Okey since my last thread back in 2010 ive made some progress in my health and wealth. For one, ive got a job now so im not so worried about my economy anymore. Second is that ive started playing soccer and i go to the gym.
The problem is my effort. I dont feel that i can do so good in the job as i wish nor as good on the football field. Although sometimes i think im so damn tired and exhausted all the fucking time that makes people around me get the impression that im lazy. If their really is something im excited about i get an short burst of energy like getting my salary, going out to party or playing with my little head. Okej so usually when i am this tired i get crazy ideas like people around me is talking behind my back or making plays for the gallery wich becomes so scary that makes me have strong anxiety attacks wich makes my fantasy takes things further and creates an evil circle.
Anyway. I got diagnosed schizophrenia sometime ago with paranoia. Does it fit me and is their a cure? Could it be transfered from relatives? Im adopted.
The problem is my effort. I dont feel that i can do so good in the job as i wish nor as good on the football field. Although sometimes i think im so damn tired and exhausted all the fucking time that makes people around me get the impression that im lazy. If their really is something im excited about i get an short burst of energy like getting my salary, going out to party or playing with my little head. Okej so usually when i am this tired i get crazy ideas like people around me is talking behind my back or making plays for the gallery wich becomes so scary that makes me have strong anxiety attacks wich makes my fantasy takes things further and creates an evil circle.
Anyway. I got diagnosed schizophrenia sometime ago with paranoia. Does it fit me and is their a cure? Could it be transfered from relatives? Im adopted.