I cranked out two questionnaires on perc, I'd thought I'd bring them here as well since I basically posted the same thread here
MBTI
1. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
Not really, besides heavy bits of depression here and there. I am male, 15 years and 11 months old (perhaps a little too young for typology), and longing for something more, yet content.
2. Study these two images
here and
here. Which one do you prefer and why? How would you describe it?
Photo 1: It's a close up shot of the tide rushing in on the beach, and it looks like there's a slight aura developing, which leads me to think this may be a wintertime photo. Not much else to describe about this photo. It does trigger a craving for a beach run.
Photo 2: A woman is breaking apart either stromboli or a croissant, which I think is more likely to be croissant, because if it was not, then why the hell would there be a mug of coffee right next to her dish? Personally I wouldn't enjoy coffee with a hearty dish like stromboli, the two elements really aren't on the same food wavelength. But that's just me. I like the atmosphere of the photo, looks nice and relaxing, very coffeehouse-ish and gives me an indie vibe. The randomness of how the photo was taken also gives me the impression the person taking the photo was a foodie/blogger mainly because I wouldn't expect a more professional photographer taking a picture of someone preparing their food, very heat-of-the-moment. I'd expect it to be a more fixed photo if that was the case.
As far as what photo I prefer, I guess
#1 mainly because it triggers memories of my heavy weather and atmospheric fascination as a kid. Good times.
3. Please describe yourself as a person if you were to introduce yourself to someone else like in a cover letter. What kind of person are you and why?
Fuck, this is a tough one because I'm the type of person that will introduce myself in different variations depending on my state of mind, and the types of patterns flowing through my head. I'd usually be inclined to just say "Well, how about you get to know me yourself, hah." if someone asked me in a casual situation because I feel like it ruins the purpose in a way. But I also have to take into account how the person would feel about that response, I don't want to offend someone I know nothing about. But in a more structured sense:
"I am a 15 year old male in his freshman year of high school. Sometimes I feel like an old soul trapped in a boyish body. I cannot describe myself in one sentence; the intricacies of my mind and my artificial existence have leaped from different areas in which those areas just cannot be accurately summarized. Maybe I just did describe myself in one sentence, meh."
I really think this is the most accurate way of describing myself, especially since it really ties into how I started to answer this question, above. And yeah, this was a quote from my OP.
4. What kind of person would you LIKE to be? Why? What kind of person would you NOT want to be? Why?
I've really gotten to know myself and have discovered my values and principles over the past three years. I have these abstract and vague transmutations that pop up in my head, depicting the future, including possible variations of myself. I've always had that, come to think of it. I feel like certain things actually define me, and in a way, they make me feel proud. I don't like expressing myself blatantly, I prefer the subtle way of self-expression. But with that aside:
Like: Musical, intellectual/insightful, intuitive, observationally humorous, rational, multi-talented, calm and collected, mentally engaged.
Dislike: Hypocritical, ignorant, shallow, boring, lacking depth, hot-tempered/on-edge, anxious, depressive, incompetent, dysfunctional.
5. Do you think there are any differences to how you described yourself and how people actually perceive you? How do you think others would describe you? If there are any discrepancies between these two that are you are aware of; do you know why exactly that is?
You see, questions like these are tough because from person to person, there is such a broad perspective on yourself. My closest friends think I'm intelligent and hilarious, which is usually boiled down to the term "chill" (synonym of "cool" for those who are foreign to the term). But to answer the question, yes, in a way there is a difference. That difference being that there is a lot more than what I am showing, at the surface. The abstract (what's going on in my mind) contains so many mechanisms and patterns that ultimately come from some little perspective, perception, or feeling, which blossoms over time. I think some friends misunderstand where I'm coming from sometimes with my sense of humor, for example, because they think I'm, for example, making fun of someone that I don't like for saying something totally stupid, and me picking apart the numerous inconsistencies of their statement, is because I'm just being a sarcastic asshole. And that's sometimes true, but sometimes I get so frustrated as to why these people say these things, how they can have such shallow reasoning, or be so dispassionate, or condescending, whatever. It's pure cynicism, filtered through a cunning sarcasm desiring to rip apart every inconsistency through a flavor of comedic irritation.
To answer the question a little more specifically, people usually find me interesting because they think I seem to have a much deeper and more thoughtful perspective, usually on something that I spend a lot of time thinking about. I bring that up because my a few of my interests are ones that are a little more offbeat compared to most people's my age. And I'd generally agree with them, but sometimes I find that I'll say something that just seems like common sense to me, and they go, "Wow, that's actually so true!".
I don't really think that there really are many discrepancies, only that people might not see everything that's going on in the surface. People usually capture my essence as a sarcastic, intellectual, and perceptive person and I think they tend to form a personality of me in their head (opinion) that doesn't capture all of me. Sometimes I might need time to recharge at school to immerse myself in my thoughts, feelings and ideas, and people will be like "You okay, dude?". However, I've gotten a lot better at overall expression and become pretty damn assertive compared to my generally passive child-form.
6. What in life do you find to be of importance? Why? If you are unsure you can always take the Value Test and post the results here. Do note that it helps if you narrow it down to 20 or ideally 10 values as suggested at stage 2.
Really think this ties into how I answered question
#4 in quite a few ways. I think this question should be explained through myself, as in, what I want in my life. I just don't want to be stuck in a rut. I want adventure, but peace. I value mentally engaged activities, which include the activities that are ignorantly tied to the burdens of the world, like video games, but I also like chasing storms, and playing music, and creativity, and working out patterns internally and externally (but usually internally, especially at first). I also really like the idea of an exhilarating and adventurous romance with someone. But most importantly, living up to my standards, which can be high. I just don't want to settle for something, just because it's hard to attain it. That also feels like a sign of weakness. This is all what's important for me.
Objectively speaking, there's really nothing. Everything is subjective, in fact. I really think this is a question people should answer deeply themselves. Of course I could speak objectively in terms of what I would want in society and the like, but I won't hold it to people too deeply. I know I can't change the world. That's why I think most movements and the like are a waste of time, generally speaking.
7. How do you react to new situations in your life? Can you describe an event in your life where you were in an unknown situation? How did you deal with it?
As a kid, if it struck a negative chord, I had a tendency to break down and cry like a little bitch, in the most extreme of situations. Though, I'd say I get a generalized anxiety where I fear certain patterns to come to life and swallow me whole. One example that I'll give that I also gave in the OP:
"after flirting with my ADHD sides for the next two years (more of the PI variant) cramming myself into lalaland, one year, I think four years back, I got a laptop for christmas. I think I was 12 years old that year. (Just checked the history vault, yep, I was 12.) There, I found the glorious wonder called the "internet". A haven full of personal stories of how the "real world" operates. Browsing this database combined with rough and at times, abusive family ties, threw me into a different section of life. A different section of life, that made me see things differently. Not just seeing things differently, but feeling things differently. A part of me was scared about the "real world" and my journey in it. I was discovering new things about myself. It was a huge internal paradigm shift."
Basically, I was entering puberty, experiencing increasing turbulence in my family life, was headed towards a new school environment in "middle school", and was taking in (perhaps too literally and deeply) multiple insights of "the real world" through advanced pages of cache called "the internet", all at once. Looking back, it looked and felt like my childhood was being ripped right out of my life, much like one rips out weeds to make room for new flowers to bloom. This new paradigm of my life came at me so suddenly I was starting to develop these new perspectives and philosophies which sometimes scared the shit out of me, and made me afraid of life in a lot of ways. Combined with everything else, it really through me into a depression. However, it was also positive in a sense, since it minimized my previous worries which allowed me to start saying "fuck it", and started expressing myself better at school, and stopped caring about what teachers thought. And started getting really good at pointing out the ironies and inconsistencies of many things. And started to express more useful creativity.
8. Please describe yourself when you are in a stressful situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
My world forms a capping inversion. My energy goes into a loop, and I have to analyze the same shit over and over again until I'm damn sure about what the fuck is going on. My creativity is suppressed. I think this actually could have been a lot worse, in terms of consistency. I've only flirted with this through brief periods of my life over the past three years, but new experiences and friends have brought me back after a while. But damn it was weird. I stay in my room and roam around certain patterns in my head that fascinate me emotionally. My choice of music and internet browsing usually match these patterns, which do add insult to injury. Though, I have been starting to fear change because I worry these internal patterns will start up again, even more aggressively because of my increased awareness.
9. Please describe yourself when you are in an enjoyable situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
Depends on the situation. Having a good conversation with friends, I feel like my mind is "training" and searching for perspectives in every angle so I can come up with things to say, but I'm generally amused, internally and externally. When alone, observing, I feel at peace, inspired, creative, and usually become fascinated with my perceptions. I have been finding myself comparing a certain element to another more often, which is usually for self-amusement. I guess in general, I feel like my mind and body are branching out. Almost longing for an increased intensity, sometimes. Or just want to take the whole situation in and internalize the fuck out of it, so I can attempt to relive it whenever I encounter a similar situation. Which reminds me how much I love the philosophy "enjoy the little things in life, for one day, they will become the big things."
10. Describe your relationship to socialization. How do you perceive one-on-one interaction? How do you perceive group interaction?
I'm usually fine in group situations (if I don't feel overly drowned out), but I prefer depth over breadth. 1o1 is good because I feel like it allows a deeper and clearer understanding to come through on both ends, yet group is a lot more dynamic. It's almost like serial vs parallel cabling. I could have better comparisons in regards to this, but that's the only one I can pick out at the moment.
11. Describe your relationship to society. What are the elements of it you hold important or unimportant (e.g. social norms, values, customs, traditions)? How do you see people as a whole?
Yeah, there are a million different dynamics surrounding this but the funny thing is, there doesn't have to be that many...well if you're an ignorant fuck, like a certain media anchor or the like. I feel like society is boiled down to many definitions which become very black and white, and that's funny because that's what society does in general. Society defines society. We have so many people saying "I don't want to be 'normal', that's fucking stupid!" and then go on Facebook and post photos of themselves emitting awkward facial expressions and such, but the thing they don't realize is, that eventually becomes "normal". It's kind of shallow, to me. I think it stems from an insecurity of previous generations values in an attempt to rebel against them, which ultimately forms new values, rinse and repeat. I feel like everything is just being dragged around like an increasing chain of random elements being dragged around by a truck.
I question and disregard certain external values internally, but sometimes I have no choice but to conform because I feel like it will get me into deeper shit in the long run and just decide to put up with it. I also go by "damned if you do, damned if you don't" quite a bit. Yeah certain things like social media are probably the devil, but it's pointless to rebel against things that become the mean, because it generally becomes inconvenient.
In general, society really sucks but there are also certain elements that can be refreshing. Like the observationally comedic environment, and the passionate people that create their own environments by becoming magnets that pull their values into one, shaping their lives. The people that give a fuck but don't at the same time, aka, knowing the line of caring too much, or when it's necessary.
And yes....I somehow answered this question backwards. Goes to show you how scatterbrained I can be.
12. Describe your relationship to authority. How do you perceive authority? What does it mean to you, and how do you deal with it?
I guess I like the idea of authority but goddamn it, most people just don't know how to execute it. Sometimes certain things just don't make any sense to me, even things that I know will never be accepted as a whole in society. Like how I think mental maturity trumps physical age when it comes to certain laws, like how old you have to be to consume alcohol and the like. And I strongly disagree with the idea of enforcing obedience even when the obedience is no longer necessary or relevant. I have an increasingly turbulent relationship with my mom, because I feel like she has become more authoritative yet often unnecessarily, since becoming the only parent over the last year or so has been stressful for her. I just wish people would chill the fuck out and not be so black and white and inflexible sometimes. Yeah, black and white authority is really fucking stupid. That's something that's really driving society downhill.
13. Describe your relationship to order and chaos. What do order and chaos mean to you? How do they manifest in your daily life?
I'm not sure what this means, but unless I think it's necessary to structure an idea or creation, order doesn't mean much. Though I often feel the need to make up my mind just because I find it satisfying somehow. It's like there's a judge somewhere scrambling for order in my mind, that pops out on occasion.
14. What is it that you fear in life? Why? How does this fear manifest to you both in how you think and how you act?
Not being able to accomplish what I set out to. Being incompetent by my standards, societies too but not really what people generally think but the basic fundamentals of life. I've never had a relationship before and it's something that my feeling faculty inside of me is hungry for. But I sometimes feel out of place. I don't want to fall short of my goals. I daydream a lot and have very random scenarios that pop up in my head, and even though it can be very unknown and out of the realm of possibility, I think about what my life would be like if I had some type of developmental disorder/disability like schizophrenia or Autism/Asperger's. I know I've been through a lot of shit but if I really did have something like one of these, which is always possible, and was sure that it was preventing me from reaching my goals, in the most extreme cases I might really be inclined to kill myself because of it. Not just because of the likelihood of not being able to live the way I want to, but also because it feels like a violation of my identity, something that I struggle to accept. Because I have a perception in mind of what these disabilities are, formulated by research and empirical evidence of how these disorders and disabilities manifest in people. I become a part of that perception somehow, and that wrecks me. I don't know but I wonder about it, and know that people discover parts of themselves that they never would have anticipated. I sometimes worry this will happen someday.
However, I wouldn't say it has much influence over my main judgements.
15. What is it that you desire in life? What do you strive to achieve? Why? Where do you think these drives and desires stem from or are inspired by?
I think I've kind of answered this question through bits of pieces of my answers here, so far. I guess I could reiterate. Musical talent, creative talent, learning new things, interesting career (actually feel like I'm starting to rebel against the nine-to-five/ratrace wavelength), romantic relationship and watching it grow from there, raise a family, and surrounding myself in calm, euphoric, fascinating yet nostalgic environments. Traveling too. Desired achievements come from all of these things as well. I'm not entirely sure where these stem from, though I feel like they stem from passionate feelings of fascination.
16. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
a) Being mentally engaged in anything I'm occupied in. Like playing music, or cooking, or reading up on something I'm interested in. Contemplating. Oh, this is something I love to immerse myself in because I feel like I'm consciously aware of every part of me (mainly my mind) branching out. Socializing too, but it energizes my social creativeness which I find fascinating.
b) Working on or occupying something that I just don't really give a fuck about. Oddly enough, finishing a socialization session. I think this is because my mind is settling down from branching out and it just flows through my body.
17. Why do you want to know your type? What type do you think you are? Why this/these type(s)? Is there a type that appeals to you, to your self-perception, that you would like to be? Why? If you know your enneagram, please post this here. If you have done any online function tests such as the Keys2Cognition, it helps if you post these results here as well.
Yeah, I don't really know. I just started researching this on and off, about six or seven months ago, and it really fascinated me because it led me to organize the multiple systems of someone's judgement and perception. If I thought I was a certain type, I most likely would have not mentioned anyone in this thread. I have had fond thoughts of being a certain type early on, but as I got deeper into the theory, I realized they were all bullshit generalizations for the most part.
18. Finally, is there something else you find to be of importance you want to add about yourself you think might be of relevance when helping to type you?
Not really. Anyone who reads this, feel free to ask me any questions.