The reason I'm asking is that after moving to university last week, I started acting totally 9-I felt disconnected from everythnig and my usual tough independent exterior pretty much vanished. Because I didn't have any kind of deep connection to anyone in the vicinity of my university I felt like I would somehow drop off the face of the earth every time I walked anywhere by myself and somehow it didn't seem to matter to me how much connection I had with people miles away; I felt disconnected from everything. I read that the 9's basic fear is to be separated and isolated from everyone and of annihilation and that was exactly how I felt-annihilated. I even cried started crying, which is really weird because since I was about 12 i've only ever cried from anger, not sadness. I seemed to become a different person-e.g. I've always been pretty much in control of myself when it comes to alcohol, which I associate with being an 8 because of the 8's desire for control and coming across as tough but suddenly a drop of malibu would make me drunk. I started wondering if I'd misdiognosed my enneagram type.
However since lessons have started I've gone back to my old self more or less-because I remembered why I actually came here and felt like part of the Classics student body and so connected to something. I'm now behaving like an 8 again.
So i was wondering if the stress of moving to uni-and maybe the awareness that I needed to make connections-caused my wing to take over-maybe trying to protect my dominant preference? Does anyone have any similar experiences?
However since lessons have started I've gone back to my old self more or less-because I remembered why I actually came here and felt like part of the Classics student body and so connected to something. I'm now behaving like an 8 again.
So i was wondering if the stress of moving to uni-and maybe the awareness that I needed to make connections-caused my wing to take over-maybe trying to protect my dominant preference? Does anyone have any similar experiences?
