Are you overly concerned with your desirability?
I'm certainly more concerned than some people. I tend to imagine myself through 'lover's eyes' as it were, that is, through the eyes of an idealised partner.
Are you obssessed with something or somebody?
Obsessive, yep. Not for people I actually know though, at least so far (haven't really fallen for someone yet, not been in an LTR) - more a particular writer, artist, album, idea, project, whatever. I can fall into things pretty completely if I feel they "click" with me, but then it gets to a point when something in my brain goes "okay, you've taken everything from that you're going to get" and I lose interest pretty much overnight.
What kind of intense experience attract you? Do you actively reach it?
First and foremost, theatre. It's what I want to do with my life, directing specifically, and it seems to fit my needs so exactly - realising a personal vision, "deep" connection with others, [obsessive] focus on the play's concept/idea (my Ni loves this).
Interestingly, a lot of interviews with theatre pples I've read use language I tend to associate with sx-doms: describing theatre as a drug, an addiction, intense experience, like being in love even. Does the field have a high population of sx-doms I wonder?
But I think also, as was mentioned above, it's not so much the intensity of the experience itself as the intense way one's energy is focused on it.
Also film, photography, walking, other things...and certainly good (ie "deep" haha) conversation. Am trying to strive for these things more actively - without treading on other's toes too much.
Are you paranoid in relationships? Jealous?
Don't know..
Atention whoreness?
Maybe at times...I dunno, it's hard to be objective, I don't know what the standard is...
Are you agressive?
In a way - particularly in groups. It's not an intentional thing but I may come across that way. Without the more measured, broadly aware energy of SO, so in a group Fe tries to draw on what "should be said" but the seeking, pushing energy of sx tends to come on too strong, be too emphatic. Then if I realise I've "done something wrong" (am never quite sure what, or how it could have been avoided though :/) and sp snaps back and I withdraw.
Do you cultivate your masculinity? Feminity? Androgigny?
I cultivate attractiveness and/or bold individuality, which in my head are closely associated.
Are you or were you confused about your sexual orientation?
Yeah, vaguely.
Do you fear intimacy? Avoidant?
Do have avoidant tendencies, but am working on them. Dunno about fearing intimacy.
How much are you opened to new sexual experiences?
This doesn't mean much to me in the abstract, I'd have to decide on a specific instance with a specific person I s'pose.
How much are you opened to new experiences as a general rule?
Again, finding it hard to judge. Less open than ENxPs
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Do you aspire to "become one" with something or somebody?
Part of me knows this is realistically impossible and/or just the result of recognising a suitable genetic match. Another part of me screams and stamps its foot: "but I still want it, dammit!"
Do you consider yourself as sexy?
Erm, I try to be - or rather, I try to be "attractive", as it's more than about sex. Don't know if it succeeds, but meh.
Do you often receive compliments? How do you react to this?
I want compliments a lot - but when I've actually got them have no idea how to react.
Have you some passion for something or someone?
See above theatre rant.
How do you deal with peoples of the six differents variants (including the yours)?
Don't know enough pple's variants for sure to say, really.
What is(are) the variant(s) of you mate(s)?
Don't have one atm.
Do you identify with some desirable, sexy image and tend to look like them?
Have done in the past actually. But I felt that was rather self-rejecting after a while.
As an Sx/Sp, how would you explain the relationships between your sexual and self-pres instincts?
Fraught. Have repressed sx in the past, possibly/probably because it doesn't receive much support from close family (parents both sp/so - and yes, there goes another 4 claiming to be misunderstood as a child!). Now I'm more aware of it through Enneagram research etc, it's easier, but still kinda like trying to keep two utterly different plates spinning at once. The emotional storm is always brewing (cliche but the metaphor seems to capture the essence of how it feels). But it's good too.
