Thanks guys
You know to me this girl is a book with seven seals as you'ld say in german. We are very equal and we can communicate in ways so closely I'ld never thought possible for two strangers at all. She's very open-minded and has the ability to see the big picture what helps her understand the real meaning behind things and I love her for that.
Yet on an emotional level, she often does appear to be so super egoistic to me that I am even repelled. Everytime she does a thing I interpreted egoistical, I tell her and then she exaplains to me how she really thought while doing it so I see she didnt mean it egoistical. I am then tho sceptical if she isnt not only bending truth to make her look better.
I am definitly convinced she's egoistical at times I mean hello she's a woman
. But we need to solve this issue between us and either I am too sensitive or she does know nothing about behaviour in society. I think we both need to learn a bit from each other, it's tho everytime I am engaged in Fe-mode she and me misunderstand each others. And I just dont think that is necessary.
When she wrote me that about the tick I felt loved by her; she wrote it to me in a sms on a day we slept seperatly [she was with her parents]. This was great, she said me often she loves me but when she wrote that in a sms I really felt something to.
With most people who were nerds in society so far I got around quite well, because they listened to me; but she's way too stubborn for that. It's a bit like Dharma and Greg if you know that show, I know I want to change a lot to understand her better, because I dont want to loose her; my greatest fear tho is that I will be the only one who does change and that she just makes me her peon she can do anything with -.-
I am trapped between giving up control (Ti) and changing my ways and customs to learn new (Si) aqnd these are two faculties I was never not the slightest bit good at in all my life..