Well, there isn't anything remotely related to being over excited or other mood order problems, so I can't bring myself to the idea of having BD anymore. The difference coincided with caffeine withdrawal so pronouncedly that it leaves no doubt in my mind. But then again, why couldn't I visit a shrink anyway. I hear BD involves latent periods, too.
But.. but.. but.. everything that has driven and motivated the emotional rollercoaster is gone. With caffeine I was so hyped up all the time, I was often greatly irritated from people being people and working at their normal speed. I couldn't bring myself to relax just "being" except with emulation. But, I was anxious for slowing down to the speed of others, not able to relax completely, even tho I wanted to interact with them.
The caffeine rush feeded the need for extreme intensity of interaction (Ne). It was hard to arrange for this, and the pumped-up brain was more dependent on it.
I had 4 days of tiredness, and a few days of headache from dropping the amount from about 400-600mg to 100-300mg.
I'm afraid there aren't any current symptoms or issues to be reported to the psychologist should I go to see one right now. Hypomania & mania reportedly make the person ignorant of their own condition, but being as lazy, carefree and unexcited as I am, I can't believe in that explanation either.
It's the most probable explanation: I don't have BD, or I'm only subject to it under some conditions which I don't have right now.