Oh shit, now you've gone and done it.
(I guess Spoiler tags don't work or I'm too stupid to do it right, which seems likely so just read at your discretion.
Katsura hoshino is paying for my therapy.
I wish I were being dramatic but I am dead -fucking- serious the similarities are like she reached into the deepest parts of mind and sculpted a character out of what she found.
Under normal circumstances this would be fine, great even, someone I can actually relate to ( even if they aren't real) except that every fucking fangirl on the planet thinks a) He is sooooo "OMG HAWT/BADASS!!!11 !!! b) that THEY are sooo like him. You know, because they swear. c) Both
I don't usually wish real violence on people who have done no harm to others but-and that takes a LOT of self control for me- but I swear to GOD every time I go to a convention and hear some idiot bitch prattle on about " I'm' the best Kanda cuz I'm the prettiest!" and then shun me because I'm ugly, I honestly want to shove her pretty little face into on-coming traffic.
TBH, when I was very little I looked a lot like Kanda Yuu but now I am quite old, worn-down and just covered in scars and other deformations..because that's what ACTUALLY HAPPENS when you spend your childhood in a research center as a guinea pig for a very rare disease where everyday you have to do things that hurt you, make you constantly ill and damned near kill in a desperate attempt to save other people ( well, and ourselves considering my timing). Constantly breaking yourself and knowing that one day you wont be able to get up but do what you have to do anyway because if you're given a life-whether you asked for it or not-you're going to run yourself into the ground on your own damned terms and not just sitting around crying about it, waiting for some curse ( or in my case disease) to do it for you
I also got in a lot of fights at said research center because I was...not quite like the other kids. They decided to go with support and friendship-and they're all dead. I went with strength and discipline and alive, in fact the healthiest person who's ever had Cytsanosis-and hell no I don't want to here some adorable and vamped little bitch talk about how " OMG I sooo relate to this character!"
Oh, and I have this funny story about lotus flowers-I never thought they were real. When I was little I used to constantly dream about " These magic flowers that could float on water." I drew them obssesively. My Mom found my pictures one day and asked how I knew what a Lotus flower was. I told her I had no idea what she was talking about "Those aren't real, flowers can't float on water."
I always wanted to get a lotus tattoo because they mean so much to me...but now " Oooh I want a lotus too! I have no idea what it means but OMG KANDA11!!!
!1
In reality I've started to hate the character. The fucking idiot fangirls just looooove him but wont give me the time of day.
*Siiigh* I feel better now.
and act that we dont have any feelings but we both have deep hearts of gold under all that cold detachment plus we have a similar sense of humor)
