Quote Originally Posted by fidelia View Post
I'm so glad for you, Sparrow! I think you're on the money with masking the feelings. If you're going to get away from that stuff, you'll need to find a healthy outlet for dealing with what's went on/is going on and if possible change your circumstances so that you are not given more and more reasons to want to numb out or become reckless with your own life as a way of coping. You're a gutsy person! Hang in there.
Fidelia's posts are always so wise-insightful and well-written that I usually don't have much else to add .

But this time I will anyway. It's great to hear that you're done with it -- those feelings, however mask-worthy they may seem, won't destroy your life (and if they threaten to, there are better outlets/options). Can't say the same for cocaine. Hang in there!