I'm sorry I didn't read all of the thread. I think you are going through self-discovery. Don't resist it. You need to buried the person you were in high school. Say hello to the woman you're supposed to be. It sound like you still have parts of you that are the same- like your values. You are unique and different, you are an enfp. Celebrate that! I'm sorry you are going through, I understand exactly what you are feeling. But I believe you'll get through this. I think you might like the woman you become post high school.