldn't remember it afterwards? We'd have no recollection of it. It would seem as if it never took place.
Why do you have ENTX in your profile if you know that you are not ENTJ? I mean really believing you are one should be too hard if it is one the types you are stuck between.