^LOL! This sounds familiar, though my sx/so subtype I think is tempered by being e9. I know I am extremely passionate about many things so I have learned to temper what and how I say things so I don't sound too radical to my family (my friends already know). I think people are very surprised at the crazy things I have done, even though I am incredibly calm and even-tempered on the surface.

It took me a while to figure out I was an e9 because the subtype skews how I would usually classify that type. I can see where there might be a push/pull effect because I am seeking a peace within myself but then I have the sx intensity to connect....that explains a lot.