Does the impact of intent in quantum physics actually suggest an intelligence in the universe, or is that just one more pattern humans are imposing in order to escape their fear of meaninglessness? I'm feeling like it's the latter, more and more, and how would we know anyway?
I didn't really plan to be an absurdist, but there it is... I feel like I've been inevitably channeled into that frame of thinking by cold hard reality itself, and that I never really had choice in the matter... for who can or would deny indefinitely the ideas that make the most sense of them? I tried to be a pure theist for years but was always torn; I would like to believe but after all this I can't see any of it, not enough fingerhold to latch onto, and at what point does faith in an unsupportable truth become foolishness and a lack of integrity? Hollywood venerates those who fight for an otherworldly vision and often grants them remarkable success in proving their beliefs to be true... but real life, such people often just ... fail and disappear. Life is not a PG-13 Hollywood epic drama, and usually Braveheart just gets drawn and quartered and forgotten, his followers fled despondently.
It seems a lot more noble to me to accept the inherent absurdity of life and not "make up answers" to help me live with personal meaning and vision but to establish the vision within where it's not going to waver.