I can relate and it sucks.
I suck at even taking care of myself a lot of the time. My words probably don't have much merit since I'm still just a college froshie but having a responsibility to take care of yourself, make and go to appointments, pay bills, actually pay attention to how much money is being spent, etc all sucks and makes life not as beautiful as we actually see it. Just keep reminding yourself you still have a lot to get from life and you're not gonna go down without a fight. There's plenty more of the world to be explored and much more from life to discover. There's endless possibilities awaiting in everyone's future so let that motivate you and inspire you to push through the obstacles life throws your way.
Edit: woop woop, 700th post.