And there I was, drenched in the blood of my enemies, righting the wrongs they have brought upon us, and shouted: "Glory to those with merit".
I'm the youngest in my family and I always despised witnessing my sisters blindly obeying my older brother or my eldest sister. Respect is earned, not demanded. They lacked assertiveness. They were too agreeable. I was their voice in their time of need, and even in their time of denial when they helplessly strived to preserve peace at the cost of their own well-being. "You don't believe shit of what you're saying.", was my catchphrase.
At school, I remember a little incident including a studious girl in my class. We were assigned some homework, and almost everyone copied from her. The teacher accused her of handing her assignment to everyone and asked her to go meet her due punishment. She was silent. I had a withdrawn nature, and I never gave a fuck about groups or fitting in or that shit. I was shy, calm, determined, and poised. It was never my business to make friends, even though I had many. I stood up and I looked at their faces. The class was puzzled, the teacher was intrigued. I said, "None of you is going to speak up?". They knew themselves, and they were filled with shame and anger. The teacher asked me what's going on, and I told them if they're not going to speak, I will. A girl felt compelled to speak and brought what happened to light.
I was and still am the voice for those unable to speak. I have no idea why I end up helping such fools.
I was always assigned to be the leader of groups and projects, even when I didn't want to. I was perceived as the voice of sagacity, the mastermind, the timeless sage and the bringer of just judgments.
On the other hand, I never was aggressive in my leadership. A sword strikes deeper when enchanted with ataraxy.
I had an introspective part of me that saw through people, their emotions, their motives, and their psyche. Never was I a loud person like most 8s, hell, I think most loud men are insecure, for to speak is with assertiveness and confidence. No more.
Even during my childhood, I lead by example, by being mentally in the destination before everyone else. With vision and precision.
I also might had and have a lot of women in my life, with whom I could establish an amazing emotional connection, but I never put relationships on a pedestal. Never did, never will. It's just how it is.