[Traditional Enneagram] I think that is enneagram related. Is it?

[westrom]

Of course it is, but what type?

The danger is losing contact with one’s real self in this effort, and becoming overly identified with one’s role at work.".

That's actually a fear I have. What does it mean?
If I make effort, I may not think the way I do now after, I might become like others, change too much.
Me adapting to other is weird:

Like, if I think of living in UNI dormitory, I fear my roommates I'd live with would be people I can't stand. I would probably be very serious about not behaving like them at all.
I do think I am chameleon, but in a weird way. If I like someone, I will probably try to adapt their behavior to mine, see how it goes, and then with time kinda compress it, and take only what fits. However, if I don't like someone, I might even refuse to buy the bread, if I find out that she buys it too, so yea, it's serious.
Also, I am following a vlogger on youtube. She's just person I like, and feel like that she would very seriously influence me. I have been planning to watch the videos for 2 years now I think. But I can't do that, because that would change me a lot, like even 1 video could influence me and disbalance me.

I will mention that I am xxNJ, I think it plays an important role here too.

What do you think, guys?

 

[Boogie man]

This sounds like your type may be in the 3-6-9 triangle.
They are the ones who can really fear losing themselves like that, so you could definitely look in that direction.
I can't really narrow it down any further, but maybe you can share more about how this makes you feel and how you react to it?

 

[westrom]

This sounds like your type may be in the 3-6-9 triangle.
They are the ones who can really fear losing themselves like that, so you could definitely look in that direction.
I can't really narrow it down any further, but maybe you can share more about how this makes you feel and how you react to it?

Interesting. I am actually 99% convinced that I am 3. Just unsure w2 or w4. 1% for 9.

I am not sure how exactly to answer this question now. Like if I was around people and I had to somehow fit in with those I don't like, I just wouldn't do that. I would obviously feel stressed.

I think I am running out of time sometimes. I don't watch many movies, because like if I watched 5 of them in a row, I would feel different, having a different view on the world, so it's like I would be confused about my vision of life again. It seems I always need a goal, and when I realize there could be a better one, I get a bit stressed. And. lol. When I see someone successful, I usually want to be like them. So I get stressed by doing stuff a lot, my goals always at the edge of changing. If that makes sense.

 

[Boogie man]

Interesting. I am actually 99% convinced that I am 3. Just unsure w2 or w4. 1% for 9.

I am not sure how exactly to answer this question now. Like if I was around people and I had to somehow fit in with those I don't like, I just wouldn't do that. I would obviously feel stressed.

I think I am running out of time sometimes. I don't watch many movies, because like if I watched 5 of them in a row, I would feel different, having a different view on the world, so it's like I would be confused about my vision of life again. It seems I always need a goal, and when I realize there could be a better one, I get a bit stressed. And. lol. When I see someone successful, I usually want to be like them. So I get stressed by doing stuff a lot, my goals always at the edge of changing. If that makes sense.

I think you're right, that sounds an awful lot like type 3. Especially the feeling of running out of time, and realizing that there's always a goal out there for you. And yeah, having your worldview and feelings change based on a movie, being affected by the world to such degree, that definitely fits with the types 3, 6 and 9.

 

[ceecee]

Also, I am following a vlogger on youtube. She's just person I like, and feel like that she would very seriously influence me. I have been planning to watch the videos for 2 years now I think. But I can't do that, because that would change me a lot, like even 1 video could influence me and disbalance me.

This paragraph is really concerning to me. Why would a single video influence you that much?

 

[draon9]

I think you are 4w3 dud.

 

[Boogie man]

I think you are 4w3 dud.

How is any of this 4?

 

[draon9]

Take that back, you arw threw