I believe in a few rather specific things, even a pantheon of deities, and more besides them.
Cernunnos, Odin... Whatever pantheon, whatever Indo-European pagan religion you follow, the same elements are there.
Those have many names throughout many cultures. Cernunnos alone goes by more than a handful of names.
Cernunnos, Herne the hunter, the Green Man, The Horned God, Cernwn, Pan, etc.
In its essence, I am somewhat of an animist. I don't worship individual spirits or anything like that.
I worship through transformation, being one with the land. They call it transformation, because for a period of time, ranging from hours to seconds, the wild takes control of you.
Your senses are heightened drastically, you become stronger, comprehend it ALL, feel everything around you like in some bad Star Wars parody.
It's crazy, or so I thought, but it's real. More real than civilization or anything else will ever be to those of us who have experienced it.
I don't know anything about an afterlife, and i'm not old enough to care much yet. I bet there is something in store.
Can't say i'm much for groups of people prancing around naked in circles with chalices and whatnot... I don't believe that they get more out of that than regular partying.
Seems more like a social thing, really. But to each his or her own, I guess.
What I can say, about what I believe in, is that you'll never be the same again once you've had a transformation.
It opens doors you didn't know existed, and firmly closes others. Before this crap, I used to be an atheist and a communist, two things that are inseparably welded together.
Now, I care more for what is natural and what is not, and I try to follow what is natural for me. My impulses, intuitions, feelings.
I can't say that it has made me more happy, either. At times, yes. And acting naturally instead of putting up with society's bullshit lies... It can be liberating.
But it makes you sad to see how far we have fallen, while trying to fool ourselves that we have become better. More "civilized", like that was ever a good thing.
When i'm out on a long walk in deep wilderness, I can forget and just live for a while, but seeing our concrete prison that we have built in our growing ignorance and foolish pride makes me bitter.
Then again, like all things built by men, it will go away and nature will remain.
You could call me spiritual, I guess.