[Traditional Enneagram] Need help determining my type

[PurpleFlowers54]

Confused about my enneagram type, I have reasons for being most of the types honestly (some more than others).
I have also heard that enneagram has to do with fears so here are my biggest overall fears about life:

- that me and my ideas won't be remembered past death (that I won't leave my mark and all my thoughts, ideas, and beliefs will go to waste)
- being under the control of a hive mind, I'm a lone wolf with my own original beliefs, ideas, and most importantly morals, and I like to keep it that way. (sometimes I'm a bit too cautious of new trends and such because of this)
- that there's not enough time to do everything in life (on a lesser scale than the other 2)

Also here are my traits of each type:

1.) I can be a perfectionist/completionist, and I like to speak my mind and have my opinion heard
2.) I always want to be involved/included and hate being left out, I want to be everyone's friend (probably due to bullying in middle school), and hate not being acknowledge
3.) I overachieve quite a bit (mostly on video games and knowledge), to look cool and be liked
4.) As said above, I'm a strict nonconformist and independent thinker, and am afraid of not being able to think for myself. I also loathe micromanagement
5.) I'm very independent, in my head 90% of the time, and always want new knowledge as some things are just kinda "good to know". I can be a bit of an idea/knowledge hoarder.
6.) I'm a very anxious person and overthink things constantly, as said above I'm very cautious, & I prefer some sense of safety. I also have this feeling of that I'm not quite secure unless I have one, and just one, sanctuary/resourceful space, or comfort object. (this space or object must be easily changeable & adaptable)
7.) I'm quite an adventurer, always coming up with different solo adventure scenarios for myself, I love when things get action packed orchaotic (I love when things get crazy or out of hand, It's really fun), and I'm always thinking up how to get out of the worst case scenario if it were to occur.
8.) I will fiercely stand up for what I believe is right if challenged
9.) I don't really see myself as a 9

Some other things that may help

- I try to master a lot skills
- I get really angry if someone doesn't see me or someone I love as an individual
- I get really angry if someone doesn't specifically acknowledge me or someone I love, and ask our permission, or opinion (I don't care much for oblivious or "fake" people)
- My MBTI is eNFP - T

 

[highlander]

Confused about my enneagram type, I have reasons for being most of the types honestly (some more than others).
I have also heard that enneagram has to do with fears so here are my biggest overall fears about life:

- that me and my ideas won't be remembered past death (that I won't leave my mark and all my thoughts, ideas, and beliefs will go to waste)
- being under the control of a hive mind, I'm a lone wolf with my own original beliefs, ideas, and most importantly morals, and I like to keep it that way. (sometimes I'm a bit too cautious of new trends and such because of this)
- that there's not enough time to do everything in life (on a lesser scale than the other 2)

Also here are my traits of each type:

1.) I can be a perfectionist/completionist, and I like to speak my mind and have my opinion heard
2.) I always want to be involved/included and hate being left out, I want to be everyone's friend (probably due to bullying in middle school), and hate not being acknowledge
3.) I overachieve quite a bit (mostly on video games and knowledge), to look cool and be liked
4.) As said above, I'm a strict nonconformist and independent thinker, and am afraid of not being able to think for myself. I also loathe micromanagement
5.) I'm very independent, in my head 90% of the time, and always want new knowledge as some things are just kinda "good to know". I can be a bit of an idea/knowledge hoarder.
6.) I'm a very anxious person and overthink things constantly, as said above I'm very cautious, & I prefer some sense of safety. I also have this feeling of that I'm not quite secure unless I have one, and just one, sanctuary/resourceful space, or comfort object. (this space or object must be easily changeable & adaptable)
7.) I'm quite an adventurer, always coming up with different solo adventure scenarios for myself, I love when things get action packed orchaotic (I love when things get crazy or out of hand, It's really fun), and I'm always thinking up how to get out of the worst case scenario if it were to occur.
8.) I will fiercely stand up for what I believe is right if challenged
9.) I don't really see myself as a 9

Some other things that may help

- I try to master a lot skills
- I get really angry if someone doesn't see me or someone I love as an individual
- I get really angry if someone doesn't specifically acknowledge me or someone I love, and ask our permission, or opinion (I don't care much for oblivious or "fake" people)
- My MBTI is eNFP - T

I would say if you are an ENFP that you are probably a 4w5. The second bullet seems like a 4 and a lot of things you said in the numbered items feel 5ish. I would think you could be a 5 even but I don't think there area lot of ENFP 5s.

These are the stats I have on how common each type is.

 

[Smilephantomhive]

It's odd for an extravert to be in their head 90% of the time. I know Ne doms can sometimes be introvert/extraverts but they're still extraverts and prefer the external world. Maybe you are an INFP??

I have some questions since I am split on your enneagram.

Why do you think you want to look cool and be liked?
Why do you think it's so important for you to be a non conformist?
Can you rate each of the points you made to most prominent to least? (your 9 one would be last)

 

[PurpleFlowers54]

I would say if you are an ENFP that you are probably a 4w5. The second bullet seems like a 4 and a lot of things you said in the numbered items feel 5ish. I would think you could be a 5 even but I don't think there area lot of ENFP 5s.

These are the stats I have on how common each type is.

Thanks for the feedback :3

 

[PurpleFlowers54]

It's odd for an extravert to be in their head 90% of the time. I know Ne doms can sometimes be introvert/extraverts but they're still extraverts and prefer the external world. Maybe you are an INFP??

I have some questions since I am split on your enneagram.

Why do you think you want to look cool and be liked?
Why do you think it's so important for you to be a non conformist?
Can you rate each of the points you made to most prominent to least? (your 9 one would be last)

To answer your first statement, when I say "in my head" I mean my mind is always buzzing and searching for reasons behind things as well as possibilities for the future

and for your questions:

1.) I was excluded from a lot of things younger due to bullying, and therefore want to be a part of things and be liked
2.) Because I have a fear of not being able to think for myself, and that I will have my unique ways comprimisted under control, and also because I hate being controlled
3.) 9, 1, 3, 2, 8, 6, 5, 7, 4

 

[Smilephantomhive]

hmm you do seem 4.

 

[Punderstorm]

Definitely core 4.