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1.Do you ever tell your brain to shut up, because it is always going on and on?
Sure. But just telling it to shut up isn’t effective; I’ve got to get my mind on something else. I’ve always wanted to try meditation; always been unable to sit still for 5 minutes without falling asleep, getting bored, or getting a piece of paper so I can at least write down all the things I’m remembering I have to do. I’d love to find a nice quiet state of creativity.
2. Do you think maybe there something bigger in-stored for you in your life?
Stored; as in compartmentalized somewhere in the food pantries of life, in Tupperware marked with my name? Nah. Of course, I’d love to be a part of something bigger than myself. But I believe these big things in life aren’t stamped with my name, or maybe I’ll have to scrape together something bigger in life, or just wander into something and make it my own. ...Not sure. In short, I wish, but I doubt it, so I'll try to find/create something meaningful.
3. How nostalgic are you?
Not very. I don’t remember much from my childhood. However, some things like old video games, songs, and pictures I’ve drawn make me feel a bit nostalgic. There is one childhood smell that brings me back a little; it’s a sort of out-doorsy carroty, wet earth smell. It’s actually kind of gross, heh. I normally ignore the past; but if something I’ve forgotten hits me, it gives me a bit of pleasure, if not any actual longing for the past or vivid memories of the past.
4. Do you find it hard to talk to Sensors?
It’s hard to talk to everyone. It’s a bit harder, with sensors, to get past the small-talk stage and find something that really connects us two.
5. If you can have any super power what would it be and why?
Oh – I’ve thought of this extensively! After sadly rejecting flight, I’ve decided that the ability to control time would be much more useful and increase my quality of life greatly. I could sleep for 9 hours every night, be able to pause every conversation to think of something to say, and rewind all my awkward social missteps. All the time in the world! Lovely.
6. Do you admire ESXPs because there ability to enjoy the present to the fullest?
Oh definitely! ESTPs, you glorious bastards.
7.What is your obsessions?
Drawing, writing, walking underneath the moon on chilly nights. Psychology, self-improvement and personality systems. Social issues and attempting to champion against racism, sexism, and all forms of prejudice. Creating characters and diversifying their pasts, appearances, personalities, and stories. Trying to be more knowledgeable, creative, socially adjusted, competent, and all that.
8. Do find yourself sad for no reason? or because in actuality everything is sad? (Idk if that make senses.)
Makes perfect sense. Yes to both. I occasionally have mood swings that swing into hypomanic states, usually induced by being with friends, chocolate, self-discoveries, roller coasters, lack of worries, or something awesome on the internet, and depressive states, induced by insecurities, negative interactions, and usually the piling up of many small things. Er. In a slight rewording of the question, I often find myself happy, despite how things in actuality are pretty sad. But not everything. I can just ignore the sad things for a time.
9. Are you ever truly happy?
Heh. Once, someone I barely knew asked me that. And I said I wasn’t happy, but satisfied. After more reflection, I realized it was the other way around. I am often happy, but only because I manage to ignore my goals and ridiculously high standards for a while. I am not satisfied with life. I’m not sure how what being “truly happy†is. Is it being in a baseline state of happiness, that may change, but always reverts back? Is it being happy in general? Is it knowing everything is really alright? …I doubt I’m truly happy, but it depends on the definition of that.
10. For me I love when people remember the little things, or do the little things for me. Ex. Giving me rock and saying how that represents something special. How about you all? Also would you keep it or toss it eventually?
I don’t know if anyone has ever given me something that represents something. So I’m not sure – I would probably keep it but wouldn't necessarily be all that attached to it, honestly. I’m not very attached to items in general. I love it when people remember things about me, or reveal in some way that they know me.
11. Do you try to relive little moments, that where special or made you feel a certain something? It could be anything ex. eating cereal while sitting on your bed and watching a late night program, so you try relive this the next day because you were comfy and you enjoyed it so much. Also it never usually works for me.
No. Hmm. Maybe I should. I rarely think about my past. I barely remember what I did two days ago. I’m pretty bad at reliving things. Especially reliving good things.
12. Can you find flaws in people or in objects easily?
Oh, quite easily when I'm analyzing or critiquing cynically. Except when I’m in my “social†mood. This mood of general friendliness and often shallow interactions is different from my “over-enthusiastic†mood, which I use solely with very good friends. This social mood is a bit awkward, but very friendly and accepting, in which I adapt easily to the circumstances and am not that surprised by anything people say. I usually get pretty good impressions of people then. But when I’m not interacting with people, as an observer, I find flaws very easily. I’m the kind of person you want editing your essays for tiny flaws, or finding flaws in a debate, as long as I have time to think about it.
13. How do you all handle stress?
Not well. The bodily sensations are quite alarming sometimes with intense stress and anxiety. But with more normal, day-to-day stress, I’m good at getting work done, not so good at not resenting it. On a more practical note, I try to go for nice jogs and walks at night if I get stressed, or try to modulate my breathing, or just try to unwind with a hilarious conversation or stupid video. Or have impromptu dance parties when no one's looking.
Random unnumbered question. Do you get very involved in communities and teams, or prefer to be a bit of a lone-wolf?.
I join lots of things but work best on my own. Clubs, organizations, all that, I join them to try and be social and gain useful skills. But when it comes to projects, I always feel like I work best on my own, maybe ideally with a brainstorming session or two before I actually do the work.