I stand by what I said though. your anger reminds me much more of a 9/9 fixer (you don't come across as angry even when you are).
This is a good point. Ginkgo has scolded people plenty of times, but the type of anger I see more often is the 4/6 type -- lashing out, out of nowhere, and then retreating. Being almost the opposite of angry the rest of the time.
EJCC might be able to explain it better, being a core 1.
Not sure. I can only speak to the 1 core -- I have no idea what having 1 as your last fix would be like. But I will say that if what my friends say is true, my anger feels
immense -- like it's been around for a long, long time -- an awakening demon or something. Not like 4 or 6 anger, where it seems like a gut reaction to a perceived threat. It feels like the smallest glimpse of something apocalyptic -- the tip of an iceberg. It usually scares them. I usually have to reassure them afterwards.
It's only my very, very perceptive friends who can see the fuse slowly burning away -- and it scares them the whole time. They only stick around because they know I protect my loved ones from that. They know they'll never be on the receiving end of it.
Hope that helped. Although I feel like other people would be better at explaining how my anger comes across, than I would. I'm best at explaining how it feels firsthand.
p.s. I know this was related to reps/wall convo, but Gink asked me about the 1 conception of peace, and I posted this:
EJCC said:
@rep: I'm not sure what the 1w9 view on this is -- because I'm so incredibly far removed from 1w9 -- but here's my general approach:
- I want groups of people to be peaceful because it's more efficient (ESTJ) and chaos under my watch would make me feel guilty for doing it all wrong (1) -- plus people would be mad at me and that makes me feel bad (2 wing)
- I want the broader external world to be peaceful because harmony and synchronicity are the way that things are meant to be -- they are the pinnacle, the Platonic ideal of absolute perfection, and when things are in harmony in my universe, I feel this almost heavenly bliss as I bask in the perfection that I feel so deprived of in my everyday life (1)
- I want my internal world to be in harmony because it's in some kind of turmoil when it's not. Maybe it's repressed anger about little things going wrong, maybe it's anxiety about my own imperfections or other people recognizing those imperfections (1w2, 3 fix). See the above section for how I'd rather be feeling
... and Gink said he agreed with ALL of that. Dunno what that means, but I was surprised enough that he agreed that I thought 1w9 was a distinct possibility.