Terrified Together

[Mole]

I am terrified - I am terrified of everything. I am terrified of taking the next step. I am terrified of the indifference of cats. I am terrified of the sunshine. I am terrified of raindrops - and we have had so many of them.

I am terrified to take my next breath. So I hold my breath - I hold my breath - and they tell me, if I don't take my next breath, I will die.

And yet around me everyone is normal. How I long for the terror of the French Revolution so that everyone would feel the same.

Around me they are normal, living comfortable lives of quiet desperation.

But what could be more terrifying than to be the only terrified person in a crowd of normal people?

I look across the crowded room, looking for another terrified face, perhaps hiding in a corner, and I will ask her to come sit under the stairs with me. And we can hold hands in the dark and be terrified together.

 

[VagrantFarce]

Just breathe - you exist too. Feel it in your chest and gut, as it slows your mind and gives you clarity. Feel how your heart and body are already connected to everyone and everything around you. Hold onto that feeling, and know that it ok to let go of your racing thoughts. Recognise that no one has a monopoly on "normal", and that there's no shame in being everything you love - and that you have the presence to face anyone who chooses to hate that. When you do, you won't need to hide under the stairs anymore.

 

[Totenkindly]

I think that kind of missed Victor's point completely.

 

[VagrantFarce]

Is that meant to invalidate what I said? I related to what Victor posted, and whether he was looking for it or not, I offered my thoughts.

 

[Rasofy]

What's terrifying you [MENTION=3325]Victor[/MENTION]? Tell us more about it.
Sometimes I think there could be a misunderstood genius behind those vague yet intriguing words.

 

[Totenkindly]

Is that meant to invalidate what I said? I related to what Victor posted, and whether he was looking for it or not, I offered my thoughts.

Invalidate? Am I supposed to be validating you?

No, just noting that it seemed to totally miss what Victor's point was, content-wise, since you didn't seem to realize that; maybe it would help you recalibrate with him and connect better.

 

[VagrantFarce]

Invalidate? Am I supposed to be validating you?

Well, no, but I don't see how what I posted displays a lack of understanding of what Victor posted - on the contrary, I feel it's coming from a deep understanding of what Victor describes.

 

[Totenkindly]

Whatever. I already said what I wanted to say in my first post, and this is belaboring it. Talk to Victor.

 

[Ginkgo]

I am terrified - I am terrified of everything. I am terrified of taking the next step. I am terrified of the indifference of cats. I am terrified of the sunshine. I am terrified of raindrops - and we have had so many of them.

I am terrified to take my next breath. So I hold my breath - I hold my breath - and they tell me, if I don't take my next breath, I will die.

And yet around me everyone is normal. How I long for the terror of the French Revolution so that everyone would feel the same.

Around me they are normal, living comfortable lives of quiet desperation.

But what could be more terrifying than to be the only terrified person in a crowd of normal people?

I look across the crowded room, looking for another terrified face, perhaps hiding in a corner, and I will ask her to come sit under the stairs with me. And we can hold hands in the dark and be terrified together.

More evidence that cats are stingy and unreliable.

 

[KDude]

I don't know. My cat is too needy and meows too much. Bad influence from the dogs, I think.

 

[Stanton Moore]

I am terrified - I am terrified of everything. I am terrified of taking the next step. I am terrified of the indifference of cats. I am terrified of the sunshine. I am terrified of raindrops - and we have had so many of them.

I am terrified to take my next breath. So I hold my breath - I hold my breath - and they tell me, if I don't take my next breath, I will die.

And yet around me everyone is normal. How I long for the terror of the French Revolution so that everyone would feel the same.

Around me they are normal, living comfortable lives of quiet desperation.

But what could be more terrifying than to be the only terrified person in a crowd of normal people?

I look across the crowded room, looking for another terrified face, perhaps hiding in a corner, and I will ask her to come sit under the stairs with me. And we can hold hands in the dark and be terrified together.

Hmm. I can relate.

 

[Mole]

Hmm. I can relate.

We can share the existential terror of the dark, hands across the Pacific, from Canberra to Seattle.

 

[Mole]

More evidence that cats are stingy and unreliable.

Rather than leaving carbon footprints, cats leave pawprints of existential terror. They terrorised the Ancient Egyptians so much, the Pharaohs worshipped them.

 

[Mole]

Well, no, but I don't see how what I posted displays a lack of understanding of what Victor posted - on the contrary, I feel it's coming from a deep understanding of what Victor describes.

Yes in a nutshell, my existential terror comes from being alone, but evaporates when I realise you are alone too.

 

[Mole]

What's terrifying you [MENTION=3325]Victor[/MENTION]? Tell us more about it.
Sometimes I think there could be a misunderstood genius behind those vague yet intriguing words.

I am terrified of everything.

But alas, the Age of the misunderstood genius is passing, as we enter the Age of the misunderstood electronic tribe in the global village.