What is true happiness? Is it something different from the every day sort that happens as a consequence rather than a goal?
Happiness is like a drug which once experienced becomes a condition desired again and again. It comes from feeling completely content with your existence for a brief moment. But we cannot be happy all our lives, that's just greed and like greed an overindulgence creates only more want as opposed to satisfaction.
It's easy to say this and harder to remember, especially when times are shit and our emotions are at their most negative..... but happiness is all part of a larger experience that involves the worst as well as the best.
Happiness is best when unlooked for and the sudden surprise of its appearance is one of the more beautiful aspects of our lives.
I know you're hurting [MENTION=18694]Magic Qwan[/MENTION] and I'm crap at advice, but I hope your tough times pass.