Well, I mean, it's not as bad in a one on one conversation, well, somewhat. In conversations with 2+ people at least, and sometimes with one other person, I take like 10-15 seconds thinking about my response to something, preparing what I want to say, how I want to say it, and manipulating my response based on how I think it might be perceived until I come to something that I think is worth saying.
That's why I hate conversations where I have to think quickly. I'm making judgments based off an incredibly small amount of thought, and if I were given a little bit of time to think about it, I would've had MUCH more of an impact. There are plenty times where I have a conversation with someone, I say something fucking stupid, and then 30 minutes later after I've left them, and I'm standing somewhere alone, I all of a sudden come up with this brilliant response. It just makes me avoid conversations because I know how much I suck at coming up with impactful things on the spot.