VagrantFarce
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- Nov 19, 2008
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So you've been on this site for god-knows how long - what have you learned about yourself in the process?
Personally, I've learned how utterly self-neglecting I've truly been my whole life - on an almost fundamental level. It's incredible how much more comfortable I was withdrawing and hiding than truly asserting my own presence and taking responsibility for my own happiness. That I was content to live with so little for so long is kind of incredible. I might as well have not existed.
I felt so threatened by what people expected of me that I preferred to not even get involved. "God forbid I speak up and make my presence known, who knows what might happen?" That I made things worse with silly excuses (including typology) only exacerbates the incredulity.
While I don't think I'm out of the hole I dug for myself yet, I now feel more able and present and connected than I have in a very long time. And all it took was a bit of belligerence and positive action on my part.
What about you guys?
Personally, I've learned how utterly self-neglecting I've truly been my whole life - on an almost fundamental level. It's incredible how much more comfortable I was withdrawing and hiding than truly asserting my own presence and taking responsibility for my own happiness. That I was content to live with so little for so long is kind of incredible. I might as well have not existed.
I felt so threatened by what people expected of me that I preferred to not even get involved. "God forbid I speak up and make my presence known, who knows what might happen?" That I made things worse with silly excuses (including typology) only exacerbates the incredulity.
While I don't think I'm out of the hole I dug for myself yet, I now feel more able and present and connected than I have in a very long time. And all it took was a bit of belligerence and positive action on my part.
What about you guys?