Is this a normal thought proccess?

[ceecee]

Does it still count if I wasnt the one who decided. Because when I tried they wouldn't let me

Who decided? There is so much cryptic stuff in here I can't get a clear view.

 

[prplchknz]

the people I was living with.

 

[ceecee]

Does it still count if I wasnt the one who decided. Because when I tried they wouldn't let me

the people I was living with.

So they kicked you out but they wouldn't let you voluntarily leave? That sounds far more fucked up than thinking you want to kill yourself/them because you live there.

 

[prplchknz]

It doesn't matter, because they're the "well adjusted" ones, I'm the fucked up one who can't make her own decisions.

they said I was trying to run away.

 

[skylights]

if it was an abnormal/unhealthy environment, then it would logically lead to abnormal/unhealthy thoughts.

it's only if you're out of that environment and generally recovered from the experience yet still having those same thoughts at the same intensity as before that i would consider it to not be normal.

 

[wolfy]

Normal, abnormal... I think healthy/unhealthy is a more apt dichotomy in this case.

I'd agree with this. Killing others is generally frowned upon. You need to create some space.

 

[prplchknz]

if it was an abnormal/unhealthy environment, then it would logically lead to abnormal/unhealthy thoughts.

it's only if you're out of that environment and generally recovered from the experience yet still having those same thoughts at the same intensity as before that i would consider it to not be normal.

I was feeling trapped, once I got out I had no reason to kill anyone.