wedekit
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I don't try and deny my despair when I experience it; I know some people do. The worst part about despair to me is the feeling you get when you have searched for a grain of hope in anything, but you realize nothing shines as bright as what you lost or can't have. I went through some despair about my mortality after an emergency surgery I had to have back in March. I was stuck in bed for 2 weeks and it really got to me. I was mess. The future for me had turned into some kind of dark cloud that I couldn't see through. No future = no hope.
I ended up forcing myself to attend my classes a week earlier than the doctor ordered and forced myself to get back in the groove of things. Doing all of the makeup work was difficult, especially since some of it was tests and quizzes I missed. It wasn't easy, but being back around what was familiar to me really took the edge out of my despair. The surgery was on my intestines too, so the stitches always ached when I moved or coughed. One word to describe it all: shitty.
I ended up forcing myself to attend my classes a week earlier than the doctor ordered and forced myself to get back in the groove of things. Doing all of the makeup work was difficult, especially since some of it was tests and quizzes I missed. It wasn't easy, but being back around what was familiar to me really took the edge out of my despair. The surgery was on my intestines too, so the stitches always ached when I moved or coughed. One word to describe it all: shitty.