Thank you Idec, I'm considering your thoughts! I'm in agreement in the sense that I build people up. I do that yes (or try to). Interestingly enough though, I'm horribly uncomfortable with my Fi and tend to avoid "feeling" my feelings. I tend to rationalize them because I feel guilty, ashamed and embarrassed with expression of my negative emotions. I honestly can't accept or tollerate my negative feelings. I love expressing my positive ones openly though, haha.
I think for myself in all honesty, I'm more hurt if someone else is hurting. I always feel a sense of helplessness and wish to trade them places so that they could find peace. For whatever reason I'm pretty tough and can manage other peoples burdens. If they're happy, then I'm happy. Problem solved!
I do have a select few personal beliefs that go against society. I'm mainly interested in taking a more observatory stance on most subjects. I'm fine if others don't share my beliefs, as long as they are willing to converse / debate / discuss with mutual respect for mine. I'm more concerned with a persons attitude, than their beliefs. If we can't listen to one and other, then we maintain a sense of apathy.
I personally find Ne annoying because it feels too open ended. I liken it to a "winging it" attitude because it lacks structure. I appreciate direction somehow, and I have always been very conscious of Ni within myself.
Here is the strange thing...
I absolutely love the poetic depth and warmth of the INFP. I do believe I look very warm and personable in my avatar. To be honest, I hate the picture. I think it's very unflattering and there is the weirdness of seeing my boyfriend's hand in it too haha. But I love the look of warmth in my eyes. That is why I decided to use it. (Plus my new pink glasses). You are right with how kind they look in it. I'm not too sure they look that way at all times though, as I was giving my guy the "I love you, honey" gaze.
So lately I have been on an extroverted kick! I'm here and beginning to open up more and I'm liking it. I only shared the two pictures of myself about 2 weeks ago (avatar pic and one other in my profile album). Before that, I was basically annonymous. I really wanted to become part of the forum and get to know other members. And I wanted to be more aproachable with my avatar picture, in hopes that others would feel more comfortable.
I've shared my heart a little on my blog. Mainly though, I tend to find I write more reflectively and without much drama (hopefully!). I'm guarded to be overly specific and detailed in my sharing, as I've discovered the hard way about how much I could burden others with my problems. So I'm open but aim to record my competence as an individual just living my life.
So still not an organized set of personal dynamics as far as I see myself with regards to my functions. But INFP would be a fair guess, I believe.
I still strongly desire to be able to distinctly organize my inner self after the dust settles. I think there is a fair amount of chaos and heartache in my personal life atm of which annoys me greatly. And oddly enough for a change, I'm less inclined to care about certain things now as much as I used to. I suppose I'm just confused.