How do you feel emotions?
Well, when I get emotional, it will be just for a moment. It is usually a feeling that can't be contained, and it will outburst. So, if I get angry, I could say something terrible to someone close to me. After that, I usually calm down. Same goes for other feelings too, like happiness. Suddenly I just can't contain my happiness, and I just start smiling on my own. Usually it will pass within seconds.
So in short, sometimes strong feelings get control over me, but just for a moment. Other than that, it might be difficult for others to tell what I'm feeling. And usually I'm feeling quite neutral.
Do you not feel them most of the time except under extreme conditions?
That's quite so. Most of the time I'm being just plain neutral.
How often do you cry?
Very, very rarely. During the past 10 years, I recall only crying twice. Although, moments of great heroism and epicness brings a tear to my eye, but I wouldn't call that crying. When I'm feeling very sad, I rather just feel very depressed.
Do your emotions suprise you when they emerge?
No, not really. Although sometimes I feel my feelings in my bones... you know, I can sense the feeling in my body rather than in my mind. It makes me wonder, why is my body preparing for a feeling.
"Hmm... my blood pressure is rising, my tone is getting little bit more aggressive, I can feel my arms starting to shake... am I getting angry? I wonder why..."
Can you easily supress them when they do interfere with what you have to do?
This would probably mean if I'd be able to act objectively towards persons I have feelings for. I don't recall ever having to do so, and can't really imagine a situation where I would have to. There's always "the right thing to do" in my mind, and I'd follow it through hell.
When with others that you know you love, are you filled with hapy love feelings or just content in the knowledge of attachment?
The latter. Like said previously, feelings don't last very long for me. They sometimes just outburst, and other than that, I feel merely content.
What does being in love feel like for you vs loving a family member?
I think the main difference in here is that one is a constant and one is not. My brothers will always be my brothers, no matter what happens. This some what brings in the status quo-feeling. My family is my family, and I should treat them as such, regardless of situation.
However, love affairs are never constant. Besides the emotions, there's nothing else to keep the connection alive, so one must keep the emotions well fed. Being a service-oriented person that I am, this usually leads me into a role of a provider/supporter.
So, all in all... feelings have little relevancy in my life. They spice up the moments and work only during major events, but on day-to-day life they do not really appear.